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Darlene Chavez Sep 2015
I was afraid
To say hi
To wave
To look in to your eyes
I was afraid
To fall in love
To say I love you
To admit
That I really do love you
But now
I'm afraid to let you go
I'm afraid to look away
Now that you're mine
I'm no longer afraid
To be me
To smile
To laugh
To breathe
You are mine
And I'm happy
Darlene Chavez Sep 2015
Anxiety is preparing yourself to say "here" when the teacher does attendance.
Anxiety is shaking so bad you can barely keep food on a spoon.
Anxiety is being so quiet that even your mind stops for a second.
Anxiety is never texting first because you feel needy.
Anxiety is not being able to walk up to the teacher to hand in a paper.
Anxiety is always sitting in the back of the class so you don't feel eyes know you.
Anxiety is being afraid. All the time. Afraid to love, to smile,  or even to say hello.
Anxiety is only having a few friends because it's hard to talk to people you don't know.
Anxiety is wanting to talk to the cute boy who sits across from you, but you're afraid of him knowing the real you.
Anxiety is finally saying hello

20 times in your head
Darlene Chavez Aug 2015
Head phones in
Drama out
You don't need
All this doubt
Shut your eyes
It's okay to cry
Darlene Chavez Aug 2015
My wrist aches to be carved and cut
But you tell me not to
And I'm trying so hard
But I'm weaker then before
You say I can be so much more
But you can't see
All I want to be
Is 6ft under
And maybe more
Darlene Chavez Aug 2015
She told me
It's all in my head

And now I believe her
Darlene Chavez Aug 2015
You hit me
Like a brick wall
You pushed me
Until I would fall
You made me cry
But still I love you and I don't know why
Darlene Chavez Aug 2015
I'm not sure any more
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