Between every war of mind and heart,
Its my soul that is crushed.

At night she spins eternal circles
Breathless with lungs full of smoke
Soothing her pain with a twirl of her pipe
Since something inside of her broke

Her veins are so carefully marked and bruised
Decorated black, blue, and red
The sharp kiss of a needle is all that she craves
And sometimes she wants to be dead

White clouds of smoke escape her lips
Cold metal explores her skin
Her hands shake for no reason at all
And chemicals want to win

As I peer out this vidual.
Wondering if I'm an individual
Staring through the glass
I see my demons peering back.
In that moment our eyes make contact.

I wake this place up
To bare my woes to the world
letting youngster recover from health
Giving guilt covered in laughter
This job i'd gotten from d onset of time....
Treachery , piracy,poverty and purgatory.

But this day I reawake
Shake my conscience with warm milky drinks
hold my hands by myself with myself
forgiving past and present hurts
reminding my self of the star in the dream
the visions of light....made plain to me

Will I let all this go?
having hangover keepsakes of no worth?
******* grinds and grinding peace?
Playing with hearts that look like flesh...
as the woman in me reminds me
Star-girl you rock .....don't give them a chance
The wounds will heal and the scars you'll forget
Overlook the pains
Push through this bush
The the road so bright is behind the ticket.......

And I didn't do
(no) Everything I could
(oh) But I did do
Everything I shouldn't

And (no) I didn't do
(oh) Everything I should
(no) I couldn't
and even if I could -
I wouldn't.
(I wouldn't).

but maybe (maybe) if I did do
maybe if I'd listen
it would of been different
(oh) but I didn't
(no) and it wasen't
could I ever be forgiven?
(could I could I)
(ever be forgiven) (could I?)

Here is a jumbo sized "*******" to my ******
Three years, countless breakdowns, a broken person, and one friend request later...
Here we are
Social media is deliberate, you adding me was deliberate
Do you know you are a ******?
I did not consent to you on that eerie February night
I will not consent to your friend request today
I ask you; what could you make out of seeing my profile?
You have already violated by insides, you have violated my heart, my mind, my body
Do not seek a response from me, I have myself to take care of
When I saw your name, I was surprised I did not cry
Animalistic and intentional, all I can think is "how dare you"
Actively "add friend", *******
I am at a loss for words
I am incapable of rationalizing this
Who do you think you are?
Stare at my profile picture now,
My eyes are sadder
My smile less pure
My demeanor more awkward
all resulting from the night you were a bandit
the night you stole me
stare at my picture and figure out who I am now
I certainly won't look at yours