I've been thinking
I should leave you alone
I mean
I haven't called you in months
But I've bent backwards
Trying not to
I doubt you'd answer
So what's the point
She's what you searched for
But me, I showed you something
I know that I did
I know that you controlled me
But there is love
Where stones hit roses
I pleaded with myself
You couldn't help it
And by any means
I deserved it?
I don't know
I ignored it
Because there is love
Where stones hit roses
Still I wish for you
It was you I wanted
Always & forever
I bet you make her laugh
She does the same for you
You probably even dance with her
And you don't say she's terrible
But does she stretch your legs
When they get tight
Does she massage your back
Through the night
Tickling your arms
Up to your fingertips
Does she whisper to you
The way I once did
I ask these things a lot
Was your love bought?
Probably not
But there is love
Where stones hit roses
She must be a stone too?

It's nuts
How every night repeats
The thoughts of you
Flooding in as I try to rest
Then I can't
You're everywhere at once
You spun my mind
Around your fingers
Missing you is toxic
You'd say, 'Banana's nuts'
And I'd laugh and say 'no'
It's things like that I miss
How you made me feel
Like nothing yet everything
Was so ******* real
You swept me
Off this Earth
So every nights a repeat
The thoughts of you
Flooding in as I try to rest

Why won't you leave?
It's been a year now
stop torturing me
give it up darling
I believe you've moved on
So why won't you leave?
I'm driving the same roads
Seeing the same places
Writing the same words
give it up darling
I thought you were gone
Please won't you leave?
You're holding my frame
Stuck in my brain
Driving me insane
give it up darling
listen to that last song
And just leave me be.

I'm falling in love with you again
Yet, this time in my head
I used to think the real thing was better
But this way I hold it together
You see, you and me
We didn't blend easily
You wanted to hurt me
I wanted your love
I wanted to run
But I never gave up
And you will see
That you left me
When you return one day
Noticing I've spent a decade
Falling in love with you again
Everyday in my head
This is what you've done

She stood at his feet
As he lay there asleep
Wondering where he'd been
She wished to know him
More than he'd shown her
She ranted every waking hour
He brushed her aside
Kept her to hide
He couldn't give her away yet
He was not done with her
She loved him too much
He still had more to **** from her
There was never enough of her
And he watched her go mad
He watched her lose all she had
He watched her cry and then laugh
He watched her scribble for hours
She was mad
He did that to her
He ripped her apart
He took her passion
He took her heart
She tried to leave
Time and again
He'd always weep
And she'd let him in
Why do you stay?
She didn't know
She had felt too much
To let him go

It's silly to me, how I have to write "loved" each time I write for you.
I can't, no,
I won't believe I still love you,
even though I do.

She drew hearts all the time, like she had been waiting for someone to fill them in.