Lost Poet

Lost Poet Apr 2016

Up to Me

The yelling, screaming, shouting,
In my head,
I can't focus on anything,
I have to remind myself to breathe,
I have to convince myself to breathe,
I have to tell myself I want to go on,
But it all depends on me,
It's all up to me,
No one else can save me,
No one else can lift me from this vacuum,
But how can you save someone you hate?

Apr 2016

Błeeding Dįamøndš

Care...too much

I care too much.
I really do.
I care about
you
and her
and him
and them
I care about life.
I care so much
that I neglect myself
I neglect my wants
my needs.
I have been providing so much light for others,
that I have let my world grow dark.
I am too busy feeding other people compliments,
that I have left myself starving.
I can't decide
who matters more.
I worry about being conceded
so I discard myself completely.
I care too much

repost if this is you, too

#depression #care

Apr 2016

Aeerdna

Turning pages

If I'd love you more and more and more,
until my heart will become a dry fountain,
it will still not be enough for you
it will never be enough for me
for I will never see the happiness
you used to feel around me.

Our hands still not apart,
but your heart is as absent
as snow in desert.
You're writing new paragraphs between your lines,
but you've never taught me the language
your feelings speak now.

With every touch you're growing colder
the air between us is poison
you're cutting deep in my skin
with your once sweet lips.

I'm sorry darling,
but you see,
this chasm is getting too wide for me
in the darkness of this abyss I don't want to be.

I'll pack all my love in an old luggage case
new journeys awaiting, new roads ahead.

I'm sorry, sweetheart,
I hope you understand,
only by turning pages I'll ever find
paragraphs written in the language of my heart.

Lost Poet Apr 2016

To Go or to Stay

One way ticket, please,
        Where to?
Far far away, please,
        How will you pay?
I'll give you my blood, my life,
        Ha! And what is that worth?
nothing...
        Fine. Give me your happiness. Your hope.
But... I need those...
        No you don't. Just give them to me.
Maybe I should stay...
       No! You need to leave! Give them to me!!
Okay... But...
       Well now that those are taken care of, you may go.
No. I want them back. I don't want to leave.
        Too late. Leave. You payed, you might as well go.
No. I don't want to leave. I want to stay. I want to live!

Lost Poet Apr 2016

In Us

I miss you,
The thrill of your love,
The patience in your voice,
The pureness in your tears,
The hope in our hands together,
The kindness in your eyes,
The broken love in your soul.

Apr 2016

gray rain

Issues

I'm insecure
just like you
I try not to show it
but you do

I feel the pressure
if not more than you
you're innocent minded
and mine is like a zoo

I have too much control
you speak your mind
you're confident
something I'm trying to find

I understand
you don't
I have your issues
plus my own

This is a comparison between my friend and I.

#life #friendship #issues #comparison

Lost Poet Apr 2016

Untitled

The sudden urge to throw up my feelings...