Being loved
In return.

Do you want to be in a relationship?

Yes.
Do you?

Yeah.

I found a piece of you
Stuck to me
Today.
Like a bee sting,
With the poison still inside.
Throbbing and itchy.

I remember
When people looked at me
As if I
Were beautiful.

And everything
Had happened
The way they promised
It wouldn’t.

A thousand answers
one last question
— why

(Dreamsleep: March, 2024)

When you speak
to me
a certain way
I can see the words

Shaped and formed
with wings
of gold
freeing what I’ve heard

When you speak
to me
a certain way
I can taste the wind

Calling forth
my hopes and dreams
— tendered from within

(Dreamsleep: March, 2024)

The righteous
may struggle
the righteous may fall
But Hell
only exists
— in a place without love

(1st Book Of Prayers: April, 2024)

Why do they come up
Why bring me back to the horror
Why make me remember
Why must these memories haunt me
only to leave me once more???