The clouds block the sun, and I have no where else left to run

This city, these people, will never know the real me.

These memories take control of my mind, dating back to that one night where I lost my mind.

My love, my true love has been washed away.

In this town of forgotten dreams and hopes.

Who is to blame but myself, traveling in the dark searching for a way to see her again.

Tears start to fall, blood soaks the floor, as my demons beg for more.

This isn't me, I'm no ******, or at least I wasn't meant to be.

My dear friend owns a motel down the street, but we both have hidden undiscovered secrets.

His smile could lit up New York City, before his doubt pulls at his lost strings.

But I love him anyway, do I?

Or do I just force myself to love to see if I could love another?

Who will ever know the answers to these lingering questions in my mind.

We kiss, and he eats the pain away. Or do I just believe that so I can soon feel empty inside.

Motels and taxi cabs, what's so special about this place anyway?

Let's travel and fly away, until our bones turn to grey and fade away.

Bodies are left to rot at the bottom of the park, buried and locked away.

Take my brain and rip it apart, throw it away in the parking lot.

Behind the motel, the motel is home.

My new resting zone.

I will always hold you near, never letting go until you're ready.

A loyal friend I will always be, and if you ever need a little something more.

I'll place a kiss upon your cheek.

Don't know if you know this but, my loneliness takes a toll on me.

I'm too young to feel this numb, I remind myself on some days.

Days I dream, of being wanted the same as I want someone.

I know that feeling of craving someone, wanting to look at them forever.

However, my insecurities get in my way, my worst pain.

A fire ignited that will never go away.

Will I ever find love? I'm like a traveler lost out in sea.

Searching for an island, to call home.

Do you love me? Do I love me?

Hushed lips, fingers brought to my mouth.

My heart whispers, keep me to yourself.

No one wants to see you anyway.

They are a cowardly mess, but deep inside I know they can be adventurous and brave.

However, they sew my lips tight, never to utter a peep.

My mind is a dark place, however the light is trying to break free.

If I could have a wish, I'd like to meet the people inside my brain.

To see how I think, old memories and mistakes.

Keep them stored and locked away, swallow the key.

Or to see the future and what it brings.

My worst fear, that constantly dawns on me.

Being nothing.

I want to do something, be better than my troubled family.

To be something important, hopefully some day I will find my place.

Right now I'm still sailing. Sky's are a mixture of blue and grey, but who knows what colors they'll be tomorrow.

Just another day.

Another adventure that awaits.

I feel my left brain roll their eyes as my right brain writes and sings a song, dancing and laughing.

My heart trembles and shakes.

I look over and stand by them.

I tap my foot and reach out my hand.

They quiver but study me, as I sway my hips to the beat.

We could dance and become one.

Why separate both our beauty's?

My demons laugh at me, lighting cigarettes and drinking old wine.

I narrow my eyes and focus all my attention on you, I know you're not used to it.

We can both go slow, it'll be alright.

Time will mend is together, making us whole.

You won't always feel alone.

Tears fall from your face, as I pull you into an embrace.

Oh my broken heart, hush my dear.

You are amazing, and someone will love you one day.

Someone who won't ever leave, they'll be yours forever.

Someone you can love, and hold all you want.

My brain and my demons all stare at us breathless.

It's just you and me, nothing can break us apart.