Beautiful carnage is anomalous
Yet, we all live in it
Day by day

Brave aviators
Prepared to fly, leaping off
A shattered foundation

Conceptual conspiracies
Originate with hate and distrust
For when something is important
No coincidence, a planned event
No accidents, a coordinated fight
Once something lives in mystery
It will forever be tied to history
As a legacy

No longer fooled
By marketing
By glamour
By hope
All of these and so much more
Tossed to the dogs
Now, I live in reality
...
...
...
How do I go back?

Scorching the planet
For regeneration
Our own dictation, our own fixation
People cling on to their foundations
Rationing common sense
Questioning if they were truly free
Liberation through damnation
Whispering affirmations
Foreshadowing our confirmation
An observation of our disintegration
Will we break the cycle or be a recreation
Of our own artificial salvation?

Showing off what my mind
Recalls with swift
Memory is thrown into hyperactivity
Is it all significant
Or rambling on a wall?
Insanity unspoken

Fake places
Fake races
Fake people
Line up by the steeple
With a fake mindset
Amidst a fake crowd
The only way to get real
Comes at the cost of prestige
How can I live when we go against our identity?
Separated by falsehoods
Nature and humanity
One and the same
Then the laws of reality
Arrive alongside shouts of
"Oh! The humanity!"
Fake it till you make it
Only goes so far
Until we become a flimsy imitation
Of the ones who are authentic

I don’t understand
But at the same time
I see why this happens
To people like me
Issued out by people
Claim to be lawful
Could be the same
As me
Sadly I will never know
Staring at bars
Black as death
Make me wish for it
To come sooner
Redemption?
America has to import that
It’s not grown here
Reparation though
That’s in a surplus
Yearly grown with no GMO’s
Picked fresh
But it’s purpose is to end
By satisfying something else
Am I a vegetable?
Picked fresh for the day
When I bring satisfaction
To “pay” for my crimes
If only they could see
I am more than my mistakes
I am more than indulgent choices
I am doomed
Yet the one to point fingers at
Fled long ago
Now I’m here…
…at least the chair is somewhat comfy.

Plates of glass
My feet lay firm
Possibility of failure
Pushed to the background
In the foreground
Distant places, distant faces
On an island view
My legs, they move
The plates, they shudder
Always the first move
That trips up a recluse
Surfing on shards
Of the courage that remains

Bygone days
Of love and prosperity
Clarity remains
With the absence of charity
No one understands the severity
Irregularity to regularity
Popularity of the singularity
We all possess a similarity:
Absence of solidarity

Crowns and crests disguise
Devils with painted faces
Authority, hate

Truth varies
On who you ask
A constant source
For confusion, not clarity
No wonder no one can agree
Because the lingo used
Only applies to humanity
Who swim forward like manatees
Ignoring the sights and sounds
For routine, dreams
All parts of the scene
Every act has a curtain call
When will the curtain fall?

Holidays
A form of tradition and celebration
Where the meaning it once had
Has been slandered
Trace back the origin all we want
We can never replicate the essence
Reformation is required
How can we give thanks for giving if we give nothing?

People in power
Will want more power
For they are afraid
Of losing all their power.

Rolling sunlight waves
Drifting toward the coast, me
Stay, I will return

Skyline's colors
Constantly changing
Blue and grey
Orange and red
Yet it is still the same
But I wonder if when
Things fall down
The sky is weeping
Or just maybe
It is sharing something
To help somebody

The internet, what a glorious invention
Used in part, to do:
Research
Science
Playful activities
Engage in social discourse
Send threats
Wish hateful things
Generate chaos
Conduct illicit business
Anonymous discrimination
Videos of disintegration
All, in the comfort of home
It has come this far
Perhaps, it has come too far

Inadequate quality
Leads to faults
If only the mind was treated
Like a factory line
Then blind disregard
Would lead to opened eyes

How long will it take
For straying from the mainstream
To cause a downpour?
Rivaling a revelry
Turning from inspiration
A greater nation
Built from breaking tradition
Just to be put back in cages
Part of a group
To compensate
For being alone
Today, punk is popular
Tomorrow, pop is putrid
We are moving along
Just to come back home

Brightened sky, sunrise
Ending the start, beginning
A new end, rising

Lost our heart
Lost our spark
What we lose today
Resides in the dark

When I was a boy
I wanted to be a cowboy
Holding fate in my hands
Alongside a revolver
Filled with instruments of destruction
But now, I am no longer a boy
For the only way to be a cowboy
Is to be a boy
And never grow up.

