Before I knew myself, I was
No name, no shame, no need for cause.
I laughed without a second glance,
I danced through life in mindless trance.
The world was soft, the lines were blurred,
No inner voice, no angry words.
No fear, no doubt to cage my breath
No thoughts of time, no thoughts of death.
But then it struck without a sign,
A single thought that wasn’t mine.
Who are you? whispered in my head,
And just like that, the old me fled.
I saw myself raw, exposed,
A puzzle no one ever chose.
The child I was began to fade,
Replaced by silence, sharp as blade.
I noticed eyes, and tones, and stares
And felt the weight of unasked cares.
I questioned how I used to live
How could I ever just forgive
A world so vast, so cold, so loud,
Yet I had floated in that cloud.
I can’t describe it all
No thunderclap, no voice to call.
Just something clicked, and I could see:
And now I carry what I know,
A truth that doesn't let me go.
A scar of thought I cannot share
Life was great before I was self-aware.