I see you,see you everywhere.
I see you,see you as if you're bare.
I see you,when you try to hide.
I see you,as you are mine.
Oh baby please,tell me please. ..
Is this love??

I feel you,feel you in your absence.
I feel you,feel you in my presence.
I feel you,feel you in my hurt.
I feel you,feel you in my chest.
Oh baby please,tell me please. ..
Is this love??

I need you,need you as if you're air.
I need you,need you as my anchor.
I need you,need you flowing in my blood.
I need you,need you beyond and above.
Oh baby please,tell me please...
Is this love??.

I like you,like your cracking voice.
I like you,like your twinkling eyes.
I like you,like your crooked smile.
I like you,like your distinct smell.
I like you,like your weird humour.
I like you,like even your stinky sweat.
Oh baby please, tell me please ...
Is this love??

I miss you,miss you when I'm sad.
I miss you,miss you when I want to dance.
I miss you,miss you in the crowd.
I miss you,miss you when I'm all alone.
Oh baby ....tell me now...
Is this love??

I'm afraid, afraid to love you.
I'm afraid, afraid to loose you.
I'm afraid, afraid to hold you.
And I'm afraid, afraid to let you go.
Oh baby.....is this love??.

The light won't shine on your part.
The sun will not engulf you in it's warmth.
You'd lose your power to restore,
To rejuvenate. ..to be worthy of it's essence.
When the morning turns to dark,
Think of me.

The road to your happiness will be blocked,
The door that had been cracking open,
and making your way smooth will be closed.
You'd lose your power to open whats enclosed.
When you walk down the road to your doom.
Think of me.

The home you left behind will be there no more.
The address of your distress is what will be waiting for .
Everything that's good will be a privilege you can not afford.
When you make your final journey to the thing you called home.
Think of me.

There won't a twilight zone.
The stars so far beyond your eyes reach.
Nothing beautiful you'll ever be able to see .
The wind won't caress your skin.
The softness of an affection you will never feel.
When the night turn the darkest before the dawn.
Think of me.

And When you'll be left alone to defend your own.
Think of me.

Is it real? ?
       Or just smoke and mirrors??

Are you really mine??
      Or its just an illusion having you by my side? ?

You've always been mine...
      Just in the wildest dreams...
I have at night.

Is this the way how magic feels??
      Surreal.....,
           Indescribable....
                     Unbelievable...,
                             Unapproachable.
But....still existing!.

The way you smiled with your eyes for me...
The way this time I actually saw the vulnerability.

Were you waiting? ??...
                          like I was.
For me to claim you as mine..

How does a heartbreak look like?
Does it have a face?
Does it breath and is alive?
Or its just a shadow of my most beloved person?
Who has murdered my heart..
And made my head hallow.
Who took goodness,happiness, colours and my soul away.
Just left a shell, even the wind can sway.

Don't change yourself for anyone,
When someone ask you to.
Don't let the hardships define you,
Cause scars are beautiful too.

The scars represents,
The battles you've conquered.
You've made sacrifices,
To make this a better world.

So what??...if you're not a cliché,
Don't hear!!..that you don't deserve.
It's all you could've done,
With the purpose that you serve.

Holding your head up high,
Walk with the pride.
Be the best version of yourself,
Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

Changes are not always bad,
Sometimes they are wise.
Have the faith within yourself,
But also keep an open mind.

Test your limits,
But don't break the boundary.
The bird always come back home,
No matter how far he flee.

Not an ounce of uncertainty,
You've made a beautiful life.
Hold on to it with both hands,
I'll see you on the other side.

I've struggled,to get up in the morning,
Knowing,you won't be in the kitchen preparing the breakfast.
I've struggled,to go to office,
Knowing,you won't be there to say"see you in the evening".
I've struggled, to get my work done.
Knowing,chances of you forgiving me are none.
I've struggled,to keep myself centered.
since, you are everywhere.
I've struggled,to come back home,
Knowing,I'll be there all alone.
I've struggled,to going to bed,
Knowing ,I won't be getting any rest.
I've struggled,to keep your memories down.
Knowing,I'll be lying awake till the dawn.

I like you,
I miss you ,
I want you ,
I need you...

I don't like you,
I hate you,
Don't wanna see you,
I miss you.

I miss you,
I miss you,
I miss you.

Choked throat.        
        Rough voice.
                   Ringing ears.
                            And stinking eyes.

River of thoughts.
         Hazy with the fog.
                 A lump formed in stomach.
                        Burning a hole from inside.

