Kee - Hello Poetry

Kee Aug 2016

wish.

rough draft:
i dreamed the same dream as you,
i wished upon stars,
dropped pennies into wishing wells,
blew out the candle and repeated it non-stop,
i didn't get mines, so i looked at you,
but then i saw you with another,
and realized that,
was your wish.

revised version:
i dreamed the same dream as you,
i wished upon stars,
dropped pennies into wishing wells,
prayed to the lord,
"please let him be my knight in shining armor"
blew out the candle,
"please please please, let him be the one"
the one day,
i saw you with a girl
giving her the look i give you,
the dreamy look i gave you,
when you smiled at me,
your arms wrapped around her shoulder,
foreheads together in an embrace,
lips sealed in a kiss,
just like ours.
it was then i realized,
my wish didn't come true,
that my dreams were never meant to be,
and that you wanted something new.
something that didn't involve me,
but the girl you wished for,
the girl of your dreams.

Kee Aug 2016

Toy

kicking the walls,
screaming, "SET ME FREE"
i've been stuck in this imaginary box for so long
i'm beginning to think it's real,
at first it was fun, you stayed with me for a while
but then you left.
i wondered where you went, and why you hadn't come back
then i knew, that this was a trap.
you're way of keeping me
and keeping her too.
you said you'd let her go,
you lied just to have me,
and have her too.
so, while i'm stuck in this box
you're loving her
but when you will come back for me?
do i get love too?
or am i just the puppet you love to manipulate
for your use
for when you're bored?
am i just your toy?

Kee Apr 2016

Why?

There’s always a reason why I can’t be as good as you,
Or I can’t have the same respect as you.
When I buy a car you charge me more and the white man less.
I’m expected to possibly get a high school diploma, while you’ll have a doctoral degree, sitting pretty.
Why is my life less important than yours?
Why do you get to have everything?
Why do I have to work twice as hard just to be half as good as you?
Why do we have to do so much to be accepted, just to not be accepted anyways?
Why?
Why do we always seem to be less?
Does it not bother you that we will never be seen for accomplishments, but for our color of skin and the stereotypes you give us?
*Why?

Kee Feb 2016

Higher.

Reading right to left, down to up, common  sense not in my body.
High as  kite, the world is cold but my body is hot like delicious tamales.
Fire in my veins and the screams of my own being is what thrills me.
The Earth crumbling beneath my feet and I'm being dragged in.
I don't mind though, I love the thought of  life being scary.
*What's a life that's drama free?

Kee Dec 2015

my thoughts.

i want to forget everything exists and that love is blind
that the color of my skin wasn't such a bad thing to others
and that i could've never met my 'first love'
i wish *** wasn't such a popular thing and it didn't matter in a relationship.
i wish for my soul to be free and my body to be tatted with purple and white ink symbolizing that i've finally let go of the pain that i've been wishing to shed
and that someone could understand my pain and that i hate being alone but-
if i were to tell them, would they think i mentally ill? that i should be institutionalized and considered a lunatic?
why is it do we shame the ones that are not considered 'normal'?
what is wrong with our society?
since when did being homeless mean you were of less than any other?
the rich aint ****, everyone can see it.
the album is 12 dollars but you'll only donate 1?

this was all in my head at once.

Kee Dec 2015

I like, but I don't like.

i like apples
but i don't like apple pies
i like cheese
but i don't want it on my fries
i like school
but do you really think i would do if i had to?
i like you
but i don't like your attitude
are you understanding my logic?
i won't like this because it correlates with this or it's combined with that
**i like what i like, and that's that.

Kee Nov 2015

A L I F E W O R T H L I V I N G ?

i thought we had a dream to be together forever,
i guess that was a lie.
you said, "i'll never love another."
so who was that you were with in the schools bathroom stall?
don't tell me this just to do the opposite.
i need the truth, and if i can't get it from you then i don't want it at all.
we, we were suppose to be together forever.
our life use to seem worth living, and now that you're not in it..
i'm hopeless, scared, alone, angry, because you're not here.
YOU TOLD YOU'D BE HERE FOREVER
you left me in this debt all by myself.
this debt of love, happiness, anger, and depression.
i have to deal with it ALL by myself.
and you don't care.
you just laugh with your new girlfriend in my ******* face and pretend that you didn't hurt me.
guess what?
i'll do the same.
i'll be better of without you,
and i'll smile.
a real smile.
the smiles you give to a person you love.
and then. only then,
will you feel like an *** for everything you've done.

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