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Mar 2015 FallenAngel93

Holly

She paints a pretty picture
But all of the ink has run red
This picture is of a ****** battle
That is going on inside her head

She paints a pretty picture
Of a girl in a dress and heels
The mirror shows a skeleton
But still she skips another meal

She paints a pretty picture
But nobody has seen it yet
It is of a shiny razor
That makes her sleeves red and wet

She paints a pretty picture
Of an angel in the sky
That didn't see the point of life
And now they all whisper "suicide"

Now I paint a pretty picture
It's all in black and white
Our memories and childhood dreams
Still I wonder why she took her life

Mar 2015 FallenAngel93

when i look at myself

Mar 2015 FallenAngel93

maybe one more day

when i look at myself

when i look at myself i feel......
fat
worthless
ugly
a nobody
unneeded
stupid
i feel like i have no reason to be *here

Mar 2015 FallenAngel93

I Don't Think.

Mar 2015 FallenAngel93

Holly

I Don't Think.

I don't think you see that gaze i give you.
I don't think you see me drool over you.
I don't think you see me stare into your beautiful eyes.
I don't think you see me stare at you cuts, scars.
I don't think you see me wanting to be you.
I don't think you see me wanting to love you.
I don't think you see me helpping you.
I don't think you see me dying over you.

Mar 2015 FallenAngel93

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Mar 2015 FallenAngel93

Holly

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I dont know how to tell you im broken,
Without feeling needy.

I dont know how to open up,
Without feeling judged.

I dont know how to cry,
When my scars feel like acid.

I just need you to see im hurting,
Without me telling you
Because my words are bleeding out
Of my mouth, waiting for you
To stitch me up and make me fine
Although i know thats not your job.
And your better off without me.

I just need you to see me
One last time.

Mar 2015 FallenAngel93

Rope

Mar 2015 FallenAngel93

WickedHope

Rope

I
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v
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f
e
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l
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n
g
s
that
form
thou
ghts,
that
form
words,
that          form
sente                 nces,
that                       form
rope,                         which
ties                               itself
into a                            noose.
Your                              words
are also                    a rope,
that saves me from
drowning.

Sorry if you can't read it.
Kinda.

#suicide #**** #selfharm #save #drown #rope #hanged

Mar 2015 FallenAngel93

Beautiful.

Mar 2015 FallenAngel93

Holly

Beautiful.

You are
                    Beautiful,
In a very subtle
way.
Your eyes shine,
Like they could
Make my day.
I  am
        enchanted
By you.
Who is courted
By few.

You are
                    Unconventionally
Beautiful.

Mar 2015 FallenAngel93

Everybodys Second Choice.

Mar 2015 FallenAngel93

Holly

Everybodys Second Choice.

It ***** always feeling like the
"Second choice"
But i am the sceond choice
For everything though.
Im the second choice for my friends,
My sister, my mother, my cousin, and
You too.
Even though you always tell me im not.
You should stop trying to make me feel
Better,
Because we both know your lying,
Im just going to need to face the facts,
And accept it.

Mar 2015 FallenAngel93

"I Love You"

Mar 2015 FallenAngel93

Holly

"I Love You"

A tear drops down her face
One bye one.
As she thinks about "Her"
While holding that gun.
Images cross her mind,
As she pictures good times.
She cant take it anymore.
So she shoots until she is on the
Floor.
Before she died she wrote a note.
She wanted to say...
I love you all,
But she also said how this is it,
I dont want to live.
I cant bare seeing her with someone else.
I want her but she cant tell.
She ends her note with,
"I love you"
Than leaves everyone without a clue.
She doesnt even know what,
She has done.
She just carries on,
Not knowing she is gone.

Its hard to understand. but this has to different girls in it.