Past and future daydreams
the delusions of
a present tense.

Unspeakable longing
fills every fissure
and pressure demands
the yielding of limits.

            (a dark torrent bursts forth)

      the shores will recede
      until the island is
      swallowed up by the sea

No survivors remain
when the tide, stemmed
for sakes external,
recapitulates the beachhead.

A great ache fills the land
with anguish, beckons
all beginnings to unite
with the end

      {the memory will fade
      to total silence
      beneath the roar of the waves}

Where wilderness waits
to interpose the tamed.

When you first told me you cut yourself,
When I first saw the scars on your hands,
When you drowned your sorrows in alcohol,
When you took multiple Xanax pills.

When you constantly skipped school,
When you came back to school from time to time,
When you joked (perhaps not) about how everything makes you want to **** yourself,

I knew it was only about time.
Death was inevitable for you, and more of a matter of when.

I miss you, indefinitely.
I hope you are doing better.
Goodbye, my friend.
Rest in peace.

I will hear your voice lost
In the echoes,
But not in my soul.
I will see you as a star falls
And is reborn when my eyes find
The one no one has seen before,
       And the moons will cry
At your mysterious essense
As it leaves for another place;
      All the sky eclipses as you go,
I belong to your sky
And I wonder if you are truly gone,
    I think to myself:

How can you be gone,
      When you are still in my heart?

Help me revive my feelings inside the urn,
So that I can help you decide which bridge to cross and which to burn,
I'll stand by you whenever, whatever, wherever,
Let's overpower the impediments to our journey of forever.

I will be willing to be your fire, let me light your way in your darkest nights,
You will not sleep upset because of petty fights,
I'll kiss and hug your fears goodbye,
For I am fire, your guiding light, I love you without an alibi.

I'll let you be my ice that calms the sparks and blazes inside of me,
Devour me inch by inch, my wild fires are yours to be,
Help me collide my body with yours,
Let's tame the dragons with our joined force.

You surely keep me from burning myself alive,
With you by my side, everything I can survive,
You're my ice, my consolation in disappointment,
When I'm with you, every second is a magical moment.

Die into me,

Every kiss is a prayer
As I whisper a prophesy
         To your body.

          The night will keep us
As we constellate our passion.

I die into you,

      I await you on the other side,
There open my soul
      And read the inscription:

   He died a thousand times,
Reborn inside her,
    The Sacrificial Lover.