All I'd love is some time
To get out of my mind
Denied, every time
Some days it's hard to realize
That the fault is mine
But on an island
You can't signal for help
S.O.S
Stands for Stay Out Saviors
Pray to fix my behavior
If only it didn't go to the bin
Heard, noted
No time to waste
On such a disgrace
Carried here by time and space
Outpaced in every field
Math
Science
English
I get by
But never seized it
Grasping at concepts outdated and complex
Deep in the complex, no help for me
Too stubborn to ask
Well then, how did I pass?
For once
Let's see if I can stand at my apex
No need for respect
Fly from me, I'll stay buried in the projects.

Villains
"They grew up to be one"
Such a hypothesis
Screamed from an apothesis
Much like a hero
Change the world
"Yet they save zero!"
Not necessarily
Indistinguishable from each other
Talent
Daring
Caring
Galant
Were once like you
Until the world said:
"No more."
Took away the drive
Not even twenty-five
But all is not encased
In a granite timeline
Everything will be fine
After the trials they faced
Realization flowed through
The tears once shed
Drove them to manifest
Anger's embrace
Villains, I decree
Merely heroes in evolution
So is it safe to say...
We are all one?

Peaceful protest
Sounds good in hypotheticals
Never underestimate
Conflict's role in the human condition
No one notices suffering in silence
But once lives are on the line
Immediate change, half-handed and rushed
Attention increases in relation to tension
It grows as it goes
Just like our dissatisfaction.

Control and coldness
Sliding scales
Twisted reflections
Balance is needed
But all we offer is extremes
One or the other
All it does is smother
How far we have come
Tells how far we have left
Independence
Turns our hearts insulated
Blocking and dodging
What matters most
By killing hope

Mind made out of the horizon
Both sides harmonize
Always agree to decide
Act like a bipartisan
Yet the fact engraved into my cries:
I'm a falsified artisan
Torn up on both sides!

Moving
Stepping forward
Onto glass shards
Opening wounds
That never scar
Progress
Such a funny word
For self-fulfillment
No matter the path
No matter the shoes
They are my feet
They are my destiny
But why on all of the roads
Does the glass show up?
Why must you poke more holes...

Left to right
Side to side
Scales balance the rising tides
Humanity
Side to side, extreme beliefs
With no reason or identity
Covering up scars and scratches
Running around, a deafening sound
All to ignore reality
Balance brings brilliance
But we sell disharmony
When we sleep, when we breathe
We will ignore certainty

Intuition
Superstition
Reflecting on rivers
Twisted by moonlight
Illusions and tricks
Among the sticks
Clarity, duality
Pieces of a mystery
The lightest stars
Cast the deepest shadows
Deception remains wrong
But it sells in bulk
En masse, selling masks
Blinded by reflections

On that final day
What did your promise mean?
You said, don't worry
We will meet again
But, the more time passes
The further you go
Why must my friends go so far?
Why must my heart be so large?
You were my world
But I was never yours
Was it a shock for me?
Not really, not anymore

If we were born
To exist in this world
Why are we not comfortable?
Constantly escaping
Into fabricated fantasies

Skyscrapers
Towering above our heads
Reaching out to the sky
Trying to touch the sun
As the ones below
Live knowing they cannot

Hubris wrecks buildings
So one day, they will fall
For none can scrape the sky
Without breaking their foundation

Poor? Too lazy.
Rich? Too selfish.
Stable? Too adverse.
We cannot come together
Kumbaya?
Not with humanity's perpetual
Coup d'état

What's in it?
Should be asking
What was used to make it?

Your smile
Teeth clenched with no joy
Coping, hoping for a boy
Not once or twice, third's the time
One boy, one world
Beautiful horizons
Strength gets wizened
I look back, and I get the message
Receiving pain in vain
Hollow sorrow
Fear of what is near
You see smiles
I see venom behind bones
Never turn back
Knives get thrown
I knew I was hurt
Now it's ingrained, deranged, unchanged

Homeless rates
Mental illness fates
Antidepressant suppressants
Addiction rate higher than eleven
Soaring to the sky
Crashing down out of heaven
Lower than the depths of black unemployment
Look around, look down, hear that sound?
That's our longevity
Giving in to obscenity
Surrendering our identity just for some levity
Now our minds are far away from serenity

You are a myth, unreal
I am the surreal, ethereal
Silk hiding beneath steel
All you know is how to conceal
Disappointment from the ideal
So tell me, how do you really feel?
As the wheel of fate
Turns to your last repeal

Hard times
Put your life in perspective
Check out the specs
Never earned your respect
What else did I expect?

