You can break a heart
But you can't taint my soul

Yours will come for you
In the middle of the night
Dead asleep
It'll grip your chest like a heart attack
Just a breath away from salvation
That will never arrive
Or inflate your lungs
Your mind will race with thoughts of death
And me
In the moments that separate fact from fiction
Your mind will decide the choice you made
Wrapped in the lies you told
Dammed you to a life of wondering
If I still think of you the way you wish I do

I'm falling for you
And my heart cant take it

Girl, I'd ask you to stay
But I know you'd break it

I'd give you my heart
Straight from the start
But that's not smart

You're the girl
With the lovely face

And I want to hold you
In my tight embrace

Far sweeter than the ***** I chug
You sting less than any drug
Yet on my chest you slightly tug

With a smile like that
Girl, you're the devil

All I can do
Is sit here and revel

Come walk with me to the place of dreams
Let us dance forever in this silver lining
The diamonds of my dress glistening
Off the light of the stars in your eyes
Let the music carry us
While your arms pull me into the sun
With endless skies ahead
and many galaxies to come
We could be eternal

I never thought
you ever fought for me
Until now
as I see you still on the field
Fighting a war
that someone else already won

Night after night
Of crying in agony
because of you
Now I spend my precious tears
Giving them to the moon
and wishing for you back

Darling, please,
Lay your head down
Even on my shoulder

Curl up nice and warm
Grab the blankets
And my arm

I'll fight the demons away
If only for tonight
You don't need to be strong

Your fight is over
The war has ended
Its time for me to save you

Close your eyes
I'll hold your head
It's time for you to rest

I want to say we're post-modern
Like in literature we're new styles
And we test the bounds of the rules

But we're not post-modern
There's one central idea to be denied
That is:

there is nothing left to be created

Maybe for literature that's tire
But not us, no
We create new love
Every day
And with each kiss

That's what happens when you're unfaithful
Everyone finds out eventually
and rarely wants to hear the excuse
Because there just isn't one

I thought sleeping with you
meant laying next to you
sharing body heat
not giving you my body
followed by hollowing abandonment

I know it's selfish
To laugh at your pain
And still wish
I could take you home
At the end of the night

Pin me down against the silky bed
Forever keep me locked inside this place
The rhythm of your name within my head
I want to feel the passion in your grace

Sing to me such sweet nothings of the heart
We wait for morning light to take us there
Lie to me- say we'll never fall apart
The way we love, they say it isn't fair

The mighty dawn approaches hold me near
In the cold you're the heat I want to find
Wipe away all the hardships and the fear
Maybe the two of us are intertwined

****** my heart and make me feel so funny
In your heart forever as your Bunny

In the frosty fields of night
They thought they hid their sins

Buried
Low beneath the ice
Buried deep below the snow

In the waking silence
I found my breath

My lungs ripped and pulled —
gasp — after gasp —
Pleading only to choke

Dirt!
Solid, filling, heavy
Killing

Filling my chest by lung
Crushing my hope in pressure

My hands work frantic
as buckets, rakes, and hatchets
Beseeching the Earth to open

A prayer seems lost
in this desolate darkness
of endless soil

As fear and panic subside
acceptance and frostbite
cascade over me like an endless sea

One last sigh-
I relinquish all to the Mother
Whose frozen embrace will keep me still

Maybe sins are better left buried

A cigarette will fix things
It has to

Each release breathes out the smoke
And the toxins from within

All I need do next is light the fire
And watch it all burn

Now comes the time
When I full the void
With little red lines

You called today
I didn't pick up
Because I don't love you
Until I see you loving her

I don't know how to say it to you.
...So,
I guess I just shouldn't,
right?

To humble beginnings,
Spectacular ends,
The journey that connects the two,
And everything after...

I bet you could frost me over
Even in the middle of summer

Puff puff puff
'Till my lungs turn black
I want to love him
But he'll never love me back

The images flash
The scene of rolling through less than satin sheets
Cheap with their pungent signature scent
It's hardly forgotten
Especially when it wafts by on another
Or maybe it's a sensational trick of the brain
A stoke of evil from withing

All of a sudden I became tired

Almost like the world had drained me of everything

My eyes closed to the new and faded my memories
My mouth ripped the power from my words
And the dark silence made me weak

My ears remained open

I heard their words- all of them
I listened to their evil jokes
I was tormented by their every laugh

And I knew it was all for me

Who else would deserve such misfortune?

I wish you'd never read my words again
So I can tell my tales of hurt and heart break
Love, lust, and war
without fear of worry

And here I thought you were the snow
The cold, the slick, and the iced over
But I guess for once I was wrong
You were far from the snow
You were the warmth
The heat in everything high and low
And here I thought you were the snow

Words are like flowers
Ephemeral and beautiful
But cut short is their life
Once they leave the lips
It becomes the duty of action
To animate them into fruition
With persistence and grace
To keep them alive long after they’re spoken
And seasons change

From the falling of leaves
To the settling of snow
Trapped in winters grip
‘Til spring came to thaw
We’ve spoken many words
Fleeting and playful
With passion to match

Much like the flower
Flames can be evanescent
If left unattended
Yet in your absence
The light abounds

Summers soft warmth
Will hold us tight
As we hold each other
And brace for the chilled breeze of fall
To blow us back to October
To our first hellos
Without goodbye in sight

I don't wanna come down
I don't wanna land
If being in the clouds
Gets me away from you
Why would I ever
Come back down?

I missed out on too much
While missing you
I miss it all
Shame you're missing yourself
And now you've missed me for good

Trying to write this to you now is nearly impossible.
The pen becomes so heavy in my hand it makes my fingers ache.
Every word etched into the paper
feels like another bout of blasphemy nailed to our hearts.
If only love was as easy as faking smiles in passing glances.

