The ocean casts cerulean
Its eyes a fatigued gaze
Paralyzed in your presence
Concealed and unscathed

On the surface...

All the while,
My feelings drown in
Your waves,
Reaching out to touch you...
Realizing I'm powerless...
Staring up at your slate sun.

You've been there by my side
This whole time.

I pray only that you do not
Leave me to catch
Your falling embers
When you're gone.

I pray that one day
We'll be with each other always.

I pray that I don't have to wait
Any more months or years
To kiss you,
And for it to be real.

I ask God why tonight,
And tomorrow I'll sit by your side
As if nothing ever changed.

Long-suffering in this hidden truth,
Powerless to say a word.
The reality is my soul is saddened
That you are not here with me now,
All I can do is dream of you,
A smile on your face.
I'll see you tomorrow,
And you might never
Know what I feel for you.

Somewhere,
Some place,
Breaking
Glass cages,
Holding us
Back,
Then
Maybe-
Things
Would
Change,
In these places,
Many different
Faces.

What are you feeling?

Just let me
Be like a
Chameleon,
Molding,
And shaping
With
Each situation.

It's the only way-
Automatic,
Adaptation.

For once,
Coming out,
Of hiding.

Magenta
Streaks
Revealed.

For what it’s worth
I had a beautiful
Day with you
A frozen picture
I’ll cherish forever
I wish for more
I hope for love
I want to know
You better
I want to see
Where this goes
But only if you
Feel it too
Yes, it’s scary
The unknown
And that
My heart might
Break for you
All I ask is for one
More day to hold
Your hand
My newfound friend
Life is so much better
When you
Have someone to hold
Onto
While you face the edge

Snow Falls,
On this magical,
Christmas night.

Not a soul in sight-
But I can hear,
Your song.

There are lights
Glimmering
In the distance,
They wrap
Their way
Around pine needles,
A never-ending
Maze
Of branches,
Catching
Falling Snow.
Blanketing.
Forgiving.  

There is no sound,
Only silence all around,
As white flecks,
Reflect
Off the ground.  

God-
I know you're there.

Can you hear,
This prayer?

Fell asleep to sun drops rising
Flashbacks were raining
Reminiscent
Of comforting pain
Something was missing
Why were the blinds closed
All the way down that day
Lost sight of reality
In the labyrinth
Mind maze
Lost there

City lights used to shine
Now all they do is blind
Broken windows stuck in time
Not easy to ride-or-die
Looked out as they emitted
Scattered out in all directions
Unparallel visions
Forever searched for the next
High
(Nothing was ever enough)
City Lights
Glow all the time
Fluorescence kept tripping
City Lights
Used to shine
All the time
Now the streets
Lay mostly empty
City Lights
Shine on still

What does it take,
To grow back
Your soul?

To feel a sound
Deep within
Your bones,
To hum a tune,
Arisen from
A place laid
To rest,
A place left
Forgotten,
Only to remember
What it’s like
To be
You completely,
To feel what
It’s like to
Be closer,
To whole.

Didn’t want
Another clouded
Marvel to take away
Your blaze
Extinguish it
Ignite loose branches
With a single brush
Don’t want
Dimness
To put out
A spark so bright

Clouds became squares
and filled in the spaces
The open air
Consumed and
the wind rearranged it
and quickly the storms rolled in
After they slowly taunted in the Distance
Squares were replaced with different Shapes
Triangles and so many circles
and sugar so tasteless
Cloud squared secrets left no traces
Soon it all faded
Always looked for
Anything to fill those
Empty spaces
Soft edges were sharpened
And all was shapeless
In those cloud square spaces
and all was face less

For the first time in a while
Took some moments
To live in here and now
Everything so bright
Turned to dim
Worlds can turn
Up-side-down
It's like sand running
Down the spaces
A mourning feeling
Forever faces
To fight it
Found the light in it
A shower pauses
Stillness invades
Moving spaces
The human races
To keep up with it

We swim in the deep
Drown in the times
Float on hopeful moments
Feel so many emotions

A roller coaster's peak
Stands waiting for those
Who want to ride it
Until descent

Flooding gates open
Then close with changing
Tides
Move in, move out
Caught by rocks
In the calm after
A storm
Warmth and chills
Collide

Come to the mountain-
All the way to the shore.
Be with me,
Come quietly
And listen to
The waves at night.
Don't be afraid,
Anymore.
A fog clears,
Don't hold your breath
Because you might
Forget
You're breathing,
After all.
Come take my hand,
Embark on this journey,
With me,
To see
Something real.
Don't be afraid
To feel alive,
Once more.

