Coldness surrounds me
As I am struck
With the realization
That you're gone

No longer
Will I feel your
Gentle caresses
And soft kisses

All I will feel
From now on
Will be
Sadness
And the bitter cold

And I know
That I will find someone
Someone who will fix this
Fix this stinging cold
But for now
I am freezing

The silky
Yet rough
Gown that covers you
In entirety

Skin
Protection
Life

You're happy
Excited
For what to come
Life is great

But as you age
And your skin grows rougher
You change
And you let people's words
Become sharper

And the people's words
They cut
And slice
Until your skin
Is tattered

You're no longer happy
You're angry
At the world
At the people
At yourself
And your skin

As I drift off
Wordlessly
You
You don't see
You don't know

So I'm stuck
Floating
Lost in time
Swimming
In space

While you
On Earth
Smile
Laugh
Be carefree

Help me
Throw me a rope
Do something
Anything
I'm immobile
But mobile all the same

Be my lifeline
That's all I'm asking
I'm stuck
In a winter wonderland of purple hues
And bright lights

Never have I ever
Imagined missing the blues and greens
Of our lovely, yet fading Earth
But here I am
Floating aimlessly
Missing you

I feel myself disappearing
More and more each day
Yet I'm still here
Attempting to pray

I feel myself disappearing
And I don't know what to do
Should I let it happen?
Should I move?

I feel myself disappearing
And soon it won't matter
Because if it doesn't stop now
I'm going to be tattered

I no longer feel myself disappearing
All is done
Maybe I'm better
Or maybe I'm gone

The things in my wrist
They keep me alive
They fuel me
So I feel alright

The things in my wrist
They belong to me
Not you
Not everybody

But lately
My mind has been hazy
And I forgot about
The things in my wrist

And I attempted
To damage
To ruin
The things in my wrist

Because of me
Because of you
Because of everybody

As we swung on the porch
Like a church bell in the wind
You looked over at me and smiled
It had started to rain

I started to get up
But you pulled me back down
"Watch" is all you said
And you turned your attention
Back to the rain

And so I watched
Begrudgingly
Water started to coat my skin
And I wanted to go in

But as I started to move
Your hand gripped my wrist
"Wait" you say
"Okay"

And so I waited
Ignoring the moist
Water against my skin
And then I saw it

Sky
Wind
Water
...You

I became mesmerized
Not only from your beauty
But the wonderful
Summer rain

I've never been good at poetry
But for some reason
You drove me to it

Being all by myself
Without a friend
Without a soul
I found myself falling

Not for you
I had fallen for you long ago
I was falling deeper into my mind
And I pushed you away

And so I fell
Slowly losing myself
But I didn't care
Because I lost myself
When I lost you