The destruction that you can't predict
Times that make us sick
No time
For cleaning up the "ick"
One quick clean
Every day of the week
Protect the meek
Sickness attacks them
Happens forevermore

Maybe there's something
In disguise
Blessings don't come cheap
Devilry is inexpensive
Easier to stab another
Then to comfort a brother

Good things
Seem bad at first
What if all good things
Come with their own curse?

"𝘠-𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘪𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮?"
Fire
Otherworldly torment
Animal violence
Skirmishes of death
"No, they did it of their own accord."

Societal evolution
Should simplify scenarios
Yet in our modern times
Which rapidly change
Things only got convoluted

Of the life we lost
The dead, the dying, the diseased
Forgotten by us
Just to make ourselves come home
Trying to reconcile
When our hands still shake
When our walls stand firm
Tell me, will we ever be connected?
Even beyond this world
How much have we catered to ourselves?
Twisting and crashing into life
Only for one day
It breaks or creates a future
But right now
I am too blind to see
A future made from disconnection

My heart feels dissonant
Cognition is not innocent
Dissent, can no longer repent
Words are fluff that fills in actions
But my motives are repressed, under duress
Mediator between mind and soul
Why can I not dig out of this hole?
Maybe my goal comes with no flow
For a lack of growth fuels slack and ropes
Binded in tightness, blinded by brightness
Intuition guides, reason lags behind

Praying for heaven
Cause you live in hell
Life is cyclical, one step until purgatory
Cynical but real
No ideals left to heal
For our love remains blocked
By artificial stopgaps
With no intersection
I can muse on the use of our ruse
For that is all I can do

We comprehend you're here to assist
But the risk
Foreign boy on familiar land
Such a combo doesn't bode well
Your presence does not outweigh the value of our lives
Apologizes
Hear us well:
Leave before the hounds sniff you out
Unless you'd prefer
A body left in a blood drought.

If everything is subjective
Why do we argue
When none of us right?

Want vs. have
I want to do this
So I go to chose it
But when I have to do this
It makes me lose it
Freedom never freed him
Why even pretend?
Our life ends once we fend
Individuality turned to superficiality
Fighting for life, common mentality
Why is it easier to die under lax legality?
Wanting to have a choice
No matter the side
Choice is never supplied

Clarity
I'd like my daily dose
Yet when my lens is clear
Something comes along
Dirt
Scratches
Mucked up perspective
How long can I keep it clean?

Faster innovation
Leaves more left behind
How long until the future
Leaves me?

21st century
Careers turn to fears
Reliance on tears, submission to beers
Acknowledging the power
Of powerlessness, cower wildflower
Your dreams rise high
Just to fall so low, tongue-tied by demise
Failing at every session
Ingestion of aggression
Here's my confession:
Depression and compression
Feeling possessed, feeling repressed
If I ask too many questions
Then, welcome to the penitentiary

Your struggles aren't invalid
Conflicts aren't pointless
Yet in my eyes
I will surpass you
Clash of ideology
Both of us mean well
In the walk of life
Wanna get out running
No time to saunter
When the gap between us
Binds us down

Picked up the phone
Just to call you
...
Why?
Even a lock has transparency.

Wish there were times
Where we talked about real things
Not about bed covers
Or if we had a hypothetical brother
Should be asking about
Why we think in black and white
How do we sleep at night?
Why must we wake up and fight?
All those other things?
Distracting the masses from our galactic plight.

