Change, what a change
Lately become so hard to adjust,
Still carrying on carrying on
But guess I never be the same again.
I want to scream
about how much you did me wrong
But I'm silent .... thinking maybe you're right in your place.
Shut my mouth, shut my thoughts
My heart scattered loudly,
Nobody hear it and nobody knows.

I smile through my pain,
And its okay to be alone again.
In held that bond so tightly
make it seems so easy that we're bounding,
But you never thought twice,
Break me and be distance.
And here I'm standing alone figuring out the reason why?
Here I'm writing that even we'll same again.....the shattered pieces cannot be restored again.

Well what a change what a change
Carrying out for myself
But I never be the same again.

Nobody know, not even me,
What is going on with me
Is I'm part of creating this scene or just necessary imposed on me.
It's a point of No energy, no pain
                      No love, no hate
                      No hope, no regret
                      No satisfaction, no craze
                      No lesson , no gain.
  This state is like a dim light, everything okay but also not.
  So subtle that I forget to live,
  It's just going on, where I don't know, but just going.

Frustrated
Just another day
With million things racing in mind,
And nothing goes as it was planned.

Hated
The way I've been these days
Trying but nothing feels enough
When i gonna know what is enough.

Caged my heart
Cause it goes wild
When it not get
What it want.

Wasted
Feel like wasted
In search of meaning of life.

Like dew on the grass
My freezing hand in your palm,
Mesmerizing touch
Oh this inseperable bond
Childlike smile and twinkling eyes
Craving for one ...for the only one
Yeh gist of all
You, where my everything belong.

Want to be oblivion again
Of the fact that,
Most of things are not in my hand
And how hard I try
People leave, even you give them all.

I feel good, in my baddest time
I feel alive, with tears in eyes
I hurry up so i never be late
I treat people with heart not with mind,
And I wished I never be so delicate....
But it's a fact I'm just a human
So i will Just go on like river and wind.

What I want
I think I forgot in the middle of path,
What I dreamt of
Lost in the colour of my dark,
In this walking and falling
I don't know rise with all those scar.

In the singing of birds
Under the blue infinite sky,
In silence breathing of earth
Totally calm and fully alive,
That moment I knew where I belong
I see there reflection in me,
Clearly ..... undoubtedly
Every inch of me,
There reflection in me.

I fly, I flow
Never the definition of slow.
I walk, I run
Never the definition of old.

Find me here,
Find me now,
I'm here in my subtle form
Pacing to get it right,
Working to make everything fine

Why you are sad dear,
Why you are mad dear,
Don't you see.... You're masterpiece
Why you let those petty things
Mess with your heart and mind.

Wanna lost
Lost like I have never been before
So that no amount of
Consciousness bring stress to me
About being good or bad
Do things which give me utmost joy,
Not a single thought of future
Just present prevail.

Was I became dull, boring or selfish?
Am I think to much do very little.....
Is this world changing me or my phase of adulthood?
Then why I notice bad before any good,
Hold these old grudges and I find it difficult to let it go.
Is this what I dream to become
Not able to believe in lies or even the truth.

It would take time
To I call you mine,
Cause I been through many troubles
To identify the real and the fake one.
So tell me one thing
Will you stay real?
Cause I want to make you,
My forever this time.

So don't lose the patience
Don't lose your feeling for me
Don't get attach to someone, my love.
Cause I want to call you mine,
I want this bond
To never fade in my life.

Even though they're your loved ones
At some point you have to understand their real intentions
Carry two faces in their pocket
Just don't show any one of them if you are also one among them...

I don't have any problem
If you show me your hate
That clear indication that you're not a traitor,
Only a person who don't like me.

I never forget you
I tend to ignore you
Cause I can't push myself
Into that spiral
Again and again

The beauty of pain
Stay with me
Walk with me
Remind me that

Happiness
Comes with a cost
Whenever you get a chance
Be Happy!!

Those gloomy clouds enclose the sky
And the rain was pouring
I was sitting all by myself
Sipping coffee which I made,

Reading a novel consist of love story
And it consequently
Remind me of ours,

About how we meet
And how we left,
But it still freely alive in my head,

Now those things haunt me
Which excite me once......

We crave for Sunday's
And hate Monday's

Babylonian had created
A schedule of time
But now we lost that track
Now, the days are a blur
Into one and another
And I can't remember
Is it my favourite Sunday
Or another disgusting Monday

I think the clock lost its system
It's ticking turn into reeling
And every day feels like 23rd June

Someone, please stop this zoom
Cause it's fatigue is real,
You know right...?

My hope and this pandemic
Can't live together in peace
So she took off this morning
And said to me
' Call me when this pandemic exit this world'.

Without going underneath
I took a step back
Because its not look
Even on the surface
Is it worthy to go beneath


Lately I cannot conclude
Whether to stand or to fall
Cause I know I can't hurt
Myself this time for sure

So I took a step back
Without going underneath.

I'm not the lady
Of your dream
I'm not the fairy
Of your scene

Maybe I'm different
From the rest
Want peace with myself
You can't fill my void
With the nowhere talk
You want me to be that one
But I think I'm not that one.