They ask you how you are
you say your fine
but the truth is far from that
you lie to hide
to hide the truth
because you don’t wanna talk
but that’s fine
because not everyone has to  talk
sometimes being left alone and crying is better
and other times talking is better.

As I walk into a room nobody wants to be in
All that can be heard is the sound of sadness
Too scared to see her, who I haven’t seen in years
I walk up to look over her
Already tears have started
She looks so innocent
She looks like she’s sleeping
She looks so cold
And we all wish she would just wake up
everyday I wish she would come back
Just as Jesus Christ was able to
But no
The world is cruel
You are born
Then die
As others start to come
More tears are spilt
After everyone is here
I get one last look
Before the casket is closed
As some calm down
The speeches start
Then a song is played and I start crying again
I try and try to hold them in
To hold them in for everyone
But I can’t
Then as I help carry her over in a truck that’s infamous for death
We take her to her hole in a ground
And say goodbye forever
And now she lays six feet under

I wonder what you’d think of me
I wonder if you think of me
I wonder if you remember  me
I wonder if you want to remember  me
I wonder if you’ve cried over me

I miss you
I want you
I need you
I love you

I wonder if you miss me
I wonder if you want me
I wonder if you need me
I wonder if you love me

I imagine you
I see pictures of you
I wish for you
I beg for you

I wonder if you imagine me
I wonder if you see pictures of me
I wonder if you wish for me
I wonder if you beg for me

I wish you were mine.

Your smile lights up a room
Your laugh is contagious
You make my day
I always look forward to seeing you
Even though you don’t know it
It’s true
And I wish I could talk to you all the time

i sit there and imagine
if anyone would notice
if I was gone

and i imagine
the world without me

i try to think of a reason
to stay
a purpose for me

i sit there and imagine
if anyone would even care
if i was gone

i try to think of a reason
for me to stay alive
if i will ever make an impact

i sit there and imagine
if anyone would help
if i needed it

i try to think of a reason
for life
but it seems I have writers block

i sit there and imagine
if anyone loves me
if anyone would ever

It seems I can’t think
of a reason to stay
next thing I know
The tile is stained red

Once a year I get to see you
Once a year I get to laugh with you
Once a year I get to talk to you
Once a year I get to hang out with you
Once a year I get to eat with you
Once a year I get to smile with you

Then I say goodbye
Then I cry
Then I miss you
Then I frown
Then I wish you were here
Then I cry more


Then it all repeats
Every year
And I long to see you
Every year

A hug
A smile
Even being noticed
Would be nice

Roses are red
Violets are blue
And I love you

As I drown in a pool of tears
I wish for it to get better
I wonder if I should fear
What’s after life
As I remeber what I didn’t get to do
The pool gets bigger
And I still wish
For it to get better
They try to pull me out
But it dosent work
And I’m left to die in my doubts
An angel so beautiful comes
And I think that it’ll save me
But I was so dumb
And it forces me to stay under
The angle of Death
And as I ride over my dead body
I realize there’s somebody
I can finally find
And so I do
And we are once reunited
By death

You’re no good for me

you keep me up at night

You’re no good for me

you make me cry

You’re no good for me

you make me think too much

You’re no good for me

you make my heart stop

You’re no good for me

you get my hopes up

You’re no good for me

I wish I was you
I envy you
Your talent
Your gift
Your amazing voice
Your fame
I wish I was you

So many lights
So many buildings
Very little trees and grass
So much pollution
Nothing is being done
To save us all
And sooner than later
We’re dead
Because we miss treated this beautiful planet
That gives us life
And for that
We **** it
And all other life in it
Like it’s a hobby
Like it’s fun
Like we’re in charge
NO
We aren’t
And I’m sorry future generations
For what we have done
We’ve slowly killed ourselves
With phones televisions
Drugs
I’ve learned this first hand
For I am having consequences
For what other people have done
For what people my age have done
For what other generations before me
Have done
And so I’m truly, from the bottom of my heart, sorry
And I need to make a difference so for anyone who sees this
Please help
Even if it’s picking up trash
Please do it
And save humanity

I wish I was cool
I wish I was popular
I wish I was missed

I wish people wanted me
I wish people cared for me
I wish people liked me

I wish I was loved
I wish I was wanted
I wish I was liked

I wish people thought about me
I wish people knew about me
I wish people talked to me

I wish people knew I existed

You only live once
you only get one chance
to do what scares you
so ask him
take a chance
make the jump
you only get one chance
to do what you believe
to stand up
so use your voice
make it right
you only get one chance
to do what you love
to feel the fun
to create
so do it
you only get one chance
to be yourself
so be you
don’t let anyone say anything else
so be true
you only get one chance
to find them
so take the time
don’t let anything stop you
you have one chance
to do it all
so don’t waste time
tell them you love them
ask them the question
find the one
make what you want
be who you want
and live

I remember your face as if it was yesterday
When really
It was months ago
And you were in a casket

I wish I could’ve hugged you one last time
Knowing
I’d never see you again

The black night sky
Filled with stars
Up so high
A planet is seen from afar

a distant void
engulfing everything
in its reach

When you woke up
You asked for her
You wanted her to be there
And so did we
You told us to call her
But we couldn’t
And all of the pain resurfaced

You make me smile
You make me laugh  
You make me nervous


You bring me joy

I can’t help it
I’m just the way I am
I can’t help it
I’m just the way I am

They call me out
They yell at me
They try to change me
They pick me apart  

But I won’t stop
No I won’t stop
I keep on going
I keep on being me

And I won’t stop
No I won’t ever stop
No I’ll just keep on going
Keep on trying

Because
I can’t help it
It’s  just the way I am
I can’t help it
It’s  just the way I am

Sometimes I wish I could die
End it all
End my misery
Would anyone care?
Then I realize everyone dying around me
So i must have a reason for being alive
Right?

