I Didn't Knew The Value Of That Moment
''Until It Became A Memory ''

No One Stays The Same!

Travelling to Egypt :)
Then
Travelling To UK <3
What A Beautiful 2013

I
Love
You
&
Hiding
It
Is
Killing
Me
!

That Day When I Sent Him That Email
That Says How Much I Love Him,
How Much I Want Him,
From That Day I Fell In Love With Him
&
Everything That Says When ,How And Why ...

He Called Me That Night
&
Started Calling Me Baby   My Sweetheart   My Darling
Those Words I Remember So Well
That Special Night I Can't Never Forget
The Day That I Was Waiting For Too Long
Everything Happened The Way I Want
I'm More Than Happy To Continue Forever Now
With The Man That I Was Dying For
The Man That Completes Me
:)

I Gave Him A Flower
Then
He Stared
Saying That,,
I Should Give You One Too ;)

Telling The Truth & Making Someone Cry
Is Better Than Telling A Lie & Making Someone Smile!

My baby
It's you that I love
Truly with all my heart
Forever our love will grew together
I love you

Why do I feel lonely without you ?
without your touch
without your voice
without you here by my side
I never though that I would find someone that special
or
love someone as much I love you
I just never though.
I remember that day when I was laying in bed
closing my eyes
&
imagining us together <3
I used to hate it when I get back to reality
&
know that we aren't meant to be with each other's
But
I also remember laying in bed praying to God
Praying to turn all my dreams to reality
I Remember
Thanks God for giving me what I asked for
Someone to love me , someone to hold me tight ,someone to take care of me
someone who understand me <3
**You Are My Dream Come True

When I see You
I Forgot Everything I Planned To Ask You
That Is Because Of The Love That I Have For You Baby
Because I Love You So Much
My Brain Isn't Functioning Properly
When I Am With You

"My Heart Will Go On "
The biggest lie I've ever heard.

There was a time I loved you
Know matter what you would say.
Now I no longer love you
You scared my love away.
I always hoped you love me
You seem happier with others
No matter who they are.
But not when I’m around
So I loved you from a far.
No matter what I do
It’s never good enough.
Why you hate me I don’t know!
You said it a lot that you don't want me
From the day I was a womb in your belly
You told the doctor how can I get rid of her
I don't want her
Make her die
He didn't let you
But
I wish he did
So I don't need to suffer the pain
I am suffering now*.

Depressed
no one can see
no one can feel
I smile,pretending to be happy!
Depressed
&
no one can see
this is me
I wish I could find that special someone
who could understand the real me

Pretending You Are Next To Me
Your Smell
I Want To Breath
Instead Of Oxygen
Because
It Can Make Me Fall Asleep
Even In My Dreams
Your Face
Smell
All
With
Me

How do I describe the forbidden love !
My Heart Beats whenever I see you
My Heart Beats , Bleeds, Cutting me inside .....
Afraid from wishing you too much.
Without you in my life my loneliness will grow with time.
All what I'll have is just memories!
I'll be stronger than that & pray to God to let us be together .

I Do Not Need My Eyes To Know How Deep My Love's For You
The Flutter Of My Heart When I'm Near You
The Smell Of You , The Sound Of You , The Tenderness Of You Touching My Shoulder !
If I Would Add The Sense Of Sight , It Might Just Be Too Much !

When I first met you
I felt like I had known you forever
Day by day
I took it slow
Since, the day our conversations grew
I became very fond of you
I started telling you my secrets
I got to know the real you.
I'd never leave
You know why ?
because of the feelings I have inside.
I know you
like no one I have ever known,
and sometimes I wonder
what I'd do if you were gone?
I'd die!
I love the way we are together,
you can always make me smile.
Will it ever really be forever?
I guess I will have to wait awhile
Maybe 2 years if I could wait :(
Meeting you baby has changed my life
and I really love you
the feelings I feel for you
I am never letting go.
I thought of you today but that’s nothing new
I thought about every single day !!!
for every day good or bad you'll always be in my head
I hope you've understood everything I’ve said
this isn't just a joke or a silly lie
I mean it MAN I LOVE YOU
I’ll never get you out I simply don't know how
in fact I’m thinking of you right about now
you’re everything I need and everything to me
you know exactly who you are and what you want to be
you always make me smile just by being there
I want to spend my whole life with you
the way you make me laugh like no one else.
You are amazing! simply said

I'm at the point where I could stare at him for hours if I could
But
The thing is I'm not confident enough to look at him in the eyes
Because they like a magnets.
He isn't the most attractive man I met
But
Definitely his sense of humor & intelligence that attracted me in the first place!!