My greatest fear
is that I'm going nowhere
too **** fast

But not for me

Ice cold
lies told
To keep his heart beating

Her eyes are heavy
And her tears are tired
She can sleep
Oh no, not yet
If she sleeps now, she wont wake
with the rising of the mourning sun
Tonight she lives to suffer
Her heart to be ripped away in agony
Only the shell will be left
What is left of her liquid insides
will be refilled into her
like a frozen tetanus shot cutting thought her blood
but not just though her arm
All over her body

But the moonlight seeps in
She looks but she wont take the Horseman's hand
She'll flirt with the idea of him
The clock on the wall tells her to go
To sleep with the rising moon
dance with the shadows in her head
Memories of light are the only images
like a romance movie she watches for help
Only a few more moments before the Sun returns
He rises to save her soul only for a
fleeting moment after another
Until the prideful pain returns with the moon
Each night

Your life is poison
And your soul is dark

Your existence is toxic
And your presence is addicting

Your actions are magnetic
And your eyes are maddening

You're just the one I need
And you're the only drug I'll take

And most things in-between
A sugar coated horror show
People who visit never know
Even as the light doth shine
Every heart beats before its out of time

If you fear monsters or the dark
Best be brave and find a spark
To light your path back to reality
I warned you so don't be mad at me
The people who come never leave
And for your loss the rest will grieve

I'm excited to kiss her
The spark wont be there
- this I know
and it's not what I'm excited for
It'll be the rush
rustling faster causing the wind to revolt with an uproar
eyes closing to escape the rain
Then
Suddenly
the bright flash of light- and shock!
Not the spark!
But the shock of pure joy surging through tissue and blood
The clapping of thunder sounding silently as eyes lift

That is the moment I wait for eagerly

I remember the day you left
You went on to new places
      And you left me behind

I remember the day you left
You wore a smile and a suit
      And you left me behind

I remember the day you left
Your body stayed and your soul moved on
      And you left me behind

I remember the day you left
Your mother wept, as did I
      And you left me behind

I remember the day you died
Your body was cold, and so followed my heart
      And that was the day you left me behind
      Forever

I'm praying for a miracle
While sifting through this pile of cash
How foolish I must be
To think life could flourish here

The way you hugged the bottle
Tighter than you ever held me
Allowed me to see fatherly love
For a toxin much stronger than myself
Something inanimate
That would take the pain away
Like my smile never did
I guess my love for you
Could never heal like the whiskey

Death does not shake me
Because I know how I'll die
It'll be brutal and painful
Not like a stray bullet or hit by a car
The cancer will **** me slowly
It will break down my body
Then **** off my soul
I know this will happen
Everytime I light the cause

The only thing worthy of release
Is the air from my lungs
As it wades through the water
Crashing up to the surface
Gaining the freedom
I so desperately crave
While I remain below the sky's reflectant

In that moment of weakness
I relapsed
I forgave
And was destroyed
Again

We leave the room smelling like ***
But when you leave
It wreaks of depression.

Poems can't mend every hearbreak
But I'll de dammed if I don't try

Do you think butterflies are just as beautiful
Even with wings ripped off?

From the center of the moon
To the deepest part of the ocean
No...
The distance between stars
Millions of years away-
No...
The distance between the stings of my heart
And every other gap in between

You feel like a life time ago

It's something you got
From a fickle girl

Just an apology
Not common of her character

The words you never heard before
Out of the blue

I'm sorry that it ends this way
I just had to leave
Before we boil in sin
My heart cannot be conflicted
By one raw material and
From things not of this world
Running as my feet blister
Only to keep them from melting

Remember all those years ago?
They warned us that all that time together wasn't good-
Was not healthy- but its not like we were on a diet
We drank in the warmth of each others company
And feasted on delightful conversation

Now, when you leave I know why we were warned
I put the weakest peaces of myself in you, hoping that
Maybe when you leave, I would only be stronger
All I did was tear myself apart

When you go my mind beings to decompose
You were all that kept it alive
My monsters creep out form the closet
Like every day is Halloween, but they're not after candy-
They're after me

My heart breaks down
I can feel the pieces fall into my gut
Those soft eyes kept it pumping
The lack of you is dangerous
All of me falls apat

Constantly and only when you're gone

I know why they said it wasn't healthy for us
Because you replaced all my other addictions
I cry and beat my head against the wall because I know
Nothing I could smoke would **** the lingering pain like you
Without you, I'm just a shell waiting to be filled again
....with anything

Which is why I do what I do-
When the distance is unbearable
Someone else offers to fill me with light
Sometimes I think it might be love
It never is, and I don't think it ever could have been
Love is the chemical my brain produces when my heart starts beating
Only ever reanimated and put back together by your gaze

Letting you walk away is a dangerous game
Time is the unbearable theashold
How long is too long before I become
More than just empty...too empty
Or too broken

It all sounds bad, I know, but that is not the case
I learned something while being entertained by others
You are all I ever need
I was emptied faster with them- they were not you
This distance is killing me, however, that is not a problem
Because you alone can bring me back to life



...never forget though, it still rains every moment you're gone

When I closed my eyes and dreamt of you
The visions I had were beautiful
-and cursed
You looked so lovely
-and my eyes couldn't break away
The way you reacted to the escalation
My heart fell
-so far down it broke the veil of slumber
My lips long for you
Other limbs quiver with anticipation
but my eyes-
I'm scared for them to close agian
In fear of the image never changing
backed with the fear those images
may even replay with my eyes open