Conscious

Conscious Feb 2018

I live in fear, traumatized by the breathtaking love and beautiful memories we once shared together. How many more years will I be haunted by these flashbacks?

Conscious Dec 2017

His Name is Sadness

Deep in me, lies dark sadness, and he is begging to come out.
He shows himself through humor, poetry, or even the occasional pout.
He stays hidden from the world so that you don’t know what he is about.
But over time he's been growing, getting heavier… and the weight is reaching an unbearable amount.
Unfortunately, I want to **** him... but he is important to me… so this is a fact I must take into account.

#sadness #acceptance #****** #kidnapped

Conscious Dec 2017

What am I?

I can create but also destroy,
They call me fate, but I'm sometimes used like a toy.

I am given, but I can not be taken
I undergo fission, and I'm constantly forsaken.

I am simple, but very complex
I tend to *******, when I'm abused for ***.

I have many forms, but only one name
And I can transform, so you're never the same.

I am worshiped, but not a "God"
I'm misunderstood, I find that odd.

Yes I can manipulate, but it's not my intention
I often try to liberate, you don't pay attention.

Although I am young, I am centuries old...
Too often stretched... and strung... truth be told.

I am purest beyond the ego, way high above
I prefer to be incognito, I am simply _

#love

Conscious Dec 2017

- She Is Everywhere -

She's in my head,
She's in my heart.
Her love's been dead,
When does mine start?

I traveled here,
I traveled there,
My greatest fear...
She's everywhere.

I go to sleep,
You're in my dreams.
There we meet,
Or so it seems.

You're with him,
But still with me,
So I will swim,
Until I'm free.

#drowning #love

Conscious Nov 2017

Chapter 25- My Undead Fiancé

I mourn for you,
But you're still alive.
You've been born again undead,
But not revived.

I struggle day to day,
Watching over 2 years of decay,
the death of my once fiance.

#death #x #girlfriend #love

Conscious Nov 2017

Here on Earth

I've been stuck here on Earth suffering, struggling with your death while you are traveling the after world with God who has convinced you he loves you more than I did.

Conscious Nov 2017

Chapter 24- Setting Her Free From Herself

I like to see you, for who you are
The paths you have traveled, you've gotten so far
But its time now, for others to see
Your caged mind, must be set free
Step by step, come out of your shell
Free your mind, from your body's hell