I hear your heavy footsteps stumbling across the floor again
You've got a can in one hand and a bottle of gin
Your clothes are wrinkled and your hair is a mess
Your eyes are bright red and so ******* lifeless
I would try to help you along
But I've learn from the past that it would be terribly wrong
You'd just push me away and say you're okay
And that I need to worry about how my life is today

Father father for I have sinned- I am not enough for you
Not worthy of your love, or to be anywhere close or near you
I've try to be a doll of a daughter, I've try to sew my lips
I've tried to be the child you want and read from all the scrips
But father father can't you see? The only one you have is me.

When you're mad I can feel the heat
You cuss as storm that can't be beat
Your words are knives and I'm your board
You cut so deep like it's a reward
Because of you my mind is hell
Because of you my confidence fell
One day you'll get what you deserve

Father father for I have sinned- I am not enough for you
Not worthy of your love, or to be anywhere close or near you
I've try to be a doll of a daughter, I've try to sew my lips
I've tried to be the child you want and read from all the scrips
But father father can't you see? The only one you have is me.

This is it, I've come to an ending
I'm sick of your voice and I am done pretending
You ungrateful soul I hope you crash
Maybe then you'll realize my wish at last
How hard is it to do your job
Without drinking and promise breaking?
You've broken my trust by the choices you're making.

Father father for I have sinned- is that what you want me to say?
Your screams make me apologize when things don't go your way.
Im so very sorry when I disappoint you
But father father you're the only one to look up to.

There's blood on the bathtub floor again
My parents would be ashamed
It's the voices who call the shots
But my mind is always blamed
Some days I think that I might win
But then I find myself, at it again
With a hard grip and a faking smile
I close my eyes while my thoughts go wild

Tell me when the sunrise turned to darkness
Tell me when my smile started to fade
When did my eyes become so lifeless
Why do I wish to get away?
The silence is deafening
They're whispering my name
To forget one problem, is to add another pain

Mother, father, aren't you proud of me?
I made my own art, can't you see?
With the lovely redness as I bleed,
I slit my throat with sanity.

They say they want me six feet under
And sometimes I want it as well
But after all my sins, oh, I'll just end up in hell

Tell me when the sunrise turned to darkness
Tell me when my smile started to fade
When did my eyes become so lifeless
Why do I wish to get away?
The silence is deafening
They're whispering my name
To forget one problem, is to add another pain

My breathing is shallow, the walls are too thin
Inside I'm screaming, I think they might win
My vision is blurry, my heart rate is slow
No therapy can help me, I think I'm letting go

To forget one problem, is to add another pain
To forget one problem, is to add another pain
But nobody said it would end up this way

now the bathroom tile is stained,
I think I'm going insane. The lights are dimming as I watch the colors fade

But darling don't write your goodbyes
And don't count your scars
You don't have to follow what's written in the stars
Don't fall to the ground, don't let the ship sink
You might not see it now
But you're stronger than you think.

You say you're not worth it all
You say you're not worth caring for
Help me see what you see, would it be diamonds or debris?
If I were to live inside your bones, would I be strong or broken? Thoughtful or carefree?
Help me see what you see, because to me, there is only beauty.

Your mind is a time bomb, getting ready to blow. The seconds are ticking, you don't think anyone knows. The things once said to you are all coming back, the urge is getting stronger and your thoughts are becoming black. Just listen to me as I say with no doubt, that you can win this, stop thinking and let it out. Don't listen to the demons, they never let you vent. Thats only because they know what you can prevent.

You say you're good at nothing
You say you can't see yourself old
But what's the point of living when you put your life on hold?
Try to see what I see, you'll experience a whole new world,
Where your eyes are like stars and your smile gives a whirl
Its not a fantasy so believe me that when I say your perfection is the reality

But Your mind is a time bomb, getting ready to blow. The seconds are ticking, you don't think anyone knows. The things once said to you are all coming back, the urge is getting stronger and your thoughts are becoming black. Just listen to me as I say with no doubt, that you can win this, stop thinking and let it out. Don't listen to the demons, they never let you vent. Thats only because they know what you can prevent.

I don't understand when you say how you hate what you see
Because only the rich are the ones who find ugly in beauty
I know the past has left you scars but this is life and you are who you are
You have to accept all of yourself
otherwise there won't be happy times with anyone else
Only you are holding yourself back
Reopen your eyes and wipe it clear,
And give your life one hell of an attack

Because I see only diamonds, no debris. Your bones are strong and thoughtful, not care free. Let me show you what I see because all I see is only beauty.

Never give up, I know the past has left you scars, but this is life and you are who you are

Say what you mean.
Mean what you speak.
Hidden agenda is weak.

If I let myself think
I feel myself begin to sink
For one second
I feel my demons beckon
“Come on down,” They’ll say
“We can play all day
It’s fun down here
And there is no fear.”
If I let them into my mind
The world is left behind
And shrouded over
As the demons take over
If I let myself think
I might just sink
And let the demons come in;
Let them wear me thin
Maybe I’ll kick them out
But then I’m in doubt
Of whether it’s worth it
To fight and leave myself split
Between the good and the bad
Between the happy and the sad
So they might just stay
Until I decide to push them away
And if I let myself think
Further into my demons I’ll sink

Shatter me
As if dropping a spider
Smash my spirit against your wall
Test my will
If you will
Preserve this moment to memory
Before you make your attempt
Remember me as I am
As the storm rolls in
And this test of wills begins
Where you’ll find me here
Under the stars and just beyond your reach
Salted, baked, and thirsty
Be merciless in your verbality
I beg of you my darling
Only your worst will do
The joke is on you my love
I was already broken when we met