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Feb 18 · 186
The Weight of Absence
Nemusa Feb 18
i feel your absence  
like white lilies wilting  
in a forgotten vase  
unbrushed hair  
tangled in yesterday’s dreams  

names slip away  
like whispers in the wind  
each memory  
a fragile thread  
unraveling  

mother of the holy hands  
do you feel her touch  
in the spaces between us?  
trees whisper secrets  
the air thick with  
what once was  

unsure hands  
questioning eyes  
searching for answers  
in the echoes of silence  
where are your children?  

once greetings  
now good-byes  
water-soaked  
in a white cotton nightdress  
the fabric of our lives  
fraying at the edges  

yet we hold on  
to the flicker of warmth  
the pulse of love  
navigating this maze together  
finding our way home  
even in the dark
Oh what a day, I need the next 2 hours to pass swiftly...
Feb 14 · 91
endless embrace
Nemusa Feb 14
love is a wild
   whispering river
        where hearts t u m b l e
          in sweet chaos,

sacrifices linger—
   soft shadows,
      breathless echoes of
        what we give,

i am a pearl
   of kindness
      resting on your tongue,
         a promise,
         a fluttering
      in the d a r k.

nature cradles
   our wounds like
      fragile flowers,
         blooms of forgiveness
      s t r e t c h i n g toward the
            light of new beginnings,

in the womb of the universe,
   we breathe life into dreams,
      acknowledging the
         precious moments,
   sharing secrets
      whispered in the night—

and in the soft
   embrace of dying,
      we find the
         thread of healing,
   weaving yesterday
     into tomorrow—

oh, how we dance,
   the endless embrace,
      two souls
         spinning in
    the bittersweet
   rhythm of existence,

celebration in every touch,
   a symphony of heartbeats,
      where joy and sorrow
         i n t e r t w i n e,
   crafting a tapestry
      rich with love’s
   enduring grace.
Good morning and happy st. Valentine to those who celebrate it, may love be with you always ❣️
Feb 12 · 204
tender hopes
Nemusa Feb 12
In the quiet of our hearts,  
where the shadows hold our secrets,  
I feel her touch,  
tracing the scars of our stories,  
mapping the
                             constellations  
woven into our skin—  
the universe conspiring,  
whispering truths we’ve long
                                             forgotten.  

We are not just observers;  
we are the keepers of tender hopes,  
nurturing thoughts like fragile blooms,  
each one a promise,  
a breath caught in the stillness,  
waiting to unfurl in the light,  
a heartbeat echoing  
through the corridors of our souls.  

I shiver under the weight  
of this endless journey,  
where endings are merely doorways,  
and in every shadow,  
a spark of light flickers,  
the way we shed our pasts,  
embracing the cycle,  
the gentle sway  
between night and day.  

In the pulse of our connected hearts,  
we are reborn,  
the echoes of who we were  
intertwined with who we’ll be,  
lovers hidden in the twilight,  
bound by threads of silence,  
in this sacred space,  
we discover our true selves,  
held close in the arms of our humanity,  
the cosmos  
nestled in our palms,  
waiting for  
the dawn of clarity,  
like a whisper aching to
                      
                                     break free.
Feb 11 · 185
Quiet Embrace
Nemusa Feb 11
We hold each other,  
skin to skin,  
the warmth wraps around us,  
a fragile cocoon,  
where the outside world  
dissolves into whispers,  
and silence breathes life  
into our shared solitude.  

No one has ever
wanted me  
with such depth,  
not even death,  
with its icy allure  
and promises of stillness.  
Yet here, in the rhythm of our
b
r
e
a
t
h
  s,  
I find a quiet refuge,  
a heartbeat echoing mine,  
each sigh a silent plea  
for the closeness that binds us.  

In the shadows we linger,  
two souls woven together,  
red threads of longing stitched  
into the fabric of this moment,  
reminding me that even in the dark,  
there is a flicker of warmth.  
In this tender intimacy,  
I am seen,  
a whisper of connection  
that lingers in the air,  
soft and resplendent,  
a reminder that love,  
fragile yet fierce,  
can illuminate the quiet spaces  
between us.
Nemusa Feb 9
i see the  
   shadows  
   dancing—  
    a kaleidoscope of  
  memories (whispers  
   of laughter and  
   tears)  
   flickering like  
   dying stars  

death, with a  
   smile,  
   (hades’ embrace)  
   wraps her in  
   velvet darkness  
   where time  
   bends and  
   breaks  

photographs  
   strewn like fallen  
   petals,  
   each moment  
   a ghost that  
   clings (to  
   the edges of  
   her fading light)  

overdose—  
   a tempest in  
   her veins;  
   the world  
   dissolves,  
   (a soft sigh)  
   she slips  
   into the  
   arms of night  

and i,  
   a witness,  
   hold my breath,  
   caught in the  
   web of  
   her  
   leaving.
Good morning wishing you a restful Sunday, my eyes keep closing I'm exhausted stayed up all night ❣️
Nemusa Feb 8
in the dim light of  
           our laughter  
we unravel  
   the tangled threads of sorrow  
               (whiskey drips like rain)  

your eyes hold  
   the universe’s  
             softest secrets,  
while smoke curls like  
        whispered dreams  
   slipping through fingers  

we have work to do  
            (trust is a fragile bird)  
   listening to the echoes  
of what was and what might be,  
               grieving in the  
              spaces between words  

