I want to cry so bad
But the tears just well
Why must I be so sad
And why can't you tell

Buzz buzz buzz
Busy bee brain
Buzzing blindingly because
Busy bee brain be insane

Window I stare from everyday
When will you show me a thing
I constantly crave
Show me a life worth living

Curtains in my attic
Growing stale from lack of wind
Falling daintily across the floor
Shall they never move again?

But now I'm growing sick
Of the outside looking in. These
Curtains in my attic
May finally sway again.

Like jiu jitsu my mind is in a tussle
Back and forth
Throw to grab
Submission to tap
Tap tap
My mind is lost
My heart is victorious

Oh feeling in my chest
The irregular drumming
Like a deaf child flailing
Aimlessly
Crying
Why can't I hear?
Why am I cursed?
To never hear the sounds
That separate us from animals
To never feel those goosebumps
When that rhythm is just right
And everything feels like it
Is falling into place

Oh feeling in my chest
I grow tired of your discord
When I close my eyes
Please never beat again