Sun's explosion
Earth's implosion
Countdown timer
Paints a grim reminder
As the cost rises
The tide follows
Burnt out from life
Burnt by the sky
Connection, regression
Isolation's new weapon
Dying young in the past
Living old in the future
One person deciding lives
One hundred needed to suture

Broken, battered
Split, shattered
I don't feel like I'm here
I'm not even there, so, where?
All in our own world
Foundation of isolation
Decayed and decadent
Holding onto the remnants
Life is a cycle
My conscious is a rival
I don't want to live through survival
I'm barely living
I ring the door to sound my arrival
I need a revival
One arm pulls, one arm pushes
I have fallen for my own excuses

Another day left to waste
Lying in wait
Purpose begins to fade
I know it is a fake
When will the ones bound by the heart
Leave my embrace?
Trapped in my headspace
No room for pace, it is all a chase
Tracing the space into the outline of a face
Long erased, out of place
Another day of being replaced
Sinking into disgrace
A life defaced

I'll get a life
Where can I find one?
I've chased a dream spun by folly
Fate is not cruel, it is my own psychology
A soul cannot be satisfied by numbers
For those at the summit
Jump off to the base
Peak to perish, garish to cherish
Consecutively nightmarish
What face do I perceive?
Is this really me?
Caught up in the feckless and reckless
Ignoring all the life
I have wasted over time
Was my time truly mine?
Or am I a slave to bloodlines and deadlines?

Youth + Tragedy = Phobia
Phobia - Youth= Tragedy

Living with no fear...
Hardly a life that they have lived
Have they lived?
What separates us from the unliving?

Arrows flung by the youth
War commanded by the ancient
Hey, get up
We have more to conquer
Hey, get up
We have more to fire
Hey, get up!
We have more of you to spare!
But you will never command my soul

Catch and release
As I fish, my joy will increase
Catch and release
How exotic, such beauty should be honored
Catch and release
...
Where have the fish gone?
I look down, but the veil of water
Gone.
The beauty?
Gone.
Aquatic graveyard that holds past families
I am only a fisherman
Emphasis on the "man"
For just like the rest
I prayed for a solution
Got back a jest
...
Catch and release
Rest well, be free
My hook will be alone
But now your minds will be at ease
Singing the eternal lullaby:
Catch and release.

Homeless, without a "home"
Yet, the earth is our home
Love to take care of our "homes"
But not our home

The sun shines bright
My eyes shine like copper
The birds sing
But they sound like cries
People sit on the grass
But their faces run dry
Sunglasses and sun
To reject the projection
This world is a beauty
Our world is a beast
I would go outside
But my feet are tired of falsity

Skillfully
Looks are lovelier
With dazzling humanity

I've returned home
Yet it feels so lone
Tonight it feels desolate, alienation
But it always felt safe, secluded, selective
Have I changed too much?
Have I changed just a little?
Has my nostalgia been convicted, begging for an acquittal?
My mind is stuck, my heart is struck
Rabbits chased each other, running for hours
I want to run with the rabbits, but, for how far?
Maybe they grew, beyond me and you
I want to grow, but my home is no more
Being independent is not a life that's splendid
Why should I grow if it just means I'll be alone?

Seeking authenticity
But now the counterfeit
Becomes our best fit
Outlasting all the victims
Of false love, false futures
Deterrents do discourage
Blocking barricades
Hindering the growth
We thought was right
Until we were wrong
Powerful communication
Top tyranny, bottom bureaucracy
The substitute remains the same
But no one will ever know

Shoulder to shoulder
Cracking under pressure
Looking for our treasure
Moving boulders
Seeking answers
Age makes us older
Life's enhancer
Until the romancer
Becomes a cancer
No surrender for our defenders
To pretender, to offender
Splendor so tender
Mender to spender
Shoulder to shoulder
Empowered cowards

Poles of greenery
Strike toward the sky
Without them, I'd choke
In the ashes of an uncaring community
It grows on its own
Neither perfect nor fully grown
No need for a shave, forget about fashion
Towering above the world we made
I question:
Why does a tree make a human look enslaved?