as dawn stretches its arms,  
   we rise from the ashes,  
   two wild hearts  
    (beating in unison)  
   reborn in the light of a  
                brand-new day.
Feb 8 · 471
fleeting fireworks
Nemusa Feb 8
love's bright burst ignites,  

apologies in the night,  

lust fades with dawn's light.
Good morning again beautiful poets of hellopoetry. Already posted and deleted, hate when I wake up so unsure of myself, I feel it's going to be one of those days... but anyway much love ❣️
Feb 6 · 236
(untitled)
Nemusa Feb 6
Well, the night is long,  
and the silence stings,  
messages like whispers,  
caught on invisible strings.  
How will you know what to do,  
when the truth feels like a game,  
and the words that fall from your lips,  
are just echoes of shame?  

In this world of quick decisions,  
where every glance can deceive,  
the heart wears a mask,  
and the soul learns to grieve.  
A liar’s tongue can spin a tale,  
but the heart knows the score,  
underestimate the shadows,  
and you’ll find you’re wanting more.  

Oh, we’re different features  
of the same old face,  
chasing memories like ghosts,  
in this empty, crowded space.  
Time’s a thief in the night,  
it moves like a restless tide,  
risking everything for a moment,  
when the truth can’t be denied.  

So we reach across the darkness,  
with hands that tremble and shake,  
searching for that flicker,  
in a world that feels so fake.  
And when the morning breaks,  
with the dawn’s gentle light,  
we’ll find the strength to rise,  
and make our shadows bright.
Feb 5 · 160
Silhouetted swallows
Nemusa Feb 5
swallows in twilight,  

burnt oranges kiss the sky,  

silhouettes take flight.
It's been a very tiring week, sorry haven't been around much.
Feb 4 · 210
Salt & Smoke
Nemusa Feb 4
The ferry rocked,
an old whisper on restless tides,
each creak a memory, a sigh from the depths.
Sunlight sliced through the salt-laden air,
too bright, too bold,
etching shadows into my restless skin.

Smoke spilled from my lips,
a dance of ghosts—
yesterday's sorrows drifting,
too light to stain the sky.
Your hand found mine, rough and worn,
a map of uncharted dreams.

The ink on your chest breathed stories,
mysteries woven in flesh,
a melody I longed to sing.
Time fractured,
the world faded—
gulls cried out at the edge of forever.

“Let’s go home,” you murmured,
your voice soft,
fragile as a thread untangling.
But home wasn’t a place;
it was the weight of your touch,
the sun’s embrace,
the engine’s roar,
and the ache of everything unspoken.

I didn’t reply—
I let the silence cradle us,
because home was this moment,
and this moment was enough.
I wish I could add a photo right now.
Feb 4 · 194
Snake Game
Nemusa Feb 4
My mind, ruminating,
thoughts eating themselves,
snaking longer, longer,
like that old Nokia phone,
remember?
The game we played—
winning meant losing space,
meant swallowing whole.

I can’t stop it.
No off switch.
No pause, no rewind.
Memory flickers, a broken reel,
an unreliable witness in my own courtroom.
Why did I disassociate?
To survive, to vanish?
Was I drunk on innocence,
or did I crave your love so much
I kept my mouth shut,
called my silence devotion?

You—
standing there in my shadow,
writing your story over mine,
turning my quiet into consent.
But I was always spinning,
always folding inward,
splintering.

Now I haunt the game,
chasing the tail of what I was,
swallowed by the loop,
still wondering
if I’ll ever find the center.
Nemusa Feb 3
The orchid leans on the windowsill,
its bruised petals curling inward,
a lover retreating from touch.
I press my fingers to the ache behind my eyes,
tears hovering like syrup, slow and amber,
binding the moment to the marrow of memory.
Time drips thick,
a sweetness heavy with regret,
its weight both burden and balm.

You spoke love as if it were a fragile thing,
delicate as twilight slipping between hands.
Your voice held the softness of midwife palms,
unafraid to cradle what could not yet breathe.
I clung to those words,
their sweetness lingering like salt on my tongue,
until they dissolved into silence,
the aftertaste of everything unspoken.

The sea rises in my dreams,
its waves stinging, cleansing,
dragging away the grains of unsaid good-byes.
The horizon remains distant, unreachable,
but I think of syrup’s deliberate fall,
how even the slowest drop reaches its end.
I carry the ache of transformation,
a tender weight,
and let the salt beneath my skin
become the shape of healing.
Good week ahead everyone ❣️
Nemusa Feb 2
When the blue silence presses,
and absence carves its hollow,
I search for a rare diamond,
a glint of you,
of us,
among the drifting days.

You, all edges and precision,
the logic mind.
I, the artist,
unruly and alive,
painting between your lines.
Together, we unmade the fractures
and called it a whole.

A dragonfly hovered—
fragile, fleeting—
a reminder of your soul
and the weight of what you left.
The brittle smile you wore,
I held it once,
felt the shatter in my hands.

Now, I sketch the absence,
and you map its edges.
Between us,
a quiet collaboration.
No need to name the loss,
no need to claim the light—
we move as one,
carving truth from shadow.
Feb 2 · 167
(untitled)
Nemusa Feb 2
She shattered like a ripe pomegranate,  
its crimson seeds spilling  
on that frostbitten morning,  
where daylight carved truth  
into her skin,  
each ray a scalpel,  
each breath a confession.