Played a game of connect.the.dots.

                          Underneath
         ­                 A high window.

So many stars we could see, so many specks above
A roof that opened to infinity

The moon,
Constellations,
A forest of aspens,
Snow covered a fire pit buried outside
In summer, it will burn bright.

Night carried on,
Made magic in the dark,
Two dots formed
Constellation.hearts

                           Underneath
                                                   You moved up
from below

                           (I can still see you there)
                           (Our hands held close)

Love was made.
It will never die,
                                 like that night.

Played a game of connect.the.dots.

                            In another life
                            Maybe it would stay alive

Two dots formed
Constellation hearts.

(Dim) Abyss.
Nothing Appears
Until,
"You."

You asked,
"What is the point of all this?"

The View,
In the distance
No longer
Changes,
It appears
Sedentary.

It moves
Through
Fractals
That
Forever,
Consummate,
The Spiral.

It Invisibly
Connects
Tunnels,
That Blanket
Across
Unseen
Silence.

To change
The Scenery
With
Each
Revision;
Timeless.

A (Light),
Expanding
Ever (Bright),
Plays
As it displays
Itself
In
Dark
Energy.

"Where
Am
I?"

"You
Are
Here,
With me...

Always
Will be."

A present time,
Connects
To the
All-Knowing
Eye.

We've
Been
In
The Continuum,

This
Entire
Time.

"Wake up
Now."

"It's not your turn yet."

Horizontal lapses happenstance in the open.
A reflection present when motionless- inviting, welcoming.
Stopping, for seconds passing, to be stoic, calm breathing.
Haunting in the most pleasant ways, senses reckoning.
Daylight Beckoning.
Visiting, clear picture, subconscious revisiting, silence, closing in.
There’s an opening; rectangular door; wooden; lit with a warm glow.
Closed with a Smile. The rest not confiding.
No longer hiding.
This is a place like no other.
This is a safe corridor (We created it).
Closing one door,
To lead to another.
Closing one door,
To lead to another.
Ending here to begin,
As if there never was
"Before."

No longer young
They have grayed
Hair thinned
Adult diapers worn
Skin frequently
Pricked by a nurse
With a pin
Wrinkles
Formed roads
He traced
His finger along
One on
Her hand
All the way up to
Her heart
Then back down
To her wedding band
To discover
A faint whisper
Death couldn’t
Sever their love
One so rare
Death couldn’t
Sever their love

Tears fall,
Connecting
All these dots
In the "dot" book,
Like a game...
There once was a child,
With pencil in hand,
Drawing constellations,
Little lines came together,
Tool in hand,
The creator of the universe
Was born

Her lips
Touch paper cup,
To form paper cut.
Reach
For First aid kit
Fast,
Forewarning.

As the blood
Runs down,
To form lava flow,
It glistens
With crimson glow,
She feels alive.

I try so hard
Just see
The light,
But it's not
Always there,
Inside.
This curse
Never subsides
As if a brick
Subsisting
Forever
Preventing
It from
Being Found.

Blessings
Are
All
Around.

If only
Emotions
Weren't bound.

Returning to
This foreign land,
All I can do is
Hold your hand
As you lay
Dying
Before us.

No words
Can describe
This feeling,
Varnished with
An everlasting
Shell of
Uneasiness,
Inside,
As the one
That helped
Raise us
Fades
Before us.

If only we
Could heal you,
If only we
Could
Breathe new life
Back into your
Fading body.

We are only
Human though,
Like you dad.

It feels
Like I'm dying
Inside each day
As you are,
But in a different way...
No words
Can describe
This pain.

When I close my
Eyes;
I see you so clearly
In some of our
Last moments-
Smiling at
Your grandchildren
Running;
Green Grass,
A beautiful sunny day
Made just for you.
Reaching for
Our hands,
And then one last time
Again.
Laughing at our jokes,
That are reminiscent
Of yours;
You're still here.

Dad,
I love you.

Dandelion seed parachutes
Fly up to castles in the sky
Little child’s eyes open wide
Weightless little puffs float
Fearlessly holding all hopes
High, to castles in the clouds.

It's hard to let go and hold on

Let go for a little while...