Standing on top of the hill.
        Swaying with the wind.
               Grasping straws to hold on.
                       Couldn't stand still.

Hands shivering.
            Emotions leaking.
                What a tough task it is.
                        To just keep breathing.
                      
An apology.
          Or a sacrifice.  
                 The only love possible.
                         Is with the one with sharp edges and hard eyes.

Your mischievous eyes,
Your breathtaking smile.
Your nerdy analogies,
Every other sentence being an apology.

Your love for stir-fry,
The obession with sci-fi.
Your fleeting crushes on movie stars,
Your favourite dark chocolate bar?.

Your silent observations,
Your lengthy conversations.
Your turquoise reading glasses,
Your passion about comics.

Your unapologetic attitude,
Your unbound energy.
The depth hidden in your innocent package,
Your story outrageous and crazy.

Your untied laces,
Still packed boxes?
Everywhere left your litter,
Your mouth without the filter.

The different sides of your personality,
The stubbornness about your dignity.
The way you refuse any help,
Doing everything by yourself.

And Your sneaky ways to melt any heart.

It was a mirage,
       A hallucination of my mind.
I was consumed by it,
       From out to inside.

Every step,
      An echo of the last.
Every move,
      Reflection from the past.

The dire sense of responsibility,
Not caring about faith or fidelity.

I sit on my bed,
     I think about you for ages.
I think about our shared past,
     The childhood, the youth.
I think about the present,
      Or the lack of it,if I'm being honest.
I think about the isolated despair,
      That we're currently living in.
I think about the non existing future.

And then,
Slowly. ...slower than slowly..
The world around me started to change.
The possibilities of the possibility is the reality in this world.
In here it went exactly according to the plan.
We didn't loose our innocence or the part our souls.
There wasn't any restrictions or boundaries.
There wasn't any walls between us,
    Didn't have to fight for security.

As world proceeded...
Chip by chip...brick by brick..
It all started to fall,
In this alternative reality..
We didn't knew the sadness. ..but we didn't knew the happiness. .
Everything important lost the lustre.
Every lesson forgotten. .
Every scar vanished...
We were now different personalities.
The bond weakens,
Submitting to the true nature.
You weren't the person I loved ...
I wasn't a person to be loved.

Which one was better?... In between two different realities..
That question remained unanswered.

The times I stop myself from trying.
The times I wanted to let fingers fly.
The times I consoled myself after crying.
The times I asked the question "why".

I love you baby!!...with my whole heart.
Wish it was the situation! !...where I could say that.

Holding your hand...I'd pull you down.
Keeping you close....straddling your lap.
Looking into your eyes...no needs for words.
Breathing your scent in...then slowly closing the gap.

You were here...can still feel it.
I closed my eyes...can still taste it.
Never my intention. ..to let you go.
Didn't gave me a choice...you wanted through .

Standing at very point you left.
Knowing you won't be back.
You and me and possibilities. .
Oh ! how I wish....I wish it was.

I know....
    You are totally rooting for my short-comings.
I'm sure....
     You'd love to tell me all about it.
I hope you know...
     There's nothing you can say to surprise me.
I wonder. ..
      If you're aware ...it's impossible to break me.

The pain reaching its limit.
The unpredictability is constant.
The extreme is already here.
You've bared what's there to bare.
You are what you have to be.
You are what you can be.
You are with the battered body.
You are with the stronger soul.
Your mind still a chaos.
But with a sense of peace inside.
A strange combination. ...
      But a fulfill life.
There isn't anything that can be worsen.
There are only and only the chances of improvement.
You've been down...
            You're going up.
You've been crawling...
            You're speeding up.
You've been failed. ...
            Your succeeding.
You've been broken. ..
             You're fighting.
You are as you are in plain sight,
Keep fighting. ....
       Everything will be alright.

Surrounded by the warmth of the loved ones,
Feeling the chills in every bone.
Living in the house of my birth,
Still not being at home.

Knowing ins and outs of this neighbourhood,
Not knowing if it's here that I belong.
Watching familiar faces passing by,
Not sure if I know them at all.

Refusing to stand still,
Giving my everything to the efforts of moving on.
Can't recognise anymore,
What had been my comfort zone.

Every corner tainted,
Every edge is sharp.
Watching my every step,
Couldn't save my heart.
Everything is familiar. ...
     And everything is not.

The success in failure.
The lesson in hurt.
The prey in predator.
The fondness in curt.