Unraveled, she lay bare,  
a manuscript of scars,  
love’s futile battles  
etched in dried blood,  
bones jutting like the last  
frayed edges of a dream.

Tattoos inked in shadows,  
quivering black on alabaster,  
the ghost of him lingered,  
his fingerprints seared  
into her flesh,  
a haunting memory  
before the silence claimed him.

He was the prophet,  
the muse woven through lifetimes,  
departing like a forgotten flame,  
his whispers curling  
in the suffocating dark.  

We are all adrift,  
lost in the labyrinth of ourselves,  
struggling to stitch together  
the frayed seams of commitment.  
He extinguished his will to survive,  
lost in the wilderness  
of self-destruction.

Her belly, heavy with unspoken dreams,  
intoxicated by promises,  
the poison lingering from his kiss.  
She bottled his anguish,  
teardrops mingling with time,  
an elixir of shared stories,  
each drop a memory,  
each memory a shard of light.

Through the years,  
in the tapestry of shadows,  
somewhere we will meet again,  
forever my keeper,  
forever my ghost.
A 7 year oldie.
Feb 1 · 529
Fragile Waterlilly
Nemusa Feb 1
round waterlily,  

fragile holding above surface,  

dancing with the light.
Feb 1 · 225
A Gift Refused
Nemusa Feb 1
A laugh, a tear—  
what do we do with this cold world?  
She asks for so little,  
yet the air thickens with unspoken anger,  
a toll from a long week,  
severe and heavy,  
as if life itself demands a final request.  

Promises of sweet slumber,  
the kind that cradles the soul,  
shattered by lingering conversations,  
each word a delicate thread,  
pulled taut by a plea that feels whimsical.  
Fear, that insidious creature,  
wraps its tendrils around her heart,  
craving comfort,  
a whisper of security amid chaos.  

Why weave such doubts into the fabric of love?  
Why not simply exist,  
free from the weight of dominance?  
Old-fashioned beliefs linger like ghosts,  
it was merely a treat,  
a gesture of affection—  
can't you see?  

Letting go feels like breathing underwater,  
the pressure rising,  
and still, I reach out,  
a decorated veteran of this emotional war.  
A gift, tenderly offered,  
but you chose to turn away,  
clouding the tender moments  
that could burst forth with joy.  

I’m sorry for this weight,  
for the burden you perceive,  
but all I seek is connection,  
even as the world spins cold  
without you beside me.
Feb 1 · 238
Running from Shadows
Nemusa Feb 1
In the cramped silence of the toilet,  
echoes of fractured thoughts spiral,  
the walls constrict, a breath held in,  
where shadows twist like fingers,  
clenching the air, a tightrope of despair,  
normalcy dissolves like sugar in bitter tea,  
my pulse stutters, a metronome lost,  
Hitchcockian dread unfurls its dark wings,  
memories bleed crimson, pooling beneath the sink.

I cannot endure this solitude,  
where are you, phantom of my heart?  
Your golden essence, a cruel sun—  
breaking me open, revealing raw flickers,  
sacrifices made to coax a smile  
from the depths of my ashen soul.  
Hush, now—the tears tumble,  
each drop a stone, sinking,  
a release from this coiled torment,  
trapped in a moment where time slips.

Tired of running, running forever,  
this pretty broken girl, genuinely wronged,  
the world outside a distant murmur,  
yet hope flickers, fragile as a candle’s flame,  
a soft beacon in the cavernous dark,  
reminding me that even in despair,  
life whispers its stubborn promise,  
that one day, I may find my way home.
It's been s long week and I'm exhausted yesterday I wrote two poems, feeling very burdened down, hope I get to rest this weekend.
Jan 31 · 440
Whispers of the Ebony
Nemusa Jan 31
Ebony branches,  

holding back teardrop whispers,  

night's sorrowful sighs.
Jan 31 · 249
Ebb & Flow of Tomorrow
Nemusa Jan 31
In the stillness, she danced,  
water swirling like secrets,  
time a mere whisper,  
eyes closed to the chill,  
skin alive with the pulse of the depths.  

A fleeting liberation,  
where moments collide and shatter,  
thoughts unfurling like wings,  
forgiveness a fragile thread,  
I am the universe,  
emotions spreading like wildfire,  
sleep draped in silken shadows,  
light filtering through the cracks,  
nakedness swathed in raw truth.  

Tomorrow hovers, a shadow,  
a bruise in hues of dusk—  
she stands fierce, a believer,  
an idol crumbling softly,  
wonder scattered like autumn leaves,  
complex,  
a hundred regrets unraveled  
by the tenderness of touch,  
the clash of hearts.  

Forgotten streets murmur,  
eyes gazing through fractured glass,  
twisted futures loom,  
the shell of dreams yet unformed,  
caught in the symphony of now,  
overlooking the madness,  
the deceptions,  
the lovers broken like fragile glass.  

The scratch of pen on paper,  
the rhythm of a heartbeat,  
inked memories blur,  
sweet sorrow cascading—  
not unlike revelations,  
a bitter pill to swallow,  
the absurd,  
the shifting of my visage,  
the lens refocused,  
the key turned in the labyrinth of thought.  

