Maicah Arbilon: Poems

Apr 2018 · 156

My sweet escape

Maicah Arbilon Apr 2018

My sweet escape

I finally found my sweetest escape...
By meeting you.

Mar 2018 · 154

Little thoughts running on my mind

Maicah Arbilon Mar 2018

Little thoughts running on my mind

Your eyes—
Your lips—
Your smile—
I miss all things about you.

We now barely talk;
We also often to meet.
I miss your voice lingering through my ear.
I miss your hug that takes away my worries.

I always overthink about things;
That you don’t love me no more.
That you don’t want me in your life.
And suddenly got hurt for my own thinking.

Its been a week since we last met;
I don’t know when did we had our long convo.
I miss you so much—
I just want to see you even for a second.

You don’t talk to me about your problems;
You seek comfort to others.
I want you to tell your problems to me—
I want to comfort you myself.

But seems like I cant do that.
We’re so open to each other, I guess.
But seems like your shutting your door of problems to me.
I want to share those with you— I want to comfort you.

Mar 2018 · 140

Pain is pain

Maicah Arbilon Mar 2018

Pain is pain

You never realize what pain is;
Until you experienced it yourself.
You'll never know what move to make,
If your stuck in the same place.

I always keeps on wondering;
What does life can be if there's no pain.
But then I realized--
Pain is the counterpart of all the happy things.

That pain is just a natural reaction of ourselves.
I've been through a lot of pain.
I almost took my own life because of it.
But I always find the way to get through it and make myself happy.

Mar 2018 · 116

Stuck in the same life

Maicah Arbilon Mar 2018

Stuck in the same life

She just wants to be happy;
She just wants to be free—
She wants to be herself
She wants to create her own world.
But how could she be able to do that?
If all eyes are on her.
The disappointments are now after her.
She shouldn’t make any mistake.
She feels lonely—
Doesn’t know what move to make.
She feel so alone;
Can somebody please help her?

Jan 2018 · 833

Abortion is a sin

Maicah Arbilon Jan 2018

Abortion is a sin

It is so cold in here;
Mommy, when will I feel your warmth?
I’ve been so alone here—
For almost 7 months.

Mommy, I am so hungry—
Could you feed me?
I haven’t taste food for the past few days;
Are you mad at me?

I’m sorry if I always end up kicking you—
Its so small in here;
I’m sorry if you always feel the pain.
I know I’m the reason behind that.

Mommy, what is this?
Is this blood?
I’m slowly losing my grip on your womb;
I’m only 7 months—

Mommy, why are you leaving me here?
I feel so cold even more—
There’s so many blood all over my body;
Mom, come back.

I’m slowly running out of breath;
Mom, are you still not coming?
I really can’t see anything—
Mom, I’m now dying and I can’t be able to see your face.

Thank you for letting me stay
In your womb for 7 months.
I guess you didn’t love me, Mom.
But I will always love you.

Jan 2018 · 173

Where should I go?

Maicah Arbilon Jan 2018

Where should I go?

I never thought that the path I chose
Would lead me here—
In this cruel world that we have;
I must go.

And then I thought about it—
Where should I go?
I had nowhere;
The world already turned its back on me.

I must be really unfortunate;
Reason why my family left me.
They did not love me—
They did not care for me.

Jan 2018 · 276

12am thoughts...

Maicah Arbilon Jan 2018

12am thoughts...

I should end this life;
I do not belong in here.
This world is cruel.

Jan 2018 · 238

The Thoughts of Midnight

Maicah Arbilon Jan 2018

The Thoughts of Midnight

I thought of taking my own life;
But then I suddenly remember whom I will left behind.
I was afraid to leave my loved ones here,
But I know they are now ready to let me go.

They didn't even care about me--
They always end up cursing me on the end of the day.
I'm being punished-- I know.
For all the wrong doings that I had made.

I will now end my life;
Be well all the time, Mom and Dad.
I'm sorry for bring disappointments;
I'm sorry I won't be able to make you all proud.

Jan 2018 · 137

With you...

Maicah Arbilon Jan 2018

With you...

Being with you,
Is the best thing happened to me...
But what did just happened?
All the happy things about us,
turned into a bitter memory.

All the laughters,
turned into tears.
All of the smiles that we shared, faded.
Our love. All of them are now long gone.