Dangling from a star
In ebony space

Invisible,
Dangling
Hanging on to how it feels
Drowned in incandescence

Lost in the void
Lost in the void

Touched your fingertip
Before floating away

Oh no
Where did you go
Oh no
Found yourself,
The tip of where
You can't see
Or ever go

Lost in the void
Lost in the void

Always dangling there
Waiting for a glimpse
Of something far off,
Galactic

Still hanging on,
Dangling,
Crystalline trellis
Covered head to toe
With heavenly glow
Danced in Jupiter's rain  
Under Callisto's light
And nothing could compare
Shining with a million colors
The whole time
Dangling

Lost in the void
Lost in the void

Shutting Down:
Don't you dare to dream;
To sleep:
A barricade
Concealed here
In the quietness.

Breaking Walls:
Made of concrete;
To lift:
Them up
Forever.

Maybe never.
Forever
Questioning,
New views
Of how
Each day
Is a gift-
Separating from
The material-state.

Berate, berate, berate...
Oh, how we love
To hate.

Dare to love
What you "think"
You hate.

Darkened Star—
Goodbye.

Nothing to fear,
Only dim sparks
That fly
High;
Etched
In twilight drenched remnants of minutes and space
Connecting past the universe’s face.

Darkened Star,
You’re no longer,
In sight.

No need
To fear;
Light encumbered under the warmth
Of a full heart reaching beyond a blind man’s dart.

Darkened Star,
Goodbye.

It all started
So light,
Until I heard
A voice barely say,
“Welcome to the Dark Fairy Tale,
Run for your life."

Then these thoughts
Crossed my mind,
The warning signs
Were all there,
I should have turned
Back at the masquerade ball;
Pulled off the mask,
Face revealed,
Smell of her
Perfume in
Your hair.

Kept the truth
Locked up with
Gingerbread
And sparkle dust,
"Love."

Trapped
In a toxic tale;
Couldn't sleep,
The Gothic prince
Took my hand
So charmingly,
And said, "Come with me..."
He spun me round' and
Swept me off my feet,
Until I fell to the
Floor and couldn't
See.

Cinderella Dream;
Coated with Candy Cream,
It was all fun and games,
Until I realized his
Premeditated plans
To take away
All the best parts
Of me.

Poison apple
Portrayal
Forever
Frozen in
Glass frame
Would be
An unlikely
Ending.

So,
I tried this
Dating site
And what
Did I discover
That love
Is now
Many times
A cover
People aren't
Human
Much anymore
Maybe I'm
Made for
A deeper love
For sure
Experience #1
Met a younger
Man calls me
**** and says
He likes his
Women older
Talks in full
Detail about
How it will be
Then vanishes
Into thin air
Before we
Ever meet
Experience #2
Yes this one
Has a great
Sense of humor
Holds his own
Profile says
"Single" but
When we meet
For coffee for
The first time
He'll need to
Tell me his story
We sit there
In Starbucks
Music blaring
He tells me, his voice low
The truth
He is married
Has a daughter
In another country
And the baggage
Spilled into air
I looked at him
And said now
That's a burden
I can't bare
That fast
Disappeared
Experience #3
Another twenty seven
Year old man
Approaches
We chat about
Philosophy
For half an hour
He has a warm
Smile and is
Standing in a
Field of flowers
(In his pic)
He asks seemingly
Innocently
If I'd like to text
We exchange digits
Start to flirt
Before I know it
He says he finished
Before it started
He departed
Never met him
In real life
Never heard
From him again

Gentle dawn reaches out lovingly
To the sleeping world below.
She must let go of night’s slumber,
And shine her light on everything.

Surface fades
To empty space
Day breaks
Slices of moonbeams--  in half
To Dissipate
Like unreal magic
Frost effaces
What is left
Without a trace
Night drifts away
Without saying
Farewell
Left to dust
Sleeping, dreaming, discovering
Subconscious awakenings
They revisit whenever they want
You're never alone

That was the day
I felt deep love for you
You led me to the
Day Stars
Found a new existence  
Lost in wilderness  
Not long ago
Breathed in deeply
Touched the skin
Figments fluttered
On more than wings
Escaped the noise
in a breakaway paradise
Maybe we'll
Return one day
In waking flames in
Another form
Danced across the sand
Buried secrets
Tried to understand
Felt euphoric
Discovered more
Freed the mind
Felt so alive
Daylight reflected
In waves that
Crashed against the sky
Above high rocks
Hundreds of small birds
Passed by
They were
Day Stars
Energized
Full of life
With a purpose
Shined like embers
Of Venus
Appeared as
Miracles
Sent from heaven

I remember the drive,
Across those
Watercolor splotched
State lines,
Smears of time passed fast,
Downpours covered,
Played a symphony
Above our heads,
Gushed down on roadways,
We are truly powerless.
Arrived safely,
Eyed signs like a game,
Counted down the miles,
Sweet freedom
And comfort,
I reached a destination
To call,
“Home.”

