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Shae Jean Apr 2015
She's got a pale face and perfect lips.
She's got mermaid hair and pretty hips.
I can only wish to look like this.

I'm held by too many restrictions.
She's able to feed your ambitions.
There's nothing of me you'll ever miss.
Shae Jean Feb 2015
I’m stuck at the bottom of the ocean,

Wondering if I could drown in emotions.

Got cut on the broken shards of my heart,

I’ve got monsters trying to tear me apart.

There’s a battle raging inside my head,

So don’t be surprised I’m looking so dead.

I need a hero who knows how to swim,

My thoughts are filling my mind to the brim.

The pressure in my skull keeps me controlled,

Can’t let it out, there’d be destruction untold.

I swear my heart stopped beating long ago.

My brain’s broken and it’s starting to show.

Memories took their toll on me,

Left scars you’re never going to see.

So please believe me when I say,

I won’t ever feel things the same way.

I was broken, and I got used.

I got shattered, and I’m still bruised.

I made a sacrifice to keep you happy

So I gave up my precious sanity.

I won’t be making that mistake again,

If what I know now could be known back then.

I wish I could’ve warned myself to run,

Maybe avoid all the damage that’s been done.

Please keep me warm till the summertime comes,

But I can’t breathe with water in my lungs.

Show me that I’m still capable to love.

I’m not perfect, but maybe I’m enough.

I’m empty inside, I’m a fresh new slate,

Can’t change my past, and I don’t like my fate
Shae Jean Jan 2015
SING IT FOR US, HEROES,
HIDING BEHING OUR HEADPHONES,
HOPING MAYBE YOU WON'T NOTICE,
THE DAMAGE OF THIS PSYCHOSIS.
WE ARE SO MUCH STRONGER ON THE OUTSIDE,
WE ARE BEAUTIFUL AND DIGNIFIED.

We just want to be heroes,
Trying to drown out our demons with our headphones.
Nothing we want to gain,
Don't want fame, just want these words to be proclaimed.
We break our bones to save our friends,
We're full of broken promises and good intents.

We're the guardians of dreams,
But we find it hard to continue to breathe,
We're hiding behind scars,
Our purpose is carved in the cracks in our hearts.
We're trying to conceal our fears,
Paint ourselves in black and white, let it smear.

SING IT FOR US, HEROES,
HIDING BEHING OUR HEADPHONES,
HOPING MAYBE YOU WON'T NOTICE,
THE DAMAGE OF THIS PSYCHOSIS.
WE ARE SO MUCH STRONGER ON THE OUTSIDE,
WE ARE BEAUTIFUL AND DIGNIFIED.

We are the social rejects,
Trying to mask our pain in the words we express.
Nothing else we want,
Don't want to be noticed, just want to share these thoughts.
We mend the hopes of our comrades,
Push them two steps forward to fall five steps back.

We're the protectors of courage,
But we're overlooked by the most observant.
We're not invisible,
But you can't see that we're individual.
We're just trying to continue,
But we're fighting the battles that you never knew.

SING IT FOR US, HEROES,
HIDING BEHING OUR HEADPHONES,
HOPING MAYBE YOU WON'T NOTICE,
THE DAMAGE OF THIS PSYCHOSIS.
WE ARE SO MUCH STRONGER ON THE OUTSIDE,
WE ARE BEAUTIFUL AND DIGNIFIED.
this is a song I wrote
Shae Jean Jan 2015
You run your fingers along the strings,
To produce a sound that's like magic to me.
Those are the moments I like you best.
I watch as you're swept away by your music,
I watch the melody flows from your very soul,
Your eyes focus in and out,
And I know you're in another world.
I'm captivated by every strum, every chord,
Falling in love with your pure passion.
Shae Jean Jan 2015
Last night, when you turned to look out the window behind you,
And our foreheads touched,
And we stayed there,
I stopped breathing.
I willed my heart to stop beating,
I was scared that any sudden motion,
Might cause you to move away.
I forced my hands to stay by my side,
Though they wanted to touch your face.
For a second, silent emotions became louder than passing cars,
And then slowly, I pulled my head away,
I was afraid, that it wasn't meant to happen,
That maybe it was a coincidence,
That you couldn't feel the electricity coursing through the air.
Our foreheads touched a couple of times that night.
But it was a coincidence, it had to be.
Then you bent forward, with your head in your hands.
And I swore I heard you say, I'm going to break your heart,
But my mind was fuzzy, was it in my head?
I leaned down, and listened.
"I am a feign."
I do not think you are I feign, I said.
The you are a fool, you replied.
How badly I wanted wrap my arms around you,
And tell you that you could break my heart,
And it wouldn't hurt nearly as badly as giving up the chance to be loved,
That having my heart crushed by you would be an honor worth any consequence,
But I didn't.
I just said,
"I am no fool."
Shae Jean Jan 2015
I don't know you,
No, we've never met.
But I've seen the carnage,
In the beautiful heart you wrecked.

I do know this,
We all make promises we can't keep,
But why'd you have to break the ones,
That prevent him from trusting me.
Shae Jean Dec 2014
Could it be?
No. It couldn't.
But maybe?
No. Probably not.
You pick me up,
And swing me around.
But no. It isn't real.
It's all in my head.
It's all in my head!!
But, what if it isn't?
No. It is. I'm seeing things.
Am I? Is there something?
Something in his eyes,
Something I can't see?
No. Don't get your hopes up.
Stupid girl, he's not into you.
But could he be?
No. Of course not.
Have you seen yourself?
Take a look in the mirror.
There nothing for him here,
Take a step back into the real world,
And forget these fantasies.
Break your own heart, get over it.
He can't see you. Get used to being alone.
But, they say he likes m-
NO. STOP IT. IT'S NOT REAL.
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