an itch that didn’t go away was one I can’t ignore
this tingling feeling leaving traces on every centimeter that makes my body whole
when I try to ignore it only gets worse as if it wants me to shake this devastating annoyance that circles around my insides
it was as if maggots have found a way to make themselves invisible and start to chew their way from my flesh
all the way into where my circulatory system is located
and when it is done with this draining process it will began to create holes as a way to exit my inner skin and start leaving marks on my outer skin tissue that will torture me with agony
if I were to interfere with it or rather yet scratch it off
it will just do nothing to fix it

so I thought to myself
“maybe I should just rip it off..”
and so I tried to do that but it didn’t work
I used a sharp blade to try and slice the anguish of my skin
but it still left remnants that I can’t bear to look at again
I then try to use a butcher knife but the moment I try to press the steel blade on one of the maggots it chewed onto the steel
until there was nothing left but the handle
the only option I had left was to use fire
and so I did just that
I found a whole jug of gasoline from the garage
splashed it over my body
found a lighter and lit a match
and let the fire commence onto my body
the maggots started to scream with pain
as their unsymmetrical bodies started to melt
during that moment I felt a beautiful euphoria
even though I knew I was burning with the maggots too
but I was delighted that my sudden itch has been lifted away

I didn’t mean to get in your path
that’s the honest truth
you see I was on my way somewhere too
a place to rest for the night and avoid the danger hunting me
but it’s unfortunate I can not tell you my reasons now
since it’s far too late
my mouth is gushing with what runs through my blood vessels
my legs have shattered like twigs
and my precious fur has now been damaged by your thick tires
I know you didn’t mean to do that on purpose and you must have been very confused of why I stopped in your tracks
but theirs an explanation for why
it was your car lights
that extravagant bright light that shines through the deep dark mist
if you where in my position you would understand how pretty they looked from afar and more beautiful up close
they were mesmerizing to me
it felt like the sun was coming down upon me to gaze upon it
as if it has chosen me instead of any other deer to see its glory
but it’s such a shame that I was only able to experience this type of view for only a few minutes until the incident
now my body is beginning to get weaker
through my lenses I can see you get out of the car but I can’t understand what words were coming out of your mouth
suddenly I saw a weird look in your eyes
the same look I had when I saw those lights
my eyelids began to drift away
I hear sounds of footsteps coming my direction
then I heard a very loud sound of something mechanical
then there was something brushing against my antlers aggressively
before I could question what you wanted to do with my antlers
my body surrendered into the afterlife
now my form has turned into a phantom
watching cars pass me in full speed with their lights flashing
knowing they can’t **** what’s already gone