Intense enjoyment
Blocks out reality
After years of such
Here we are now.

Redwater
Unknown origin
Plentiful
Yet I cannot make heads or tails
As to one fact beyond logical boundary...
Why is it in the underground?
Amongst the liquid form
An object
Collides into my grey untied shoes
A party mask
The fancy name alludes me
Is this item meant to delude?
Or illustrate a solemn truth...

Tread lightly
For surfing on waves
Creates ripples
That far extend
Past a single life

One way, one sole fate
Caterwaul against the fall
Torn down testament

Empathy
In an apathetic world
Covered up with a shirt
Stitched together with pandemonium

In a modern era
Past problems persist
For as long as humanity remains
Our nature will persist
Violence and virtue
Greed and generosity
Paradox of a paradox
With no direction
Creating their world
At an individual's discretion
Wanted, but never desired
Easily discarded
For the sake of gain

You want an heir
All I did was stare
How could you share this?
Why? Where?
Here? Elsewhere?
Another life in the system
Of a beautiful plastic world
So unfair and volatile
Brimming with bile
Swimming in false smiles
How can I stare into the eyes of my heir
Showing my twisted reflection
Devoid of emotion

Uh oh...
Something went wrong
That tends to happen
When writing a love song.

Fading stars
Never go far
Black like tar
Only got enough to buy a beat-up car
[Switch up the beat]
Defeat is no feat
But to you-
Him
Her
And me
We all have our time
In fame
Success
All things that just bring us stress
End it on a good note:
Let’s just hope
That the gates are heavenly
Divine levity
I’m no church boy
So wherever I’ll go-
Enjoy the show

In the sky, ground, space
Is there no more tomorrow?
Embraced waste, distaste

How are you?
Me? Well, have you got a sec?
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Dead or alive
Which one am I?
Do I wanna be dead if all I do is survive?
Apathy, tragedy
Occasional care snuffed by cruelty
Feeding into the silence, violence
Born with flaws and no features
At least with toys
You can return them for a new one
Broken and fixed on the same day
Yet every **** day is a haze
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Trying to fix a human? Architecture.
One false move and the foundation is crumbled
There can be no pleasure if I am not conscious
It is all I am, can there be any lesser?
Pleasure and pain rock throughout my brain
Where is the drain to remove my strain?
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Fixing a disease comes with no ease
Especially when you have no idea what normal means.

Peaceful protest
Sounds good in hypotheticals
Never underestimate
Conflict's role in the human condition
No one notices suffering in silence
But once lives are on the line
Immediate change, half-handed and rushed
Attention increases in relation to tension
It grows as it goes
Just like our dissatisfaction.

Villains
"They grew up to be one"
Such a hypothesis
Screamed from an apothesis
Much like a hero
Change the world
"Yet they save zero!"
Not necessarily
Indistinguishable from each other
Talent
Daring
Caring
Galant
Were once like you
Until the world said:
"No more."
Took away the drive
Not even twenty-five
But all is not encased
In a granite timeline
Everything will be fine
After the trials they faced
Realization flowed through
The tears once shed
Drove them to manifest
Anger's embrace
Villains, I decree
Merely heroes in evolution
So is it safe to say...
We are all one?

I’ve just returned
Fresh from a fight
To save lives
Boots on the ground
Hat surrounding my brain
Blue as the summer sky
Today I feel like
Doing something crazy
Extraordinary
No longer did I want
My life to be
Extra ordinary
I came back into your sight
Seemed like you came around
Blessing thrown from
This side of heaven
I held the hand of my future
Everyday till
The world said no
Not for a problem
Cause they never stop
Until they are all affected
One day we sat down
Tears flowed
Hugs continued like normal
I wish your fate
Wasn’t extra ordinary…
Disease took you away
But I blame no one
Natural cycle
It’s not the destiny you wanted
But it’s one you accepted
So I kneel here
Everyday
Like my morning run
Keeps me awake
Keeps me alive
I miss you my dearest
Remember the words I spoke to you
“Take this heart to the grave.”
Good thing
You gave it back
With the gift of new life
Brown eyes
Tan skin tone
You’d love him
Like I still love you.