2/5/09 - The day I lost my best friend (Grandpa)
7/?/12 - Moved in with dad
12/11/16 - Tried to KMS
9/16/17 - The day my dad and stepmom got married
4/3/18 - Started dating my boyfriend
6/19/18 - The day my dad gave me up and kicked me out
6/23/19 - Day my uncle died. He never gave up on me
10/3/19 - My best friend died(Grandma)

New: 12/9/19- The day I broke up with my boyfriend

Time doesn't heal.
And the wound knows it.
Layers gather on the ****
but the damage remains,
hiding itself deep inside
the secret scar

Sometimes when the sun is out
I go outside, close my eyes and bathe in its warm and I imagine that it’s your embrace. Like you haven’t left yet...

Someone help please take my hands off of around my neck
And help me breath
Because my vision is blurry
And it seems I've lost my way
The girl in the mirror might look like me
But she isn't so don't believe her when she says "I'm fine"
Her goofy smile is gone
And she doesn't eat cookies sitting upside down
The flame in her eyes are gone and has been replaced with an ocean
No she doesn't slit her wrist
but sometimes she wonders why she stopped
and then she remembers it's because she got caught
she doesn't talk much so people don't hear her scream S.O.S

Please go the **** away
I'm not ready to listen to the yelling and fighting this year
I don't want to go and pretend to like my ******* ******* cusion
I'm not ready to hear about all the ******* that happens at her school
So please go by quick

- The girl whose family you ruined

For Four years I knew I was totally into girls
For three year my mom read the bible to me
For two years I wasn't allowed to have sleepovers
For one year it was like nothing happened

That was four years of depression
Three years of hiding
Two years of heartbreak
One year of not feeling any thing

It was four years of depression
Three years of self hatred
Two years of anxiety
And One year of mental abuse from my cousin

Now I hate the girl in the mirror
I hate her thighs with battle scars
I hate her long hair that's always in the way
I hate her hands for it makes people think she got burned a little but is just a birthmark

But oh how i love her eyes
The beautiful brown orbs
That sometimes seems red

I reach for the stars
But they seem so far