Victoria C

Victoria C Apr 2016

Tired

I am just immensely tired
drained and exhausted
I can hardly pull myself around
let alone pull myself together

#alone #tired #done

Victoria C Apr 2016

B.B

I long for a time when you can stand to see me when the sun is still up.

till one day you just left

#love #heartbreak #broken #lol #used

Victoria C Dec 2015

wasting our younger years

"I cant hurt you any more" you said as you left.
and maybe that's the biggest lie you've ever told or the biggest iv'e heard and it was so fake so full of hatred and ignorance.
You didn't love me but I believed you.
I mean, who wouldn't. You called me beautiful and told me when you saw my face the sun and the moon breathed out stars.

I don't feel like this is finished but oh well

#love #heartbreak #sad #heart #tired #lie #done

Victoria C Dec 2015

drabble

without any warning he burst into my life. delicate, detailed yet deranged. I was in awe and he was hung up on the idea that he could make me his. love never last as long as they say. He tore my heart out and smashed it into little pieces and im standing, shaking bloodily in my own pile of broken *****. The remaining sound of the distant beating is barely audible any more. he made me mindless and I grew stoic over the years. damaged, derailed yet dignified, with all the warning I could muster, I burst out of his life.

#love #heart #mess #drabble #100words

Victoria C Dec 2015

what is love?

What is love?
Love is when im shaking because of an unknown
coldness that never leaves, when my bones are rattling at the
thought of your hands on them, when I cant seem to catch my
breath when you're around. You have unintentionally turned
my entire world upside down and every twist we go through is
a knife pushed deeper inside, Baby don't hurt me.
What is love? I cant seem to grasp the concept, can you teach
me? I'm a quick learner. And don't even touch me with your veins
running with adrenaline, and anger and you spin your story and
I fall for your every word. Don't hurt me.
This is your last chance. I think. But you're back,
full speed with a smile like ice and hands colder
and I respect your decision to leave me because who could love a mess but I picked up my own **** pieces, and you walked away.
No more.

what is love
baby don't hurt me
don't hurt me
no more

Dec 2015

Madisen Kuhn

Letters to You

It’s been three and a half months since we last spoke,
really spoke, not just guilty hellos
and scattered half-hearted pleas
And it’s not you, it’s never you
it’s me it’s me it’s me,
but you love
me
you love
me
you love
me

And my head has forgotten what it feels like,
but I know my heart is safe with you

Because you’ve never stopped chasing after me
and I’m tired of looking at my feet, telling myself
I’ll be okay without you, trying to navigate
through a thick forest at night,
pretending I don’t have matches at
my fingertips

You are the only thing
that has ever made me feel truly whole

I’m sorry I’ve kept my eyes shut so tight,
but I’m here now and I love you and I miss you

And I don’t want to keep living
like fragments of a person anymore

I’m Yours.

Dec 2015

Madisen Kuhn

midnight journal

It terrifies me that we only get a limited amount of time with people. And that some people get more time than others who should have. I’m forever envious of those who’ve gotten more time with you than I have. That I may never get to be with you as long as they have. That our time is running out. And I miss you already. And I never want to say goodbye. At first it was slow, late nights in your car and afternoons in my bedroom. But now it feels like it’s happening all at once, like you’re doing a snow angel on my heart and it keeps getting bigger and bigger. Kissing on the sidewalk, holding hands in your coat pocket because I forgot to bring gloves. Wandering around museums and having hard conversations on your couch that make me love you even more; even when the air becomes glass, I can’t stop thinking about how lucky I feel to know you. That there’s no one else like you. My heart aches in your arms and aches when we’re apart. And I just want to be as close to you as possible, for as long as possible, because you are the most beautiful person I’ve ever met, and I love who I am when I’m with you.