I Wish I Could Know Your Perfume Name
So I Can Put It On Me
Smell It
Whenever I Miss You
Especially At Night
Imagining You
I Love You

Look At Me
& You Will Understand
How I Feel.
Look Deep In My Eyes
& You'll See Your Name Written In My Eyes
Touch Me Heart When You Near Me
& You'll Know How Much I Love You
No Words Can Explain
I Love You More Than You Believe,
You Are My Life,
My Other Half,
The Man That I Want!
Look Around You,
Has Anyone Loved You More Than I Do?
I Don't Think So !
Always Be Happy
Cause Your Smile Is A Source Of Life For Me.
I Breathe When You Breathe.
But Forgive Me
For What I Say.
I Know You Don't Feel Exactly The Same
But Sometimes I Think That I'm
For You Just A Silly Game
That You Played With Once
I'm Sorry For My Feelings
But I Can't Hand It
I Swear I Can't
I Love You!
Come & Tell Me You Hate Me
That There's No Other Chance,
No Fake Hope.
Don't Show Me, But Tell Me.
& Then I Will Leave
I Swear I Will Leave You,
My Endless Pain.
It's Not Your Fault,
I Can't Blame You
It's Me Who Fell In Love With You
Tell Me Your Truth
& You'll Never See Your Name In My Eyes Again,
Cause I'll keep Our Pas t& My Love
In The Bottom Of My Heart
& I'll Be Gone...
But You Have To Remember That
I Truly Loved You
With All My Hear
And Always Will Do
Whatever Happens
No One Can Takes Me Away From This World
Until That Day I will Never Ever Stop
''Loving You''

I love you so much
That I can not tell
I wish I could tell you
Just how i feel
If I tell you though
You'll just laugh and scream
But I hope you feel
The way I do
When I'm near you
I feel the love
the love that I hide
from my heartbeats
I can't look at you
from the love that I hide
I feel like I wanna fly
when I'm near you

If you come back
I'd place my hand on your cheek
&
say
Why did you do that ?
Don't you feel that I have been Missing You So Much!

I Loved You, Yes I Did, Still Do
&
Will Always Do
I Want You To Stay In My Life
Always&Forever;
I Am Being Selfish
Yes , I am
&
I Want You For Me Only
Love Is A Selfish Thing
&
That What Makes Love Special
You Are Perfect
It Is Such A Stupid Legal Thing
That Is Preventing Me From Holding You
Keeping Us Apart!
Preventing Us From Feeling A Mutual Love
Because
There Is No Explanation
I Hope You Trust Me
I Will Spend Every Living Day Loving You, Wishing To Hold You, Touching Tour Lips
&
Wanting You.
Whatever Happens
I Will Still Want You
Because
I Want What Completes Me
I Want You Tonight
Tomorrow
&
Forever
I Love You
&
Will Keep Loving you Till The Day Of My Death!

Look I Love You and would appreciate it if you wouldn't say things such as you're cute etc if you don't mean it.
**I don't wanna get hurt

I do understand that everyone has their own views on getting involved with person that are a lot older.
But when real feelings are involved
&
True love exists
Then what !?
Nothing else matters.
No age gap is too wide if we both feel so right.
Love is ageless and pure
&
Having a big age gap in a relationship should never pose a problem.

I Have Written Letters That I Can Never Send
Letter After Letter After Letter. . .
I have written you so many letters.
Letter that started out telling you that I love you.
Then letters telling you  how I much I want you
Hearing your voice meant so much. I felt like a little girl stealing Candy
It’s true, I Love You
You are the only one I’ve ever loved
Sure there have been others
Sure I told them
But none were you
just words to others
Your heart will not be mine
That time with you is the best I’ll ever get
So it seems I wait in vain
For love that is not shared…but still
I love you & always will do

If Being Right Means Being Without You
I Would Rather Live A Wrong Doing Life
If Loving You Is Wrong Then I Swear I Don't Wanna Be Right
I Love You As Much As My Heart Can Take
I Don't Care What People Say
Am I Wrong Trying To Hold Onto
The Best Thing I Ever Had?
I Don't Think So
But I Don't Wanna Know What's Wrong Or Right
All I Know Is That I Love You

