I am alive  

I can see the path that lays ahead of me,  

The roads are winding and the challenge is hard  

But there is grace for every moment hope for every dream

I am alone  

Filled with desire like a child with no milk to **** in the night  

I move secluded like lamb hoping for feed

The winds of trouble tip my tottering ship and it capsizes  

I drown in a sea of anxiety and fear  

Met by the sharks of despair  

The path I'm on is painful one, a garden filled with thorns  

do you see me as I flounder in this  my walk of life  

Hoping to look up and see a guiding light yet the only light perceived is the flash of thunder groaning through the grey skies

Is this the point of darkness where I'm called to abandon all hope  

There's no fusion between faith and courage  

These wells are dried and exhausted from repeated use of vain repetitions  

Mantras which try to trick the mind but never reaches the chambers of the heart  

I'm crushed beneath the weight of empty promises I tell myself  

I aim for the moon but fly too close to the sun  

What am I, who am I  

A caged bird, a baited bear, perhaps an uneducated savage  

I write words to form a blanket to keep warm in the cold nights  

Please though I seem like a beggar by the shop  

Believe me I can be more than the smell of desperation  

Help me, that I might toil and know its not in vain

I'm starting to breath,  

My captive lungs have been released and I can breathe the air of liberty.my heart has been rejuvenated to operate one beat at a time

My eyes are starting to clear up from the steam of self-pity and the world is large with life once more  

Songs and melodies of life begin to resonate in my mind causing me to believe and hope

The grass is always greener on the other side of pain  

The bird cage has been left open  and I can fly free  

I can explore the vastness of the heavens

Time is in the hand of God.

He controls the events of each day both pleasing and dark. Finding humility and comfort in Him is the daily challenge. Each day brings its trouble and the storms must be walked through. Emotions overwhelm the soul perpetually and the heart is drowned in confusion and perplexity. O that help would be sent to assist one to swim in this sea of confusion and heart ache.

Loneliness creeps into the soul leaving the mist of solitary isolation. The heart is unable to cope with floods of emotions. The mind struggles to sit still and composed through the trials of life

To view God as all sufficient and all satisfying in the trials of life is difficult. To believe that in spite of all the trouble, all will be well, therein lies the difficulty.

O sorrowful one  

Your tears are seen  

Each droplet is collected in a sacred bottle  

Your sighs don’t go unheard  

The Lord Knows, The Lord sees  

He ordained the days

He ordained the moments  

Trust Him, he brings solid joys with each day  

He is always at hand to heal and to bless  

Always