The colours in black.
The doors in the back.
The stillness of the time.
The loudness of the night.

The warmth in the ice.
The best in just nice.
The love in the hate.
The average in the great.

The survival in drowning.
The stuck up in moving.
The hesitant smile.
An enemy by your side.

The relief in confession.
The envy in affection.
The edges in perfection.
And the boredom in passion.

It's all about perception.

Let's not give it a name.
Let's just be together.
Let's just live in the moment.
Will worry about it later.

Let's keep it simple.
That'sall I ever want.
Let's forget everything for a moment.
What we can and we can't.

Holding your hand.
Looking in your eyes.
Breathing your scent.
Don't wanna think twice.

This moment,in where we belong.
This love,that's forbidden.
Can't help it.
If this,what we longed.

Let's not give it a tag.
Let's exist in our own.
Let's not worry about the future.
Or past,That has long gone.

Let's keep it pure.
Let's keep it untouched.
Don't have to justify anything.
We know it's worth.

Let's not give it a name.
Let's just be together.
Live a thousand lives in this moment.
Will get our own kind of forever.

The three hours I spend
Asking my mind to shut up about you.
And get on with the sleeping.

As the night descends upon,
The aloofness washes away.
As the world slows down,
And the truth starts to sway.

The lustre and the shine,
Shedding like yesterday's wardrobe.
The flames are siren's call,
The sailors turns to moth.

The pretense,
       The living of the lie.
The hard truth,
       Staring back right into the eyes.
The washed away makeup,
       The scars and spots back to life.
The smile that hurts,
        Returning to that smile.

The face of unknown,
      The body still feel the same.
The warmth you're looking for,
      In the pleasure that aches.

You are me
      And I am you.
Wishing for the moment,
       That I was loving you.

The darkness of the night,
      Everything turns too bright.
A 3 am reality....
                   Turning off the light.

Within the fog of my emotions,
I didn't recognise the one you were going through.
In the race of reaching my dreams,
I couldn't wait to see if you made it through.
The passion I felt,
I just wanted a chance to prove.
It was as if you have to pick,
It's your heart or soul you gotta choose.
Tell the world it was the mind,
My heart was never confused.

Maybe you love me,
           Maybe you don't.
What's there to loose?
           And it's worth a shot.

Want to write you,
           A love poem.
Cause I can't give you,
          A love song.

I'm myself,
          When I'm with you.
It's like I've been waiting,
          For you all along.

I know you say you're fine,
         When you're not.
I can read your eyes.
         I can't be that wrong.

I'm the pen,
         You're the words.
I'm the heart,
        But you beat in my chest.

It's a blind shot,
       That I know.
Just hit the target,
       That's all I hope.

You and me,
        Are a puzzle.
Every piece falls,
        In a specific slot.

We are both weird,
       But each other's kind.
You hold one end,
       I'll keep the other side.

Just wanted,
      To tell you.
That I'm yours,
     Even if you're not mine.

You are right,
      I can be wrong.
You are everything that I want,
      But I gotta be strong.

You say I am your heart,
      Baby you are my soul.
I want to keep a piece of you,
      Cause I can't have you whole.

You can call me anything you want,
     I will take it all.
You are someone to cherish,
    I'm someone just tagging along.

We've been apart,
    You were here all along.
You want me to face it,
    But I am facing it around the clock.

You show emotions,
   In everything you do.
I die a little every time,
   Cause I can't say "me too".

You apologise for my mistake,
   And everything that I did wrong.
You've got a heart of gold,
   You think mine is made of stone.

I can't open it,
    As you are standing at the door.
I can't have you as I want,
    So I don't want you at all.

So you keep caring about me,
    I'll keep pretending that I don't.
Believe me if you can,
    Or baby I will take the blame.

Hold my hands above my head.
Wrap my wings as they starts to spread.
Keep me concealed as I tried to expand.
An illusion so grand.

The walls crumble as they descend.
The floor becoming the roof,
As the roof become the ground.
Tearing apart skin and bones.
Or Maybe awaking the conscience they never had.

Different sets of rules are going to apply.
With my wings wrapped I'm going to fly.
You and me are going to be reborn,
Even before we die.
Going ashore as they watch on stand by.

Only missing you
When the lights are out.

That kinda relation
Have you ever thought about?

One moment ....
       After another.
In this toxic.....
       Chemical reaction.

A constant...
        Tug of war
Is that what...
  You called a solution?

A memory lost...
    On an empty emotion.
A scar left behind...
     A serious need to question.