Two sides
Seeking a way
To save themselves
In a world
With borrowed time

In a world full of noise
The only sound that retains my attention
Is your voice.
Removes all the tension
Once there was silence
In a darkened hole
Secretaries that go for strolls
Tired of the paper
Driven to violence
National caper
But
Everything is alright
Just fine
For I cast the line
Into the deep blue, reflecting the sunlight
Not what I envisioned, a storyline
No more need for a hotline
Chipped at life, I've found the goldmine
Everything will be fine
You were the sign.

Someone must be tossed below
For others to be
On top of the world

School bell's siren call
Here they yell, teacher's care
So why can't you?

Peace and serenity
Forever a dream
With no behind-the-scenes
Making of a fake screen
Turning me green
At least the frogs know
When it's time to croak
Serenity
is
Obscenity

What was good
Now turns bad
Time ticks forward
Always comes back
Forward it rocks
Backwards it crashes
Skin is showing
Clothes are closing
Ideal portrayals
Revealing realistic fails
Physical health
Mental wealth
Culture war
Financial repression
Change for progression
Change for regression
Change to compression
The cracks are showing
Yet life keeps going
Seeds are sowing
But no water is flowing

Bottomless
Open for all
When it calls out
I want to jump in...
All that'll await
Is the ending
Of my story

I hope for the day
We stop praying toward optimism
Expecting the best
While denying the rest
We all know how to hope
But, what about living?

Offering no chance for stability
Puppetered by the hands of nobility
Ceasing the acts that made us deceased
Oh, such a joyous thing
Blowing out candles
Just to keep our own
Such is the way back home
We are not admirable
Instead, we are just a fallacy

We never evolved.

All I ever wanted was to be me
As I get older, the past gets foggy
Who I was and who I will be
Intertwine into a twisted philosophy
What am I?
When will I be me?
The world offers answers
But only in extremes
Staring deep into the dark
Sanity on a string
Always asking what I will bring
The bell always rings
Never brings peace
I would say I have a future
But who will I be?

Oh by God
I miss her
She's not gone far
Not yet hopped in death's car
Yet me heart drifts on wishin'
For a day with no time to end
No need to look at the hours
When you're all that
I
have
got.

If I became
The king of the universe
Would I care for those who reside in it?
All power, all in my palm
Able to reset everything, to dust...
...
If I had a family
Would I care for them?
If I had a son...
Would I want him to live?
If I had a loved one...
Would I care for their single ounce of affection?
If I had anyone...
Would they care about me?
Can I have a typical life...
If I know the reality of it?

Stars, planets, asteroids, comets
All know their place
So, why am I the stranger...
Amidst a crowd of friendly faces?

My name is the one
That raises you from
Sleep
Sorrow
Resurrects the past
With a blast
For missing me
Such an unsightly task
Ask for to bask
In glory
You need to
Forget my name.

Teeth like knives
Eyes blood red
Hands adorned with claws
Feet fast to hunt
A beast, a monster
Self-made moniker
Looking in glass reflections
Was it always like this...?
Am I the victim or just another monster?

Supernova came
Never limited darkness
To blazing spotlight

Idolizing a person
Will not heal a fractured heart
It will only remain
Broken, unrefined

I can't find hate in my heart
For those who pursue crime
"Such a taboo"
Not when it's the only thing you can do
I mean, if we were all:
Forgotten
Troubled
Juvenile
Downright suicidal
Hopeless
Speechless
Broken
Ruined by a system
Misused and abused
Constantly confused by being used
Not excused
From a situation you never fused-
Yet, you are devoted
Longing for another
Someone to call a brother
Who looks out for you and doesn't smother
In this mad world...
Wouldn't you?

Standing on a cloud of smoke
Orange light floods the sky
Around me is nothing
But something...
Something is still here
An owl
Tall as I
He has a name
But I can’t remember
Playing was all he cared for
It was what he lived for
I waved to him
But he did not wave
Instead I saw
His piercing eyes
Soften
Suddenly cried
Another light surrounded him
My eyes cried as well
He is gone
Yet from the clouds
Onto my feet
Laid a doll of an owl
I picked it up
Hugged it tight
Placed into my pocket
Carried to the very end
Now today I see
Where my heart landed.