Charles T Chitsungo

Sep 2017

Maxine

Drowning

breath, you seem to be running away
mind, you seem to be lost
time, oh time you've never cared
life, you seem to have forgotten me

I'm trapped, trapped in a four corned room
a empty blank walled cell
an abyss of black nothingness
a prison

my limbs are heavy but
my eyes won't close
my double-minded heart is a stone
so I'm sinking and I'm drowning
drowning with my eyes wide open
drowning with an anchor tired to my foot
drowning with my eyes wide open
for all who are wondering what it feels like to drown
well it feels like nothing
it's empty

I want to move but I have forgotten how
I want to scream but my lips are locked shut
so I let myself fall
I let myself drown,
and Maybe I deserve it
infact I know I deserve it
I was living as a shadow of a shadow of myself
not knowing if I was ever going to live beyond this shadow of a person
I've lived like this for so long it seems so endless.

This is my state of mind.

Fight they say but
fighting isn't that easy
but then again no-one ever said it was
And honestly I'm tired of fighting and being strong
why do we fight
why should we fight
why do I fight

if everything I do is worth nothing
If all of it means less than that of the life of a goldfish
then why should I,
tell me why and maybe I'll listen
maybe I'll change
stop me from breaking before I stop breathing
don't let me keep falling
grab my hand and pull me to the surface

but
you never listened, did you?
you never noticed that my heart stopped beating
never saw that I was burning
and I was drowning
And I know it makes no sense to you
but it does to me
I asked and I cried but you still let me fall
You still let me drown

breath you never came back
mind you were never found
time you never waited
life you never remembered me
no one did

even after all I've said I can't really explain to you my pain
I'm waiting for the day when I can
I'll wait to be saved

Sep 2017

Maxine

You and I

We are drop dripping droplets
in blue ocean Waters , fountains
We are beautiful
Like the sunset and the sunrise
Like the you that my heart longs for
Fitting like a jigsaw puzzle
I will be the Eve to ur Adam
Bond strongly like an atom
I will send petals to your roses
And we will flow like the fountain
soar like a Phenix
I will wait for our heart beats to harmonize
Then I will sing to you my Melody
I'll sing to you my song
As our fingers intertwine, soft skin
Our breaths, mere whispers in the wind.
Just you and I.

#love #youandi #together

Charles T Chitsungo Sep 2017

We will meet again

I saw you ,you saw me
Not do l know you,nor do you know me.
Will we meet again?,She asked me
How would l know you should tell me
I used my eyes to tell her
She followed suite to reply me.

Not do l know where she resides
Nor can she tell where resides me.
I can tell tonight you will dream of me.
NO she told me ,but l know you want me,
You cant Wait to see me .
In her head she probably named me.
Maybe the name lee.

Had l mentioned this was all in my mind,
A car almost hit me truly love is blind.
Maybe she was harsh or a little kind.
As their family car took off ,l knew l had lost her forever.
And us meeting was now a never,
But it truly was a moment to savour
For meeting this angel was Gods divine favour.

Charles T Chitsungo Sep 2017

No Vision, No Sight

A man with a dream
Is No different from a kite
For they all lack vision and sight.
For some the sun shines East to West
But mine shines West to East,
So l have no time to waste.

I wasn't born with a Porsche
I never had a Yatch
I Never had a Country house nor a Country Club.
I never wore fancy Silk Blazers,
But my past does not define me and neither do my deeds or words uttered from my mouth.

No one believes in me
I am all l have,
My ambitions are like echos from a cave.
But actions speak louder than words
And my dreams will never fade.
I look to the North
The East
The West
The South
But there is none like me
I am different, l am special, l am like no other that has roamed this earth,
They Try to hold me down with the system,
They secretly doctorate me and use Shackles and Chains to limit me.

But l laugh at them
For my dream is bigger than me, them or any man on this earth.
FOR I AM A MAN WITH A DREAM
And it is my only drive to the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.

Thoughts?

#dreams #reality #faith #believe

Charles T Chitsungo Jul 2017

Her

As I think about the distance,
I start to crave your brilliance.
I dream to see you for an instant.
Without thinking of you my words have no sentence,
And I question my existence.

When I look at the sky,
I think about the time.
If talking to you is a crime, l am willing to do the time.
How fast will it fly?
How much will I try?
Your voice is like a drug
Only made to get me high.

Why are you so unique?
How are you so complete?
You're someone I cannot critique,
As you always bring me relief.

To you, I can write a song
About how your heart's so big
And how my soul you rigged,
How our hearts just clicked.
Unlike my future profession,
Your care I do not question,
Yes you are the person.

A short poem to someone very special

#long #distance

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