I usually capture his mind but tonight I want to ****** his mind body and soul
soul snatching I know like the back of my hand  I want to stare into the glistening pierced part of his eyes moan softly then whisper beat this ***** up...

~ art is never truly finished.... not scared to share anymore let this book open up~ release therapy

so I called now what.... it’s been a week since I last spoke with you! I know I can be pretty mean especially u... to think the connection was real is a understatement! I hate to let people in my head... weird chick! yesterday’s problems should never effect today’s communication... I’m big on that I hate to let **** linger... I shoulda called the next day but I’m Not gonna keep compromising with u.... so if I don’t hear from u by the end of today, miscommunication would have set our fate! I read between the stars so I’d hate to give up... but your so cold the slickest ******* I know “The Greedy One” so I know it’s through cause I’m not gonna hear from you

the silent cry is something single parents know about all too well
it’s that cry that u hold back when u find out your husband is being untrue
or when u see the mistress for the first time and u
get to stare her in her eyes..... why.... u
it’s that cry u get when u been working super hard to take care of you and yours and you still fall!
it’s that cry left stuck in the back of your throat that hurts the most

not finished but spirit is down so I must share someone out there will understand

dear lost damaged goods the next time u come my way, remember how last time u acted foolish and karma made u pay
dear lost and damaged goods next time u get into anther pretendership remember sometimes big ***** women cheat and lie too
dear lost damaged goods please remember that when u speak those negative words to her they will be repeated to your daughter and future granddaughters
dear lost and damaged goods remember she only wanted ur time and loyalty so when ur with the next chick left feeling sick and blue  remember.... her the one u over looked who wanted nothing more than ur friendship first pure and true
dear lost and damaged goods remember she was hurt multiple times to but never once did she ever deceive you
dear lost damaged goods next time u god places u before another queen like me bow down let her know the real you! Damaged broken man

for the first time in my life chocolate has never tasted so dull I wanted u bad  too
all I kept thinking about was u and me... foolish
I shouldn’t even feel like this but I do
all I want was for him to say I see you
all of this inconsistency is leaving me confused
Im ****** I should have never told u my secret the thought alone is leaving me feeling mentally abused. I was dating other people too
but I lost interest that very day in January when I sent that text to you . 4 to 6 and 8 hr conversations and untamed dreams... I thought of making love to u over a thousand ways....  always ending with me on top.... man swear I almost cried today  for a man who wouldn’t even give me a kiss on lips as soft as this
I hope to hear from him again but if not...

Embarrassed and left put out there
u know Exposed....
eyes filled with sinfully innocenthim why I thought it was u tears....
I wanna scream and cry scream and cry...
I hate putting myself out there
just to be looked over and down at
bare naked secrets exposed
I swore not to tell a soul
ya voice on the phone right now
so blunt  so forceful.... cold

dreaming of you is never enough....
I’m ready to get to it I promise it’s not an act
my bedroom game is really tough
I want u to take in all this goodness
look only... I whisper strongly
but don’t touch...
while I’m riding it biting my lips staring into ya eyes      
watching you desperately trying to keep ya composure.. i lean in towards me you to take more in and steal a kiss from them soft black lips... I play with my ***** while using the tip of my finger to stroke my kitty I’m about to *** I can’t help but yell  it excites me this game of *** competition it lights an fire... fire to this forever flame from this “Fire We Make” “boom” Bob Marley’s voice.... my alarm.... I Iie awake ******* soaking wet ready for that good ole wake and bake

The most addictive drug is the taste of poison He leaves ....the stains on your lips. the mind...he leaves his poisonous dream dreaming of a next time... his smile a poisonous trap.... that allows u to be feed all of his bull crap..... his lips....gods gift to woman this ******* bachelor is something..... I gotta keep reminding myself that it’s nothing

are you ready to fall for a poet?  I mean can u keep up??
I asked...
but looking into his eyes and I seen fear

I’m tired of trying to find an excuse to miss talking to you
I’m tired of the daydreams and not being able to have you when I want you
I’m tired of the all of a sudden pauses I like my flames to forever  burn
I’m tired of being to one to make time it’s your turn
I miss talking to you for hours explaining and laughing
  I miss seeing your smile at least 3 times a week kept me on my feet
I miss feeling like I’m the one you need
but I’m tired of seeing you in every dream.