Chains echo in the quiet,  
the poppies dance like sisters,  
bound by a thread of crimson,  
tears cascading,  
sinking in solitude,  
loving through the ache,  
death approaching,  
a tender, inevitable embrace.
An oldie.
Jan 30 · 347
Echoes in the Ferns
Nemusa Jan 30
She said he hurt her,  
a wound wrapped in soft lullabies,  
his voice a serpent  
coiling 'round her dreams,  
where the green fern forest  
breathed secrets into the night,  
and moss shrouded the bones  
of forgotten civilizations.

In the day,  
she fashioned dreams  
like delicate glass,  
eyes half-closed,  
floating through the crowd,  
a specter among the living,  
while shadows,  
like whispered promises,  
clung to her skin.

At night,  
the seconds drip drop,  
heavy as rain on a tin roof,  
each tick a heartbeat,  
each pause a gasp,  
he follows her  
as a prayer follows its own  
search for grace,  
the memory of a violence  
that needed no voice,  
only the cold embrace  
of silence wrapped around her.

In the twilight,  
she gathers the frayed edges of her soul,  
sifting through the dark  
for remnants of light,  
for the lullabies  
that cradle her in the depths,  
reminding her that even in shadows,  
the heart learns to beat again,  
even in the echo of pain,  
there is a flicker,  
a stubborn flame.
Jan 30 · 485
Whispers in the Pond
Nemusa Jan 30
golden shadows drift,

ripples cradle mirrored scales,

silent sunlit dance.
Jan 30 · 233
Hands of Strength
Nemusa Jan 30
Your hands rise,
lifting me like the sun lifts the sea,
like roots pressing upward
through the weight of the earth.

Soft, yet forged in fire,
they carry the echoes of old wars,
eyewitnesses to the quiet battles
fought behind closed doors,
where love and labor
bleed into one another.

These hands have sewn the sky together,
stitched the open wound of hunger,
performed CPR on broken dreams,
forcing life breath to breath
into what the world tried to abandon.

They have held me when I was
spiraling out of control,
when the weight of existence
pressed into my chest
like an ocean refusing to let go.

I have seen them whisper over water,
stirring secrets into steam,
curiosity flickering in their fingertips
as they trace the edges of another day.
Unforgettable memories live in their creases—
the hush of a mother brushing fevered skin,
the press of fingers that say,
I am here. You will not fall.

Oh, hands of women, hands of warriors,
who write history into my skin,
who lift me, who hold me,
who do not ask for thanks—
only the courage to go on.
God bless my fellow colleagues, you raise me up daily, not the easiest of jobs, I work with severely disabled youths, we're always encouraging each other to keep smiles on our faces.
Jan 29 · 243
Prism's Horizon
Nemusa Jan 29
colors spill softly,

rainbow bridge greets the still sky,

light bends into peace.
Nemusa Jan 29
A gloved hand, steady and unyielding,
pressed against the soft pulse of life,
fluttering hearts foretell the burst,
a silent pact woven in electric tension.

Behind delicate eyelids,
worlds collide, dissolve, reform,
rising from the depths,
a forbidden tide pulling desire
to its precarious edge.

Breath stolen, then surrendered,
each moment teetering
between creation and collapse,
a tightrope of euphoria and silence.

The veil lifts—brief, fragile,
revealing something raw,
the seduction of release,
a fleeting eternity
that leaves the air trembling.

When the hold loosens,
lungs fill with awakening,
yet the mind lingers,
craving the abyss it briefly called home.
Not sure if this gets removed or not, but it's a dangerous game to play for sure even though we did it in our teenage years.
Jan 25 · 287
Threads of the unspoken
Nemusa Jan 25
The weight of my truths
presses like stone—
no flood, no release,
only this grinding ache
against the sharp edge of language.

Each word is a wound reopened,
a splinter of myself
held to the light.
Silence is complicit,
it does not absolve,
only deepens the scar.

If my darkness stains you,
if the truth catches like barbed wire,
tear your gaze away—
this is not a plea for witness.
This is survival,
the slow unraveling
of a story that refuses erasure.

Do you doubt my suffering?
Do you doubt the sediment
of years pressed into me,
the residue of what I was?

What more can I give you
than this blood-inked offering,
this heartbeat fractured
between words,
pauses,
and the spaces you fail to see?

Let me remain unwhole—
not yet healed—
but forging the threads
that might someday
bind me to the surface
I cannot yet reach.
A reply to someone you know who you are, who made me feel terrible about being still unhealed from my past abuse and yes my trauma is very real.
Jan 25 · 188
The Space Between Waves
Nemusa Jan 25
She breathes in a room humming with life,
a fragile song, not loud but steady,
a bridge between two worlds I can’t yet cross.
The air smells like morning,
crisp, new,
the kind of scent that cradles hope in its arms.

I drive to the beach,
rain dancing on the windshield,
weaving patterns that feel like promises.
The sand is cool beneath my feet,
the kind of cool that wakes you up
and whispers, you’re alive.

I pick up a stone—
smooth, enduring, timeless—
and toss it into the ocean.
The splash feels like a spark,
a seed of something unseen
but waiting to bloom.

Back home, her letters spill across the table,
ink alive on paper,
strokes of dreams I hadn’t known.
Friends I wish I’d met,
questions that feel less like fear now
and more like paths still open.

It feels like lighting a candle,
not the flame,
but the glow that follows,
where everything softens,
and even shadows turn kind.

