Dear Mom and Dad,
I’m sorry for being the daughter you don’t want me to be.
I’m sorry if sometimes I bring bad luck.
I’m sorry if I always bring disappointments to you.
Dear Mom and Dad,
Did you know that sometimes I feel lonely?
Did you know that all the time I feel weak?
Did you know that I’m always longing for your embrace?
Dear Mom and Dad,
I always get jealous to my younger brother,
It feels like you always care for him more than me;
It feels like he’s the only child you have.
Dear Mom and Dad,
I always feel depressed and anxious,
I always feel disappointed on myself.
I always feel like I am the blacksheep in this family.
Dear Mom and Dad,
I did all my best to make you all be proud of me,
I did all my best not to make mistakes,
I did all my best but they’re wasn’t enough.
Dear Mom and Dad,
I wish someday you’ll gonna ask me if I’m okay;
I wish someday you’ll come to me smiling and you’ll gonna hug me.
I wish someday you’ll not gonna make me feel like im the worst person.
Dear Mom and Dad,
Did you even know that I almost killed myself?
Did you even know that the every move you make and word you says are hurting me?
Did you even know that you all once killed me?
Dear Mom and Dad,
I want to get out from this pain.
I want you to get this pain out of me;
But how? If you all didn’t see me hurting.