What is ever truthful, and is anything real?
Just have to believe it...just have to...
I try to hold the tears back, they still fall
Uncontrollably, no more and again, again
They fall...
Disenchanted songs play in my head
Thoughts like water shed, overflow
Beyond the cliff, Down to drift free
All this disbelief is made of dark
Things that attack and hurt the soul
In this place there is nowhere to go
No way to grow, the more warmth
You bare, the colder they stare and
So, you disappear because it’s what
They want and you can’t please
Everyone, so the only thing to do is
Pick yourself up and move on until
You don’t fall, keep trying in hopes
You’ll find the glow of a star that's true...

Unpredictable this life is, so
Unpredictable just like
The winter snow,
The force of
A Summer Storm,
Coming in fast,
Keeping us guessing,
Your love burns across
The dawn to find me lost
And I don't have control,
Of this,
Of everything,
And your heart seems
To call me from
A place so familiar,
And just when I thought
I knew where
I was meant
To be,
You came along,
Dividing the sea.

Dropped these words on the ground, to discover that sometimes
Words don’t make a Sound. Left them there in the soil on a Rainy
Day and returned in the morning to find that they sprouted Wings
And Flew Away, maybe they’ll come back one day or maybe they
Left forever on the back of a Scarlet Letter, to something better or
Maybe they are being sung by a choir lifted high up to Skylight

Night falls, magical
Dust in-between
The dim and The End,
Flies weightless and
Careless,
Canary cloudland
Carries the
Dots in flight, existing
Here nor there,
Their flicker
Absent
As the day
Is swept away.

It escapes.

I can’t quite put my finger on this—
The world continues to spin
On its axis, and thoughts dance
On imagination’s stage like toy soldiers,
Ballerinas, and stacked wooden dolls
Come to life in this far, far away vision.
Eyes open in a dream within a dream,
Where you think you have awoken,
But you are still deep in Dreamland.

Sand through
Fingers
Finding
It all
Gone
Away,
Back to
The Sea
With
The West Wind.

Eyes opening-
Murky waters
Drowning out
Clear sight.

Before it
Was my
Dreamscape.

Droplets
Clear and
Showering,
Building up
To new
Heights.

Unfamilar,
A new flame.

This shadow
Replays
Night
After
Night.

It vanishes
With time
Only
To call
Me
Near again.

He's standing over
You,
Offering a kiss
As you leave
The room,
Rings falling
Upon a
Wooden
Tabletop.

"It's just a vision,"
You tell yourself
As you
Lay fully alert,
Sending
Words
Honestly
Wrote.

It's dangerous,
Stay away-
But he keeps
Watching you,
Calling you
Back into his arms.

The silence
Soothes you
To sleep.

Now on
Never-ending,
Repeat.

It's just
A
Dreamscape.

I should
Stop thinking
And sleep.

Now or
Never.

Which is better?

Northwest damp cold
Comforting envelope
Hidden in its own
Shelter
Sealed by
Drizzle
Its palette
Thickly drenched in
Charcoal shadow
Meshed with evergreen
On a cobalt metal roof
Dancing in-between
The cracks
And living in
Black rain boots

Day ended,
I drifted away
Because I no longer
Wanted to stay awake,
Where did I go?
It's a place where someone
Loves me and won't let go
It's a place only in my mind
Where I believe it's so

One day in 2299,
They will tell
This story,
The one of
Dying books on
Dusty shelves,
In a time when
There was
Still room
To dig graves
In the ground.

Your presence
Reached in and
Broke the surface
Just enough
To find its way in,
Back to the depths
I’m telling you, life is short.

I’m telling you…
It is.

Vividly glimpsed
Your face while asleep.
Your eyes stared down at me
Piercing my soul and
Said, “Meet you at the East Gate,”
That’s all I know.
We would always see the numbers, “222.”
They signaled through the airwaves,
Subconsciously,
Visited us often,
We had no fear.

I looked into your eyes,
I didn’t want to leave
This place behind
Closed Eyes.

When I silently asked you
What to do, you looked the other way.
Then, I opened my eyes and
It was morning,
Light shined in,
Peaceful and quiet.