In her story, there is a kiss,
but it’s not a prince—it’s the sky,
a quiet reunion between breath and stars,
a tide that always finds its shore.
The wind carries her voice,
not lost, but endless,
folding into the waves’ rhythm.

I sit in the car,
watching raindrops glide like silver threads.
Each one falls,
joins,
becomes part of something greater.
And I know I’ll keep walking with her,
not waiting,
but living—
in this space between waves.
Jan 24 · 258
The Depths
Nemusa Jan 24
Divers plunge into the ocean of my soul,
sifting through fragments of joy,
shards of laughter,
a mosaic of moments bathed in light.

Love, a blinding star,
grief, its shadow trailing behind,
the death of time unfolds silently,
second after second slipping into the abyss.

Tears carve rivers on my cheeks,
their currents whisper truths
I cannot name but feel—
bittersweet, an ache that sings.

I hold this hurt tenderly,
a fragile treasure,
and wouldn’t trade it for emptiness.

Still, I stretch toward the light,
my fingers brushing
the edges of something infinite,
a hope shimmering beyond the waves.
BLT word challenge "divers".
Jan 24 · 185
The jungle of my soul
Nemusa Jan 24
My words black and blue,
fractured echoes of a silence that roars.
I’ve finally lost you,
or perhaps just buried you deeper,
beneath the weight of unspoken truths.

Abuse doesn’t hide far;
it lingers in the marrow,
seeping into glances,
the falter of a smile
that struggles to reach the eyes.

I remain small,
and cracked till now,
a vessel that holds fragments
but leaks with every breath.

To share is to shatter,
to place the jagged edges of myself
into the trembling hands of another.
But I’ve learned—
not all hands are steady.

Secrets live best in shadows,
nestled beside shame,
wrapped in vines of memories
too sharp to untangle.

The key rests in the jungle of my soul,
forgotten,
or perhaps,
guarded.
Jan 24 · 245
Cartography of Absence
Nemusa Jan 24
Tears carve faint rivers on my face,
a map without direction.
Her hands—untouched whispers.
Her voice—swallowed silence.
I wander the plains
she once passed,
leaving only air where footprints should be.

Where was the harbor of her arms?
The rise and fall of her breath,
a tide I’ve never known?
I sift the sands of memory,
but they crumble,
grains slipping through
the hollows of a name
that feels like someone else’s.

Questions scatter like leaves—
fragile, unanswered—
skimming the surface before they sink.
Did she watch my first light bloom?
Did her shadow lean over me,
or was I always a ghost
in her unseeing gaze?

The silence—
heavy as the weight of earth—
presses into my chest.
I bear it still,
a shadowed grief,
a mother’s shape
etched in absence.
It's hard to speak of your mother in such terms, I have so many scars but can't verbalise them with friends. Makes me wonder often why was I so unlucky...
Jan 23 · 380
The Scales
Nemusa Jan 23
Beneath the weight of the moment,
fractured seconds linger like echoes,
etched into the hollows of my mind.
Most things dissolve,
consumed by the hungry tides of forgetting,
but not this—
not the way you made me feel.

Small.
Insignificant.
The air stolen from my lungs
as life unraveled, thread by thread.
I lay there,
the world shrinking,
your gaze an avalanche,
your silence a knife.

It wasn’t the darkness that stayed—
it was the sharpness of being
discarded, diminished, erased.

I will not forget.
The universe has ways
of balancing its scales.
And when it does,
may you feel what I felt—
every fragment of it.
Jan 23 · 176
To my beloved...
Nemusa Jan 23
My beloved,

you who stand beside me in the quiet hours of my despair,

do you not see the burden I carry?

It is not of the body, for the body endures;

it is of the soul,

woven with threads of fear and longing.

You speak to me with the voice of the wind,

soft yet unyielding,

and your words rise like a tide
against the cliffs of my sorrow.

In your calm, I find a mirror to my tempest,

and in your silence, the wisdom I have long sought.

These battles we fight are not waged with swords,

nor are they seen by the eyes of men.

They are the wars of the spirit,

where darkness wrestles with light,

and the heart is both the battlefield and the victor.

Do not pity my scars,

for they are the sigils of my becoming.

Do not fear my tears,

for they water the garden of my resilience.

The future stretches before us like an endless sky,

painted with the colors of our dreams and fears.

And though I have spoken of death,

it is life that calls me forward,

its voice a whisper, a song, a command.

Together we walk, you and I,

not toward an ending,

but toward a beginning of an unknown future.
For him, I cannot even begin to show you or express my appreciation for your patience and love even though I'm so damaged ❣️
Jan 23 · 281
Portrait of a ghost
Nemusa Jan 23
I found a photo today—
its edges frayed,
its silence speaking louder than memory.
The ghost of her,
born of pain but draped in a soft, unknowing light.
How could she not see?
The naïve tilt of her mouth,
the unarmored gaze of someone
who believed in futures made of love.

I would step into that stillness if I could,
shake her shoulders,
tell her to run before the lies
knotted themselves around her ribs,
before his dagger—
not sharp, but slow,
pierced the center of her trust.

I would tell her to proclaim love
where it mattered,
to her daughter watching silently,
to the family she left in the shadows
for a man who swallowed the light.
Every day, her daughter saw it—
the slow dying,
a death stretched across years,
not swift but unrelenting,
like a clock with no hands to stop it.

