I want to run away
From all my problems
I want to give up
I want to curl up into myself
And cry until it doesn't hurt anymore
When you decided you didn't want me
It hurt and still does but
I can get over you
When I left him I still loved him
And I think I always will
That's why this hurts so much
I need someone to hold me
And tell me that eventually
Someone won't break my heart
That I will love someone
Who actually wants to be loved
I don't think I can take
This pain any longer
My chest hurts
I can't breathe
I feel like lying in bed
Till the world ends
Because my depression
Is telling me thats all
That I can do
So maybe
I'll just
Give up

We were messed up kids
With messed up families
Who desperately needed someone who cared
We were addicts
Just as bad as the people who raised us
But we were addicted to each other
The attention, the need
We loved each other
But hated ourselves
That's why it worked so well

We had a secret club houses
Deep in the woods
Where no one would find us
Make believe worlds
Held together with shoe strings and branches
Curfew was something we never listened to
Because being together was way better than
Being home.

I miss being a little kid
Running threw those woods
Holding on to sweaty hands
Going to get snacks with food stamps
Never wanting to be home
I miss my life as it was
Gardens growing out of plastic blue bins
Little sisters being annoying
Best friends who never left my side
Friends I never thought I’d lose.

I’m happy that I have these memories
Because life couldn’t continue the way it was
12 years olds out till 1 am
Parents who didn’t care
Self harm and depression that increased daily
Relationships broken and people lost.

I’m older now and life goes on
Even now that I have none of them at my side
I still love them and wish for the days that felt
Like they’d never end.

Hello,
I wonder how you're doing
We don't talk much now a days
I̶ ̶t̶h̶i̶n̶k̶ ̶o̶f̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶o̶f̶t̶e̶n̶
I hope you're doing alright
Y̶o̶u̶ ̶b̶r̶o̶k̶e̶ ̶m̶y̶ ̶h̶e̶a̶r̶t̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶I̶ ̶b̶r̶o̶k̶e̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶r̶s̶
Maybe one day we can talk again
B̶u̶t̶ ̶I̶ ̶d̶o̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶t̶h̶i̶n̶k̶ ̶I̶ ̶c̶a̶n̶ ̶s̶t̶o̶m̶a̶c̶h̶ ̶h̶e̶a̶r̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶r̶ ̶v̶o̶i̶c̶e̶

Sincerely,
             The Girl You Used To Love

Hello,
I wonder how you're doing
We don't talk much now a days
I̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶d̶e̶s̶p̶e̶r̶a̶t̶e̶l̶y̶ ̶n̶o̶t̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶t̶h̶i̶n̶k̶ ̶a̶b̶o̶u̶t̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶
I hope you're doing alright
Y̶o̶u̶ ̶b̶r̶o̶k̶e̶ ̶m̶y̶ ̶h̶e̶a̶r̶t̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶I̶ ̶g̶a̶v̶e̶ ̶u̶p̶ ̶o̶n̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶
Maybe one day things won't be so awkward
B̶u̶t̶ ̶I̶ ̶c̶a̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶h̶a̶n̶d̶l̶e̶ ̶s̶e̶e̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶w̶i̶t̶h̶ ̶a̶n̶y̶o̶n̶e̶ ̶e̶l̶s̶e̶

Sincerely,
            The Girl Who Used To Have Feelings For You