my
existence
is not
about
how
desirable
you find
me

I'll draw you a picture
I'll draw it with a little twist
I'll draw it with a razor
I'll draw it on my wrist.
     If I do it correctly
A red fountain will appear
To take away my pain
and wash away my fear

she cried.
she wanted to die.
"i'm fine"
she lied.

You make me feel special,
You make me feel new,
You make me feel loved,
With everything you do.

You hold me close when I am sad.
You wipe the tears from my face.
Every time we are together,
It seems like the perfect place.

My eyes light up when you enter a room.
I smile when we are together.
No matter how bad things are,
You always make them better.

I love the way you kiss me,
The way you hold me tight.
I love the way you touch me,
I could be with you all night.

I love the way you can make me laugh
For absolutely no reason at all.
I love how no matter what I do,
You will be there to catch me when I fall.

I just want you to know,
That even though we sometimes fight,
I will always love you!
No matter what, day or night.

You steal my soul and hide it in the deep
You take my heart away to turn me into a sheep
You come in the night and **** my mind
You peel my imagination like a rind

Depression consumes my soul and empties me of essence
Depression takes the fire of my passion leaving senescence
Depression sets me in a prison in the deep dark dank
Depression fills me with tears because of his prank

Monster deep in the darkness on a starless night
Monster flying e'er so low on a maiden flight
Monster claws upon my limpid body as I try to escape
Monster in my soul, to me it such hideous ****

Your skin is not paper
                                don't cut it

Your face is not a mask
                                 don't cover it

Your size is not a book
                                  don't judge it

Your life is not a film
                                  don't end it

                            
                        YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL

You gave me shoulder when i needed it
You showed the love when i wasn't feeling it
You helped fight when I was giving in

You made laugh when I was losing it
You are you are
The reason why I still hanging on
You are you are
The reason why my head is still above water
And if I could ide get you the moon I give it to you
And if death was coming for you ide give my life for you
You are you are
The reason why I still hanging on
You are you are
The reason why my head is still above water
And if I could ide get you the moon I give it to you
And if death was coming for you ide give my life for you
You are you are
Oh you are
Oh you are
You are...
You are you are
The reason why I still hanging on
You are you are
The reason why my head is still above water
And if I could ide get you the moon I give it to you
And if death was coming for you ide give my life for you

Help, I lost myself again
But I remember you
Don't come back, it won't end well
But I wish you'd tell me too
Our love is six feet under
I can't help but wonder
If our grave was watered by the rain
Would roses bloom?
Could roses bloom
Again?
Retrace my lips
Erase your touch
It's all too much for me
Blow away
Like smoke in air
How can you die carelessly?
Our love is six feet under
They're playing our sound
Laying us down tonight
And all of these clouds
Crying us back to life
But you're cold as a knife
Six feet under
I can't help but wonder
If our grave was watered by the rain
Bloom
Bloom
Again
Help, I lost myself again
But I remember you

You are worth your imperfections
You are worth your bad days
You are worth your good
You are worth your confusion
You are worth your insecurities
You are worth fighting for
& You are worth loving

  And that's a ******* fact

These eyes of mine cry
This heart of mine bleeds
This soul of mine breaks
As i slowly die, the colours
of my face fade and my once
happy life is know like the walls
of a dungeon, black, dark and
empty with no one there to comfort
me and the one person i thought
would be there is the farthest one away
from me.Come back i call come back
but the more i shout and scream her name
the more she walks not even looking at my
sad eyes that shimmer with unshed tears.
I call her to please come back, but she keeps
on walking as if not hearing my pleas, and as
she keeps on walking into the light of there
scorn and hate, i cry with every step she takes.
As my body crumbles to the ground a heap of
broken bones, she turns back for one last glance
and see's my fallen body, running back to me she
calls my name with a desperate tone in her voice.
Its to late though for I am gone out of the prison
that once held me for so long, never will i return
even if she wants me back.

He stripped away my
self-worth, layer by layer
until there was nothing left
of my personality.
Yet I never thought
about the girl
who I used to be.
She lived inside,
my caged soul
waiting for the day
I would set her free.
Casting her light
into my dark mind,
hoping I will see,
flashes of a better life,
glimpses of possibility.
I was never alone
because me & him believed in me.

She told me no
But stupid *** me didn’t listen
I wanted her at the moment
I’m selfish for not listening
She told me no
Now we’re both in trouble

           She
                    Told
                             Me
                                     No

i want to get so *******
drunk
that i dont remember you.

The night is only a night,
Without you by my side,
The night turns into a magic,
Once in my arms you I hold!

The wet lips of yours get wetter,
As I keep on kissing,
As if I would die,
If I ever stop kissing you!

The hot night takes us in its lap,
You and I become one- like magic!

I come from a battered & broken
home.
Where i always felt alone.
I entered the world so cold.
Looking to be wanted, needed & loved.
I found heartbreak & pain.
I never gave up.
I knew one day down this long lonley
road of life there is someone to love
for me.
The road of loveless and pain come to
all end when i found a friend.


Now i know no matter how long the road
of life is,
you always stand strong & hold your
headlight.
I am a proud native woman
HEAR ME ROAR.

                                  ~~ A Survivor

(aka Jewel,me)

Don't be that way
Fall apart twice a day
I just wish you could feel what you say
Show, never tell
But I know you too well
Kind of mood that you wish you could sell
If teardrops could be bottled
There'd be swimming pools filled by models
Told a tight dress is what makes you a *****
If "I love you" was a promise
Would you break it, if you're honest
Tell the mirror what you know she's heard before
I don't wanna be you anymore
Hands, hands getting cold
Losing feeling's getting old
Was I made from a broken mold?
Hurt, I can't shake
We've made every mistake
Only you know the way that I break
If teardrops could be bottled
There'd be swimming pools filled by models
Told a tight dress is what makes you a *****
If "I love you" was a promise
Would you break it, if you're honest
Tell the mirror what you know she's heard before
I don't wanna be you
I don't wanna be you
I don't wanna be you... anymore

Breaking hearts is
Easier than breaking
Habits
Even in pieces
I still ******* love you
Because that’s what I’m used to.

If you're alone
I'll be your shadow

If you want to cry
I'll be your shoulder

If you're not happy
I'll be your smile

If you need me,
I'll always be here

I am still the same in life
It is you who I still adore in life
It's you who I still want
You are there in my smile
It's you who I want to flaunt
You were a special part of me
You were a part of my destiny
Can't think of a day without you
Know that I truly love you
I loved the way you care
I loved the way you were there
Nothing is left in the whale of time
It is all over before I could find
It is all over from my side
There is nothing left to hide!

when i saw your body for the first time,
i realized how war torn you are
how many battles you lost
on your wrists
your thighs
how many fires occurred
on your sides
oh, your lovely sides
and how many times i told you
i love you, because i do
because no matter how many times
you have lost the battle
you will always win the war.