Run, I’d say,
before the hollow gestures,
before the waiting
for a love that never belonged to you.
See through him,
his promises fragile as dried leaves,
his truths curving away like smoke.

But now I hold the photo,
and she is already gone,
a ghost I can only argue with
in the quiet of my mind,
a ghost who will never hear me.
2am can't sleep again looking back at photo memories and wondering at how stupid I was...
Jan 21 · 183
Shards of a Fading Light
Nemusa Jan 21
Fragments of a dying light,
His words of sorrow crumble in my mouth,
Splinters of a shattered mirror—
Light refracting,
The iron taste lingers, bitter and raw.

The hoary silhouette of bare branches looms,
Their grip frozen, unmoving, still—
A vast, naked nothingness
Dwells within me,
Hollow, cold, and bare.

Identities unknown, faces erased,
Responsibility slips into the void.
Confusion swells, a tide of paranoia,
Scattered dreams of strangers,
Shoals glimmering in ceaseless dance.

Rapid-fire bullets of offence,
A necklace of sins,
Heavy, choking,
My drowning heart clenched tight,
Twenty years of youth bled dry.

Once, I felt brave—
A warrior in the haze,
A needle my sword, ****** my shield.
Layer by layer, I sought salvation,
Grasping, frantic, at false light.

I needed his pity,
His shame,
His love to save me from myself.
But betrayal stained the air—
A wound too deep to heal.

Fishhooks pierce and pull,
Entrapment tears my flesh apart.
Love dies slow,
Its remnants shatter,
Leaving only the wreckage of me.
An oldie about a road I shouldn't have taken due to a toxic relationship.
Jan 20 · 202
Unwritten Quiet
Nemusa Jan 20
She sketched the quiet,
with charcoal shadows and haunting trees,
bending to winds that whispered lies,
calling, but never her name.

Wildflowers leaned in defiance,
toward a light she could not feel,
children’s laughter, untamed rivers,
while hers unraveled into dust.

An old soul, they said,
drifting through doors left ajar,
a wanderer in borrowed lives,
but always a stranger,
always a ghost.

She craved the world,
its wild crescendos, its burning skies,
but the edges cut too deep.
Her hands, blistered from endless reaching,
held truths too sharp to release.
The rain came and kissed the earth,
but her skin held the stains,
red as warnings,
swollen like secrets buried alive.

The bruises healed but lingered,
etched on the walls of her mind,
like shadows curling tight
around a room with no escape.

She tasted love once,
a fleeting hymn in a cathedral of storms,
a breath of warmth on frostbitten lips.
He devoured the letters she wrote,
exhaling truths that burned through her chest.

No one knew the weight she bore,
the silence stitched across her ribs,
like velvet sewn with broken glass.
She wrote, she spun fragile threads of light,
a tapestry too beautiful to wear,
her soul adrift in a realm
untouched by what she could not name.

In the end, she lived
in the spaces between,
between the screams,
between the quiet,
between the words
she dared not sing.
Wishing you all a great week ahead ❣️
Jan 19 · 158
Ruinous hymn
Nemusa Jan 19
I am the dandelion stripped bare,
a clock undone by the unkind wind.
The mirrors show only fractures—
golden veins soldered by despair,
a mosaic of bruises in pale flesh.

He smells of bonfires and damp earth,
his words the gravel I swallow nightly.
They lodge in my throat,
sharp, unyielding,
a wound that never softens.

Children scribble lives onto the walls,
their chalk-stained hands clean of memory.
But I, I cradle dust,
collect it in jars like dead stars,
its weight heavy as unspoken apologies.

Autumn’s throat opens,
spilling leaves like confessions
nobody wanted to hear.
The trees, skeletons now,
stand naked in their quiet accusations.

He pushed me into the bloom of violence,
a ****** rose garden beneath my tongue.
I tasted the metal of his hate
and whispered back my surrender,
weak as the wind that kissed my wrists.

Was I ever more than ash,
a ghost of flesh, a runaway child
chased by the shadows of promises
never meant to hold?
The doorway in my eyes collapses inward—
a city burned down before it was built.
Another oldie, happy Sunday fellow poets rest for me, can't keep my eyes open
Jan 18 · 208
DreamScars
Nemusa Jan 18
Born and raised with smiles,
but the sky was always cracked.
Pills shatter in my hand—
fragile ghosts of sleep.
Unreliable… like time slipping sideways.

Scars rise in dreams,
whispering their secrets to the dark.
I’ve got you now—
you, the shadow, the mirror,
stroking my nerves to rest,
to quiet the beast inside.

I remember you as a crush,
when the sun burned softer,
when the roads seemed endless.
Now I hold you,
a treasure,
a puzzle.

Piece by piece, I feel you—
bursting with words,
breaking the silence,
rewriting the dream.
Jan 17 · 167
Strawberry secrets
Nemusa Jan 17
The branches bend, the whispers scream,
Pop the bubble, shatter the dream.
Strawberry lips, sweet with rot,
“Can you keep a secret?” She forgot.

Violence bleeds, running cold,
Winter veins, no heart to hold.
Stone beats hollow, fire burns red,
She’s alive, but inside she’s dead.

Momma said, “Pick one or two,”
She picked him, she never picked you.
Cries fell flat, the echoes lied,
Left her kid to fight or die.

