Right now I feel like my head is spinning and my heart is beating too fast.
There's so much chaos around me and there's nothing I can do to stop it.
Slow everything down so my brain can catch up.
But by the point that happens its too late.
Because in the moment I should be helping I cannot it's as though my brain refuses too.
So I'm left feeling helpless and stupid in that moment.
I do what I'm capable of doing hoping it will help.
Then when everything feels normal I'm left with this guilty feeling of not doing enough and feeling as though I'm a truly stupid and worthless excuse for a human.
Giving someone a tissue when they feel stupid when they feel upset feels helpful in the moment,
When I see someone who is clearly upset I panic and ask the most stupid question of all which is are you okay?
Even though its clear to see that was a stupid thing to say and a tissue is no help to someone who is not crying.
So what do I do to help because in this moment I think I've run out of options.