I hope you're happy
She said                        (she lied)
In crowds she's laughing
Alone she cries
I cope while asking
Please, **** me kindly
Don't show        (mask me)
What you find

Long forgotten rotten needs
Return to burn when we believe  
We are free from yesterday
Learning lazy save me please
Grave dreams chase me - crazy scenes    
Face me Satan - vacancies    
In my conscience waiting brief
Miss me maybe we could be
Alone apart -- a heart to bleed

If you've ever felt these
Overwhelming helpings
of hopelessness
You felt me
Television trash news  
Celebrations have to                      
Mask the prison-man's noose  
                                          (   Help me  )    
Indecision - tasks grew  
With a mission past due
Convinced that I can help you
Miss-led-miss-me-yets          
You know I do                                          
Forget it                                      
Less regret
                                        (  Believe me  )
When I say  -  you help me
      Everyday          
You help me

all in all, i loved the fall
forgot to stop
afraid to stall
walls i made to guard my heart
broken now - both torn apart
delayed disdain i fail to start
vertigo reversed to show
i'm alive but only ghosts
remain - insane, i keep them close

i die for free & leave you words & dreams
bleed out on the page, my stage of constant grief
settle down a scene of demons haunting me
realize i'm breathing just to watch my seed
broken but we're coping blindly hope to see
all this time away from me was what we need
leaving without purpose hurts us both; we believe in our burdens being
a testament of the way we aren't - we die, for freedom isn't free