You were so real,
I knew your face,
You told me you knew
My fate.

It was time to wake,
From where your unending
Glow extended,
Time to trust
The unknown.

See you at the East Gate my long lost friend.

You give me simple pleasure,
As I bite into your inner layer.
I love you in the morning
In between a bagel,
Sometimes with bacon.

In the afternoon,
By a salad’s side you sit,
With my favorite edibles-
Arugula, red peppers, fresh peas,
Black and green olives,
Topped with chicken, cheese,
Sesame vinaigrette, and,
A few croutons for crunch.

You are an Egg, but so much more.

The texture and depth of your yolk,
Sublime and sumptuous;
Your outside solid, yet undefined;
Balancing textures with what’s inside.

Egg,
You are truly
Divine.

There lies a barrier here
An invisible line in the air
Go there,
Anywhere you go
Just go

I know heaven is breaking
The seal
Can feel it revealed

Will you make it through.
In some spaces
I know a light is not far
Away.

It is the only way to make
It beyond
To each new day.

A warrior, until you’re not.

Then the question becomes,
“What happens if you give
Up the battle?"

I can hear an empty echo.
You live to see another day
And trust to leave behind
Yesterday.

You live to try once more.
There lies a barrier
I know heaven is breaking.

Hasn't broken through
To you yet.

An invisible line in the air
Elapsed fear.

Essence emanates
On clear glass
Scraping hurricanes
Streaks racing
As if rivers
Forming to
See who
Finishes first.

Empty love
Was all she got
So much
Empty love

Outstretched
And
Exposed
To find
Yourself
In
The
Chasm.

Displaced
Consciousness
As if
A Phantom.

Holding your soul,
Close to your body.

Rolling
Into
A Cocoon
Of
Newly
Spun
String.

Rolling, rolling, rolling...
To where?

Towards
Undetectable
Cosmos.

Unending,
Then crystalizing
Over sudden sunsets,
Infinitely,
Across the horizon.

Moving towards
Abstractions
Faster,
As concrete
Fails to set
Within them.

Swept up
On the stairwell
Of a helix,
Waiting to
See where
It ends.

Caught up
In the never-ending
Space of Obscurity
That sometimes seems
Forbidden.

Enigma,
I see your shadow,
It passes by
Quiety,
How to be
Enigma,
You just create
The image,
I'll bring the time,
It's an idea
We create,
Who are we
Though,
In the mess
That
Consumes,
This life,
We hide,
I could hold
This thought,
Here in my
Mind,
We could
Create this
Enigma,
Although
It's not
Reality,
It's just lost
In the middle
Somewhere,
Enigma,
I see your shadow

Tempo slow,
Until it moves
Hastily with
Notes ongoing,
There’s nothing
Left to know,
There’s nowhere,
Left to go
When it’s
Coursing
Pure as water.
Something felt,
In a place
That invades
All others
To capture
One entirely.

Equilibrium, the flow of current moves against air.
Prolongation of sound resonates, and it speaks of unearthly escapes.

Leaking pipes in a seascape painting scrape off old oil;
A wall revealed, it hides behind the canvas.

This scene is spectral, and soundscapes release chants;
On and on and on,
On and on and on,
Freedom is your choice,
And we’ll always have
Daybreak daydreams, to keep demons away.

They say,
"Good things
Come to those
That wait."

A Dream
Came True,
In a place
Hidden
From disgrace.

Is this
The end
Of
The escape?

Merely
Blinded
By walls?

Just as
The memory fades,
A sound calls
As if telepathic.

You said you want to see this soul
I said
Open your eyes,
Love...
Turn out the lights
And hold on
Until eternity
Bends unending
Above,
Just don't let go
No,
Of this hold
And if you do
Close your eyes
Take in this breath
In all of me
There was never
Anything to fear
No,
Here in the dark
Just don't let go
Share your light
For eternity and then some more
An endless kind
It's what everyone wants
To find
In the daylight or night
Close your eyes
See me
Seeing you
Hold on until
Eternity
Can you hear
Your echo there
Where statues and stones
Remain still
Your voice is now
An echo
In their halls

Eternity
Elapsed
Through fingers.
It wasn’t
Real...
Touched
And lingered
All over,
To return to the
Inception
Eternally.
We can live forever,
In another world.

Materialized
Up
To
The Ether,
Only
To return
Back
To
Earth,
After
You disappeared-
Trying to
Remember...
What
It was like
There,
Looking down
From
The Inside
Out
Into
Another life.