I loved you. But what happened to us?
In just a blink, all of this were gone.
We are no longer together;
We are now a strangers to each other.

Jan 2018 · 478

Depression can kill

Maicah Arbilon Jan 2018

Depression can ****

I maybe smiling widely;
But didn’t you know I was breaking inside?
I maybe laugh all the time;
But didn’t you know that I always cry alone at night?

I must have the one of the hardest life a man can have.
I have a complete family, but feels like none.
I have too many friends, but it feels like I had no one.
Is this what they called depression?

I just want someone who’s willing to stay with me;
Listens to my story;
Listens to my words;
Listens to my sobbing every night.

Its like I felt the whole world on my shoulder,
Im too young to handle this one.
Can I take my own life?
Just to stop this miserable life of mine?

I just wanted to have a happy life.
But why does every step I take;
I still get this miserable life.
Am I being cursed?

If I’ll end up my life;
Would this curse will also gonna end?
Shall I give it a try?
I want to escape.

Escape this cruel world we have.
People are already killing each other.
People are already taking their own lives.
Many are now dead by this thing called depression.

Jan 2018 · 120

When a girl falls in love

Maicah Arbilon Jan 2018

When a girl falls in love

You gave me strength—
You gave me all the support
You gave me your purest love;
And He gave me the man I love.

You are the man that every girl wish for;
You are the one who can make all my worries gone.
You are the man who cheers me up when I feel low—
You are the perfect man for me.

Many people will talk about us;
On how lucky we are to one another.
“He’s so lucky to have her”, they said—
But I replied, “I am also is lucky to have him”

I don’t care if people will bad mouth you;
I will protect you, my love.
I’ll shield you for all the hurtful words.
And I will perish them with our kindness.

You may not be the handsome guy—
But you are more than just enough.
Even if you’ll go bald—
I’ll still love you for who you truly are.

Jan 2018 · 102

12:40 AM

Maicah Arbilon Jan 2018

12:40 AM

12:40 am—
Another day goes by;
And a new day will about to start.
Thank you for making me happy.

We always ended up
Saying good night
To one another
And wishing we could kiss each other.

But we know we still are young
We still cant live in the same roof,
I’ll wait for that day to come
And I’ll wait for the day you gonna ask me my sweetest “YES”

Good night now, my love.
Hope you’ll doing just fine just for this night
Here’s my good night kiss for you tonight— and;
I love you, Good night.

Jan 2018 · 117

My only inspiration

Maicah Arbilon Jan 2018

My only inspiration

Even if I run out of words to say—
I run out of an idea to slay,
I would still make a poem for you.
I will just stare at you;
And let my hand do all the work.
If I run out of ink to write;
I would gladly use my blood,
To write a poem to my love.
I will do everything;
So you could be able to know—
How much you really mean to me.

Jan 2018 · 106

Ending the pain in my heart

Maicah Arbilon Jan 2018

Ending the pain in my heart

Everytime I lay down on my bed—
I closes my eyes and;
I always started to think,
If what tomorrow may bring.
I know myself, I’ll be unlucky again.
Well, that’s my path to begin.
I accepted it a long time ago—
Nobody wants me; Nobody loves me.
I’ve been all alone since that day;
Since my parents chose not to stay,
And joined God on heaven.
That’s when I realized—
I’ve been depending on them since then.
I don’t know where to start—
Please help me to get through this.
I’ve been suffering too much,
Can I not come with you?
I don’t wanna suffer anymore.
End this struggle that im facing.
I want this to end.

Jan 2018 · 181

The boy who became my remedy

Maicah Arbilon Jan 2018

The boy who became my remedy

I was afraid to fall inlove again;
But not until I found you.
You became the key to unlock this heart of mine—
You became my remedy.
The door finally opens to accept someone in my life;
And gladly it was you who enters.
Never leave my side—
For I waited for so long.
Now that you came,
I’ll never let you go.
You brought sunlight to my life—
The darkness faded and replaced by your light.
You brought me into Neverland.
Are you perhaps Peter Pan?
If yes, im willing to be your Wendy.
Because dear— You are my remedy.

