It's like a flutter in my heart
A sudden rush of gravity
As it falls out of its place that was once behind my rib cage

It's a flutter in my chest of the worst kind
Not one of butterfly wings or hummingbirds
Not one of shy smiles and blushing cheeks
Its One of less than beautiful misery

No this isn't a flutter of wonder
This is one of dark corners where the unknown lurks
This is one of dead trees in an unkept desolate cemetery

Maybe one day I'll look on the bright side

Maybe one day this flutter of sudden gravity pulling my heart though my chest
Will subside

I'm so sorry that I'm a coward,
Sorry that I'm scared of telling you what's going on in my head,
(or heart)
I'm so sorry that I'm too scared to tell you that you're cute
Or tell you that I want to hold you tight so that you sleep nicely.
I'm so sorry that I'm a coward,
Holding back my feelings for you...
But I guess that's who I am,
A coward -
I hope you can see beyond my cowardice,
Is a little candle,
That burns brightly because my love for you fuels it...
And it gets warmer and brighter each time you say hi.

A very close friend told me that I was lost.
It meant a lot, because I am.
I'm lost and I don't think i'll ever find my way.
And that's okay.