When you took my heart
I knew that no one will reach it after you
to levels you reached
I knew the first time I met you
that you are what I am looking for

Why must my heart be the prisoner of this ruthless pain?
Why must my stubborn heart continue grasping into this wonderful man I'm in love with?
How can it be this hard?
To love someone you can't have?
How can they make you stay up until the morning thinking about nothing but them?
How is it possible that as soon as you open your eyes,
their beautiful smile
&
lovely face appear in your head?
That when you're going to sleep, the last thing you think about is them?
How is it possible that sometimes, you never stop thinking about them?
When you go to sleep and dream about them, wake up thinking about no one but them... How?
I'm Wondering How!
How can you allow someone to have so much power over you?
He does something to me, that Man!
I love him
&
He's making me cry.

When You Ask Me FACE TO FACE & REALLY CLOSE TO ME
I Just Stare
&
Smile For A While & think
"Hey Man Don't Get Any Closer
Because I'm Dying To Kiss You"
;)

I Will See You After Two Months
I Swear It's Too Much :(
I'm Just So Sad Because I Really Fell In Love With YOU.
I'm Missing Your Voice
Your Smile
Your Eyes When They Stare At Me
Your Lips
I Don't Know What To Do!
But At Least I See Your Beautiful Face In My Dreams
Every
Single
Day!

Have you ever felt
That your heart is broken,
and you couldn't go on?
Have you ever really
wanted to die?
To end your life,
so your tears would dry?
My life was like a ****,
and he lighted it up
he made my smile,
When things got tough,
he was always there,
for once in my life,
someone did care.,
Now the lights has turned to dark,
Without him
I have no life,
I don't wish to see
a new tomorrow from what I saw today.
I'm Crying
&
dying.
They say you can't love someone
in such older years,
then give me an explanation
to why I shed all these tears?
Don't say I deserve someone better,
I just want to be with him,
no one will ever take his place,
why must love always
end with a broken heart?
why?
True love survives everything,
Why can't I stop feeling
the way I do?
I know I'll never find
another you.
I would give everything,
just to see your face,
you are my heart,
something no one will replace.

So remember this,
I will love you forever,
even if it means
we're not together.
Any girl would be lucky,
to have a guy like you,
but no one will ever
love you in the special way I do.

I Ask Myself Why Am I Thinking Of You So Much
For Sure
It's True Love
I Think About All The Beautiful Moments We Shared Together &
The Way We Touched In Purpose
Still Feeling You So Much!!!
I Still Think Of The Moment When We Touch
I See You So Clearly
Your Eyes
Your Mouth
Everything About You Is So Clear.
I Still Feel Your Arm Wrapped  Around My Shoulder
Our Hands Clasped.
I Remember How Wonderful It Felt The First Time
You Held Me In Your Arms &
How After All Those Months You Still Made My Heart Melt.
I Hear Your Voice Saying My Name & Making It Sound Beautiful
I Hear Our Conversations Over & Over In My Head.
I Missed Your Voice.
Will I Ever Get The Chance To Hear It Again Before The Three Months ?
What Has Happened Is Never Spoken &
What I Am Feeling never Get To Be Spoken
Since Actions Speaks Louder Than Words
There Is No Words To Say Directly To You
Simply ,,,
I Miss You, I Wish You Could See
I Miss Those Days When You Would Call Just To Say Hi , How Are You .
Saying Anything To Get My Attention
The Days Were So Nice
I Won't
Say Good-Bye  
Never Ever !
Because Good-Bye Means I Will Not See You Again
I Miss The Times That You & I Could Just Sit & Talk For Hours
Never Run Out Of Things To Say.
One Thing I Know For Sure
Is That Words Could Never Take The Place
The Place Of How I Feel
I Will Keep Saying You Are My Last True Love
The One I Love
The One That My Eyes Can't See Anyone Except You
The One Who Took My Heart
The One That I Can't Look At You Because Of How Much I Love You
Every Time I See You
I See Your Beautiful Smile
You Eyes Looking Deeply Onto Mine
  Feel Your Warm Touch
I Fell So Deep For You
I
Just
Simply
Adore you

It's Hard To Be Strong When
I Have Been Missing You Baby So Much!!!