Jan 2018 · 121

When a knight became my King

Maicah Arbilon Jan 2018

When a knight became my King

You called me your princess—
And you called yourself my knight.
This is the first time when someone
Offers himself to be my knight;
I guess I should consider myself lucky,
Lucky to have this brave knight with me;
Comforting me just by his words—
In a silent cold night;
I suddenly felt the warmth of your love.
Lingering to my body;
Its like the cozy air is on your side.
I feel warmth, I feel loved.
I woke up with this sweet smile;
That the knight gave me.
Should I now turn him into my prince?
No, I’ll be a Queen in the mere time;
And I’ll make sure I’ll make that knight—
The King of my life.

Jan 2018 · 126

What's wrong in this world?

Maicah Arbilon Jan 2018

What's wrong in this world?

I don’t really know what’s going on in this world;
People tries to protect the one that they cherish,
But they end up taking their own lives.
Lives that God gave them.

I don’t know why they are doing such things,
Such things that can cause a human being to **** himself.
This world is indeed so cruel.
No, these people are cruel enough.

Cruel enough to **** people;
Not physically but instead emotionally.
They’re saying things, hurtful things to each other;
And end up killing themselves.

For what reason?
Why people try their best to destroy one another?
We’re all the same in the eyes of God,
But why those people keep doing the same thing?

Jan 2018 · 310

My long lost puzzle piece

Maicah Arbilon Jan 2018

My long lost puzzle piece

When you came in to my life,
It feels like all my worries are all gone.
Its like I’ve never been lonely;
I’ve never been alone.

You’re the missing piece on my puzzled life;
It’s finally complete when you came.
You finally found me;
I finally found you, my missing piece.

I never had the idea that we’d end up like this.
I never had the thought that you’ll end up loving me.
I never had the thought that I’ll love you eternally.
Maybe this is what they called fate.

I tried avoiding you but I can’t;
I tried to restrain my own feelings for you.
But still cant— because I truly love you;
I now never imagine life without you, my love.

Jan 2018 · 121

The girl who takes the pain with a smile

Maicah Arbilon Jan 2018

The girl who takes the pain with a smile

She never wants to be alone;
But she felt like she is,
Even if there’s so many people around her.
She’s obviously depressed—
She wants to take her own life,
Because she feels like;
She has no one beside her;
She felt so lonely.

Jan 2018 · 132

More than just a song

Maicah Arbilon Jan 2018

More than just a song

He’s like a song in my ear,
He’s my favorite sound to hear.
His voice brings shivers to my spine,
He’s indeed the soundtrack of my life.

His laughter once killed my poor heart;
His eyes are like saying “I love you”.
His stares are my favorite one,
Our love story is the most best one.

His eyes… His nose… His lips;
They are my favorite sight to see.
Him alone;
Is the reason why im writing this song.

It may not have a melody to start with,
But by just looking at him;
Its like the notes in my head,
Have their on mind to make a melody.

This may not be a real song;
But instead a poetry.
A poetry to my man;
Whom my heart belongs to start with.

#love #couple

Jan 2018 · 773

Dear Mom and Dad...

Maicah Arbilon Jan 2018

Dear Mom and Dad...

Dear Mom and Dad,
I’m sorry for being the daughter you don’t want me to be.
I’m sorry if sometimes I bring bad luck.
I’m sorry if I always bring disappointments to you.

Dear Mom and Dad,
Did you know that sometimes I feel lonely?
Did you know that all the time I feel weak?
Did you know that I’m always longing for your embrace?

Dear Mom and Dad,
I always get jealous to my younger brother,
It feels like you always care for him more than me;
It feels like he’s the only child you have.

Dear Mom and Dad,
I always feel depressed and anxious,
I always feel disappointed on myself.
I always feel like I am the blacksheep in this family.

Dear Mom and Dad,
I did all my best to make you all be proud of me,
I did all my best not to make mistakes,
I did all my best but they’re wasn’t enough.

Dear Mom and Dad,
I wish someday you’ll gonna ask me if I’m okay;
I wish someday you’ll come to me smiling and you’ll gonna hug me.
I wish someday you’ll not gonna make me feel like im the worst person.

Dear Mom and Dad,
Did you even know that I almost killed myself?
Did you even know that the every move you make and word you says are hurting me?
Did you even know that you all once killed me?

Dear Mom and Dad,
I want to get out from this pain.
I want you to get this pain out of me;
But how? If you all didn’t see me hurting.

#hurt #depressed #pain #mom #dad

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