Throw a punch, break the skin,
Storm rolls in, let the dark begin.
Kick in teeth, spit out hate,
She’s the girl you’ll never save.

No sweet songs, no bedtime grace,
Just screams carved deep into her face.
“Strawberry,” she hums, sharp and neat,
“Can you keep a secret?” Her rage complete.
For those girls lost in the system and are never going to be saved, I could have been one of you.
Jan 17 · 229
Frosted illusions
Nemusa Jan 17
Spindly needles of frost cling to weathered gold,
the leaf bends beneath their weight.
Fog rises, thick and silent,
branches sharpen into knives,
cutting through the pale dawn.

The old man carves his talent into time,
death murmurs near, soft as breath.
A girl with fair hair spins barefoot
through empty streets,
fires burn behind her,
crosses inked on skin,
tears etched in permanence.

Lovers, unashamed, kiss carelessly.
His blackened hands bruise her pale body,
purple blossoms bloom
as their hunger devours the moment.
Eyes like lakes, the old man watches,
proud, detached, remembering.

The memory thrashes—a storm of fists,
blood on teeth, skies collapsing.
Howls shatter the silence,
the price of another hit.
Alone, crumbling, he danced once too,
selling pieces of himself
to keep the night at bay.

Now it is all a dance,
the endless illusion of nothingness.
Pain and relief close their eyes together,
fingers frozen,
pressing against the glass
of a universe crumbling to frost.
I always get excited when I find an oldie. Weather is terrible here hope we cross safely and make it back home.
Jan 16 · 190
Turning tide
Nemusa Jan 16
The tide turned, soft as a breath,
pulling your words back into the sea.
I stood on the edge of your silence,
watching the waves erase you,
each moment vanishing before it could settle.

This sorrow crept in like f o g,
quiet, unnoticed, until it was everything.
Once, we were sunlight through half-open blinds,
simple, warm, unspoken.
Now, only the shadows remain,
stretching farther than I can reach.

The tide receded, carrying pieces of us—
the way your voice filled a room,
the weight of your name in my thoughts.
I turned away, not toward hope,
but away from the emptiness.
And behind me, the sea whispered,
This is where we begin again.
Finally heading back home after work, it's been a long day.
Jan 16 · 169
Scars Don't Ask
Nemusa Jan 16
the kid watched,
wide-eyed,
no questions, no judgment—
just the kind of curiosity
you only see in something
still whole.

but she broke her,
taught her how to bleed
for forgiveness,
to trade dreams
for punishment
and call it love.

those scars turned her
into something sharp,
a fighter, maybe—
but the fight wasn’t hers.
it was always for scraps
of affection,
a glance,
a *******
"you’re enough."
Unsure and unsteady.
Jan 15 · 358
Dissolving self
Nemusa Jan 15
I woke to find myself
a stranger in my own skin,
the weight of silence pressing deep,
its texture heavy with whispers,
the breath of fears unfurling
like mist over an open field.

They move within me,
specters draped in pale veils,
fingers plucking the taut strings
of every unspoken word,
every wound stitched
with the thread of deceit.

Around me, a forest hums,
its pulse a green ache of longing,
leaves trembling with unspent desire.
I imagine stepping through,
slipping from myself
like bark peeling from an ancient tree.

I want to dissolve,
to be lifted from this shape
and poured into the waiting hands
of something infinite,
to be tasted by the parched lips
of a soul wandering without end.

There is no edge here,
only the slow erosion of what I am,
the merging of silence and breath,
of fear and yearning,
of all I was and all I might become.
Going to make an effort today and try to act normal, even though I feel like I'm breaking.
Jan 14 · 210
Silent descent...
Nemusa Jan 14
The hands of mercy, shattered by the weight of an invisible storm, secrete despair into the cracks of existence.

Petals torn from the soul's desert rose, scattered into the infinite wind, bearing the scent of destruction.

Words unravel, trembling, like wounded birds on a forgotten page, as if being watched by unseen eyes.

Her womb, a dark garden, blooms secrets steeped in shadow and fire, infidelity the key to its forbidden growth.

The drug, a serpent of cold synthesis, coils through trembling veins, pushing the mind above and beyond the limits of sanity.

An apology exhales, faint and futile, dissolving like potassium permanganate crystals in water, purple haze trailing into nothingness.

Above, fireworks fall, burning the sky with the grief of silent stars, destruction written in their fiery descent.
Sorry for ranting this morning, but I've had a terrible night and am under the weather. Can hear the wind and rain lashing outside, glad to be warm indoors today, very grateful.
Jan 13 · 393
Screaming
Nemusa Jan 13
When the voice rises,
sharp and serrated,
I am cast backward—
a child again,
small as a thumbprint.

The air thickens,
pressing against my chest,
stealing my breath
in shallow gulps.

I cannot find words—
they scatter like frightened birds,
trapped in the cage of my throat.
Every syllable burns,
a potential betrayal.

The slap is phantom,
but real enough to sting.
Misunderstanding hangs,
a shadow over my skin,
waiting to pounce.

My limbs fold inward—
knees to chest,
arms to ribs.
The walls creep closer,
a conspiratorial hush,
a sudden need to vanish.

