I've been waging a war against hate
How was I to know this would be my fate
Open the doors to heaven’s gate
But more like I’ll be drenched in acid rain
And who the **** am I to complain?
It gives me the drive to make a name
I keep on swinging back
when I hit, I hit like a train
don’t need drugs to stimulate my brain
I've been walking around dragging a ball and chain
And I’d never been the guy that could just shoot to fame
I’m too caught up in my own ways
Arguing with myself for days upon days
I’m just nothing like those Jay’s and Kanye’s

This is my function
Can’t stop this blood rush and
I’ll always come up with something
To knock these trolls back down
Stepping up to the platform now
10 Feet above the ground
I rock these coliseums
I’ll break them down
I’m unstoppable
When my heads up in the clouds

A lot of people thought I lost my confidence
But isn't it a coincidence
that they believe in every word that I say
I know I wouldn't trust me.
if I was someone else.
Just don’t let that secret out
To the people who want to bring me down
And that’s nearly everybody in the crowd
They're trying to drown me out
No, I won’t stand for this
I’m cranking up the volume
Screaming through this microphone
You’ll never take me out
So shut your mouth

This is my function
Can’t stop this blood rush and
I’ll always come up with something
To knock these trolls back down
Stepping up to the platform now
10 Feet above the ground
I rock these coliseums
I’ll break them down
I’m unstoppable
When my heads up in the clouds

©2017 Written By Benji James

there are things i wish i couldn't see;
like my mother crying until she's empty and left staring at the wall
or an animal lying by the side of the road, its life draining as steadily as the cars that pass by

and there are things i wish i couldn't hear;
the sound of my bones breaking,
trying to climb this mountain of attempting to be okay
only to tumble back down
or the deafening silence after asking a question you know the answer to,
but just wasn't prepared for

there are things i wish i couldn't sense

but i saw you
and i remembered all the things i wanted to see;
the type of sunset filled with oranges and yellows and blues and pinks and purples
the type that makes you feel like you're the only one witnessing it
or someone reaching the top of their mountain
knowing that things can only get better from here

and i heard you
and i remembered all the things i wanted to hear;
the sound of rain washing across my roof like white noise
or listening to a song for the first time and suddenly knowing it's my favorite

but you?

the moment i touched you,
i knew you were everything i heard and saw all wrapped up into one

a beautiful mind

why is it
that i feel like crumbling
in a room full of people?
why is it
that i don't see anyone's eyes
flicker like a supernova
when they see me?
why is it that i can build people up
so they can see the sky
go on for miles on end,
but i tear myself down
until i am inside the earth
feeling its breaths in sync
with my own?
i want to feel as bright
and as big as the sun
but i keep caving in on myself
i'm so tired
of looking at myself
and seeing nothing
but sadness buried in my bones
i want existing to stop feeling so heavy
i want to feel alive again
without wondering what the catch is
why is that
so much to ask?

Ode to a Poet(writer)
I know you,
All alone
4am is when you feel most at home.
I feel you,
Blank page, full pen,
I see you,
Looking at a page waiting for a tale to unfold,
Behold!
When it starts, it flows,
I am you,
Hiding away, writing my pain,
Escaping reality,
Day to day,
We are art,
In the way we move,
We are the dreamer's and believer's
Pad and pen in hand til our dreams come true.
C. Tyler

I have so much love to give
But no one finds it as a gift.
I'm cursed to hurt in loneliness,
People only care when I bare my skin.
When I peel it off so they can see within,
They run away into the forest of The Vain.
And my veins ache for the comfort of a blade,
So I can control the pain that everyone gave-
That everyone gives.
Day by day, this is where I live
In the solitude that rejection emits
Look past my skin, look past my curves
Look into my eyes and see that it hurts.

Why can't anyone accept me
Unless I bare everything
Except my thoughts, ideas, and feelings
The whole essence of my being?
I'm just another body,
To be used and then forgotten.

-SLuR