To hear the unsung...
    On the wavy flow of motion.
Struggle to contain within...
    Go ahead ...have a conversation.

I wanna lost myself into the depth of your eyes,
And never come out.
I wanna race through the city,
Climb the tallest building,
To shout out loud.
I wanna ride the giant ferris wheel,
And let my hairs down.
I wanna join the circus,
And see the world upside down.
I wanna spread my arms and fly,
Till I meet the white cloud.
I wanna dance under the moonlight,
With shooting stars ,
And crickets being only sound.
I wanna stay in your arms,
Till I get put into the ground.

I took a step,
           Away from you.
Something pulled me back.
I told myself,
          I'll move on.
Something always held me back.

Was it my curiosity? ?
     Or your unwillingness to comment? ?
Was it my stupidity? ?
     Or your reasonable points for why we shouldn't?.
Was it because it didn't happened? ?
I feel so hanged up and out my mind.
Or was it a plain simple nothing??
Just Something conjured on own my mind.

For this unknown emotion,
       That I feel for you.
For this unnamed relation,
       We are living in.
For this yearning I feel,
       Everytime I'm around you.
For this strangest bond,
       That I've ever seen.

I wanna know...
            Once just once.

What it feels like,
          To be known as you.
What it sounds like,
          To hear from you.
What it seems like,
          To be held by you.
And it actually means,
          To not to be away from you.

Keep on smiling ..
     If you wish for me to smile.
Keep on moving...
     If you wish for me to walk by.

Keep on reaching...
     Someone will hold you tight.
Keep on pursuing...
      No one can make you hide.

Keep on looking...
     If you wish someone to find.
Keep on loving...
     And I'll meet you on the other side.

I'm a picture ...
     You're my portrait.
I'm abstract. ..
       You're there present.
Live in the moment. ..
         Life's too short to waste on stand by.

Trapped within itself
A silent cry ...
of an abandoned soul.
Hold me upright,
Cause I can't anymore.

With my wings tied tight
I'm learning to fly
All around and above
I'm seeing myself
With your eyes..

The faith I see
The picture you paint
A lone lost star
In search of its moon..

you came
You made me believe
I see.....I smile...
I stop....I sigh...
I creat...I heal...
I learn...I fly...
For the trapped soul...to the one who freed ..
This world with you ...
....straight up good..

A stranger unknown
Make believe the fact
The search came fruitful
Then I met myself.

The limits I see no more...
Maybe it's an illusion...
Maybe it's not.

You came along..
The star ain't alone anymore..
My own little constellation...
I can fly towards horizon.

You made me believe..
I see.....I smile...
I stop....I sigh...
I creat...I heal...
I learn...I fly...
For the trapped soul...to the one who freed ..
This world with you ...
....straight up good.

Been a while
     Since my last write
           You moved me a little again
                  So let's give it another try!.

What a burden
        To uphold
              It's a door
                      We should just close.

On your way
      Back home
           Don't turn back
                  Please don't knock.

Smooth lines
       Expressive eyes
             Innocent wide smile
An honest to god lie.

Fate intertwined
       Within a bracket hide
              Need something exceptional
A dread forming inside.

The want within reach
        Every sense override
               Worded desire hypnotise
Turned euphoric high.

Burned through the night
         Clothed in warm light
                 Pieces falls in places
Shines brighter than starlight.

Twinkling amidst the dark
         Showering in scattered fireflies
               Music in the visual serenity
And the promise to be mine.

Scream loud,
      Let them hear you growling.
Launch yourself high,
     Then get the dice rolling.

Pull yourself together,
      Stand tall.
Do not let yourself anymore,
      Been a while, you've been stalling.

Dream!,
      Do not be afraid.
You will achieve it,
      Just Know..
           what you will do,after achieving.

See the sky,
      Aim to the ground.
You will be up above,
      So start climbing.

It's a game,
     Of hunters and preys.
Been a prey too long,
     Now let's start hunting.

Life is too short,
    To waste on what ifs.
You're worth every risk,
    So start doing.

You have a name,
    Written in the stars.
This is your life,
    So start shining.

Been silent too long,
Been hidden too long.
It's time to be seen,
This is you...
So let them hear you breathing.

Been afraid too long,
Been lost too long.
Now,..the time has come.
And it's time for finding.

I wrote ...I erased...
I refined it....then wrote it again.

The words....of the memories....
Writing the soul....with different stories.

Calmed breathing...finally controlled...
Pulse under normal...then.... I let go.