How could I have been so dumb
So stupid
You made me smile
You made me laugh
You lead me on
You ripped me apart
You tore me down
You made me think
That I found someone
That we had mutual liking
But i should gave known
That your too popular
But I should have known

I miss you more than a dog loves it’s bone
I miss you so much you could hear my heart go *** ***, *** ***
I love you so much that when you left
My heart broke

Everytime you played the guitar
The flowers danced
It’s a shame
I didn’t get a chance
To say goodbye

I hope to see you again

My sight gets blurry as I cry
As I remeber the happy days with her
As I remeber the worst
As I remeber the most worrisome
As I remeber the pain
As I remeber the arguments
As I remeber her turning left instead of right
As I remeber her go down the wrong road
As I remeber the time we spent
All I wish is for her be six feet above instead of below
My sight gets blurry with tears as I cry and remember her

People discriminate against their own species
People discriminate gays
People discriminate lesbians
People discriminate bisexuals
People discriminate transgenders
People discriminate against blacks
People discriminate against whites
People discriminate against themselves
Even though we’re all human

I will be black not blue

I will be filled with trash

I will be burnt and layers of ashes

Who are we
We are the sky you ****
The oceans that you ****
And the plants that you ****
And we’re not happy
And so we beg and beg you
Please save us before it’s too late
Please save us before we die
In silence

No one ever asks
Are YOU ok
And when they do
I put on a mask
I hide my true feelings
To make them happy
To make it go away
They don’t see through it

They complain about their problems
They think they have it bad
But they don’t know true pain
They don’t understand
They don’t know how good they have it
They don’t know the pain they cause

They don’t know true sadness
They don’t know true pain

I put on a mask
I hide true self
I hide my flaws
I try to be perfect
I try to be average
I try to be like everyone else

I have no talents
I can’t do anything
I have no talents

I hear everyone getting compliments
I hear how everyone has it perfect
I act like I have it perfect
But they don’t see the mask I’m wearing

I don’t complain about how bad I have it
I just hide
I hide my pain
I hide my true self
I hide my flaws

I don’t have fun
I don’t have fun doing what I love
I can’t do what I love
I’m bad at everything

I wait for another like me
While I watch others with someone like them

I wait for me person to come
I wait for my “true love”
While I watch everyone else
With their love

I put on a mask
Acting like I’m happy
Acting like everyone else
Acting like I don’t hear them talking about me
Acting like their comment don’t hurt
Acting happy

While everyone else has it perfect
True happiness
What does that mean
Will I ever have it
Or will I just always wear a mask

I wear it to hide myself
To make everyone happy
Because they won’t worry about me
But why would they
  


•happiness•



<sadness>



They just dont understand my pain.

Thousands of miles away
And finally
I may get to see you again

Thousands of miles away
And finally
I may get to hug you again

Thousands of miles away
And finally
I may get to talk to you again

Thousands of miles away
And finally
I may get to laugh with you again


Finally

I wish I could see her face
I wish I could hug her
I wish I could talk to her
I wish I could hear her voice
I wish I could see her eyes
I wish I could spend time with her

i step in the car and instantly something feels off
he tells me therapy is canceled
i calmly say ok
i think what happened
does he have cancer again, has someone died
we come home and she’s pacing
she hugs my with tears in her eyes
brother comes home
and that’s when she tells us
your sisters gone

Did she ever love me
Ever
I thought she did
We laughed together
I looked up to her
I loved her
But
Did she love me
Ever
I assumed she did
We played together
We had a connection
But
Did she ever love me
Ever
Even a bit
Even the smallest
I’ll never know

Lies are so easy to think of
they are so easy to believe
sometimes you want to believe them
lying is wrong
right?
but people lie all the time
they lie to protect
to protect themselves from the truth
from reality
lie to not get yelled at

they lie to protect others from
the truth
from reality
and so they don’t hurt someone
lying is good
right?

people lie all the time
to run from reality
to destroy people
to **** people
to tear people apart
to get what they want
to make friends
for fun

lying is
what is it
good and bad
right?

she danced to her song every night before bed
we played everyday together
we laughed together
hugged each other
then one day
when we tried to stick together
the judge denied it
and she wasn’t my sister any longer
one day they came
to take her
and i tried to stop it but i didn’t know what was happening
i was so young
and so sad
and they took her from us
i cried on the stairs
whishing
whishing she could stay
And now i have a mission
to one day find her
and stay with her
forever
and never let her go

every time i think of her
it hurts
i love her so much
i long the day i find her
and hope it comes soon

I miss you
I miss your smile
I miss your laughter
I miss your jokes
I miss you

I miss you
I miss your obsession with pll
I miss your obsession with Grayson
I miss your obsession with the kardasims
I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

You saved me
You kept me close
You raised me
You took me in
You feed me
You were there for me
You gave me a family
You gave me life
You helped me with school
You made me who I am today

You are my savior