I long to run,
to dissolve into the cracks,
to silence the echoes
that still call me weak,
that still call me wrong.
There is a prominent regression in me when I hear screaming, takes me back to childhood helplessness.
Two days of parents day so I'm working from home, ps I'm the teacher not the student.
Jan 12 · 273
Where her spirit fled
Nemusa Jan 12
He called her a ****-tease.
The word fell heavy, sharp as stones
breaking a bird’s flight mid-air.
She stood still. Her spirit fled—
to the quiet fields of her elders,
where flowers opened their mouths
only to name themselves.

The dress,
its soft rebellion,
became his battlefield.
"*****," he spat, each letter
a cracked drumbeat
splintering the silence between them.
Outside, dusk folded its hands,
a god turning away
from the sound of a woman
breaking.

When his palm
found her cheek,
the stars held their breath.
The earth bent at the waist.
His hands—desperate shadows
on her throat—learned quickly
what could not be held.

She walked barefoot
into the ancestral fields,
where the soil hummed
with the weight of her leaving.
Women waited there,
their grief braided with light.
They opened their mouths
and her name rose,
whole as a hymn.
Jan 11 · 998
The Tear
Nemusa Jan 11
Beneath the weight of infinite skies,

her eyes, two wells of drowning sighs.

A tear, like a wounded star, descends,

tracing the map where sorrow bends,

and love, unspoken, forever ends.
Been up all night and am in no mood for social interaction today.
Nemusa Jan 10
I did not come to this earth
to die for the shadow of a dream,
to impale my heart on the sharp thorns
of ambition’s endless rose.
No, I came to live inside the quiet rivers,
to carry the soft weight of the morning’s light
in my hands,
to bury my face in the soil of ordinary days
and rise, fragrant with their whispers.

I did not seek perfection;
perfection is a cruel wind
that bends no branch,
allows no blossom to fall.
Instead, I search for the cracks—
those holy fractures
where the light sings its way in,
where life spills like wine
across the trembling lips of the world.

We are fluent in pain,
each of us holding the dialect of loss
in our bones.
I have read the script of your tears,
seen my own reflection
in the glass of your breaking.
Your heart is a book I know by touch,
each page etched with sorrow
and the tender thumbprints of hope.

I do not long for glory—
glory is a fleeting bird
with a broken wing.
I long for the quiet threads
that sew the sacred to the common:
the bread shared at a wooden table,
the warmth of a hand that holds without asking,
the beauty of a scar kissed by time.

There is a beauty in suffering,
a beauty that does not demand mending.
It stands like a mountain at dusk,
silent and untouchable.
It does not cry for transcendence,
but for the gaze of another,
for the voice that says,
“I am here.
I will not turn away.”

Let us walk,
not as conquerors,
but as pilgrims,
our feet stained by the dust of this earth.
Let us stumble,
our burdens carried not in shame
but as offerings,
as gifts to one another.
We will not flee the ache of life—
no, we will drink it,
pour it into the chalice of the stars,
and watch it glow softly,
a lantern that whispers,
“We are here.
We are enough.”
Jan 10 · 164
Spectral Rhapsody
Nemusa Jan 10
Psychedelic swirls in the womb of night,
The ghosts rise, hungry, for the sacred rite.
He touched her forehead, soft as a sigh,
Retracing memories where lost stars lie.

"You are misplaced," he murmured low,
"Led astray by the rivers' flow."
Her mind unravels, a fragile thread,
Dancing now with the living dead.

The violin weeps, it shatters the void,
A somber hymn both sharp and cloyed.
"Twirl for me," he said, "don’t fear the flame,
The watchers are here—they know your name."

The ghosts surround in a velvet trance,
Eyes like embers, they burn, they dance.
Their touch is smoke, their gaze a maze,
A fiery mirror of forgotten days.

Lost in the rhythm, the void in bloom,
Spinning through the door of doom.
She feels the pull of the stars' decay,
A psychedelic hymn to lead astray.

The night hums low, a growling beast,
Its jaws wide open for the soul’s feast.
He takes her hand—she feels the spark,
A haunting waltz through endless dark.

"Rise," they chant, "to the other side,
Lose your fear, let the moment abide."
The ghosts dissolve with the breaking dawn,
But their song lingers long after they’re gone.
Actually slept deeply for 2 hours!
Jan 9 · 189
Sigh
Nemusa Jan 9
The night splits open like an old wound,
your hands press against the ache,
unweaving the heaviness that clings to me.

Beneath your skin, a constellation whispers—
rebellion wrapped in light,
I surrender to its pull.

Your eyes, sharp as memory,
hold truths I cannot name.

They sing of battles and soft winds,
of hunger that does not apologize.

Each layer you shed is a testimony,
your touch, a reckoning—
both fire and balm.

I follow the shadowed path you carve,
your voice like a spell
that gathers all my scattered pieces.

Your fingertips rewrite my grief,
turning my silences into stars.

You are the architect of my unbecoming,
the pulse of my reclamation.

In your arms, the axis shifts,
a fierce hymn rising from quiet.

You unlace the day with a deliberate breath,
and I let myself love you—
not for reason,
but because resistance feels futile
in the face of you.
Jan 9 · 175
Wiser
Nemusa Jan 9
The stitches holding my wound break, one by one,

For the memory of you is a blade upon my flesh.

I gave you my heart as the river gives to the sea,

And you returned it, torn, yet heavy with your shadow.

Now I carry both the pain and the wisdom it has sown.
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