Ang hirap gumawa nang Tula
Kapag ikaw ay masaya. :)

Putting up Big Walls?
Yes! A cage? Yes!
Big walls! A Cage!
I was living, for years.
I was too shy to face those eyes,
too afraid to be judge,
to be unseen,
to be unworthy.
I am Scared.
Scared to do mistakes,
Scared to face a lot of people,
Scared to watch those judgmental acts,
eyes,
voice,
So for years,
I just decided
to stay in my cage.
I am just scared of the world.

It was a lonely night,
Hearing those rain drops at the roof,
As i decided to scroll a facebook page,
"Maria"
Going to her older post,
Older post
Older post
Till I reach this letter of her,
Dear Z,
Here's the line.
I'm drawing this 'cause I badly need one:
To remind me that you'll never be mine,
'Cause I fear that loving someone so much will destroy me.
For me to always remember how you give your time to me but you're texting with her simultaneously.
To mark my words, that I will leave this place, this city where I met you; and
To remember how I pictured you on your wedding day with her,
You couldn't just be happier.
Chasing you,
Maria.
Never I know,
That was an old letter of her
to my boyfriend.

Dear diary.  May 12 . Friday.
"Gettin' up was the first mistake I made today
Maybe if I'd stayed in bed I wouldn't hurt this way
For now I'll have to face the world admit that we're all through
And begin my first day without you."
I wake up today with dry tears and punch of eyebags.
Scrolling my phone.  And here again,  i received a text from him saying "im tired" i cant help but burst tears again.  So i decided to off my social media's. And to be brave to blocked him to avoid bursting my tears again.  Cause i know,  you will never come back again and i cant do anything but to see you walking away.  
Diary,  now,  i have to fixed my things. Cause ill be leaving far away today with a heavy heart.

I.
There's a fear in my eyes when I see you
All tomorrows appear in a blink
Fearing there'd be day when I will awake
And I wouldn't find you near

There are days when the pasts seem to shadow
All the hope that you've gathered for me
But then the darkness fades and then I awake
And I feel love setting us free

Chorus:
And all at once, all fears disappear
Knowing that I have you here
Though lies may come, there's nothing I can't do.
For I see His promise when I look at you."

II.
So I thank you for all of your patience
For loving me even when I explode
Taking all of the pain but nothing else to gain
Just knowing I don't feel alone

Oh I promise that I'll always choose you
I will trust you wherever you lead
And when there are days when you'll feel afraid
I promise I won't walk away

Chorus:
Coz all at once my future is here
It's better than all of my dreams
Though storms may come, there's nothing I can't do
For He keeps His promise, and the promise is you

III.
So I stand here today with a promise
That together we'll run towards love
That I know there are days whether it shines or it rains
Together we'll lift up a praise

And when our time here has ended
And God asks me what I had been through
I would lay at His feet all our victories
And thank Him for giving me you
I'll always thank Him for giving me you

Chorus:
Through battles won, and fears overcome
I found a faithful one
Through highs and lows
You will never be alone
Forever and always
My forever and always
Forever and always
I love you, my home

Last night, as 12 midnight striked, I talked to God about you ans prayed to bless you today, and always.
I know, God knows the best for you, for HE love you that much.
Yes! i love you but God love you even more as much as i do.
I surrendered everything to HIM, to take care of you, guide you and protect you, for i know HE has a great plan for you. According to this verse "Jeremiah 29:11 -  For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." :)
We are not in a good terms, i dont pick up your calls this morning, i keep my distance to you, as i decided for the peacefulness of everybody, but hey ! you teach me too many lessons in life, you help me grow and motivate me to go out of my comfort zone. and now  I wish you  happiness, best life  and success. I hope you have a blast and happy day as another year added on your age.  GOD BLESS.
Happy Birthday BOSS,
I dont forget your special day,i just chose not to greet you but i prayed for you and i allow God to pass by my prayers to Him to You.
Please be Happy,
Love, -Your Master-

Pitong Bilyong Tao
Saan ka ba dito?
bakit ako napunta sa taong
manloloko?

If happy is her,
Im happy for you.

Hindi mo kailangan nang pagmamahal galing sa  iba,
Para makompleto ka,
Para mabuo ang puso mo.
Dahil
Ang kailangan mo
Ang totoong pagmamahal ni Kristo.  
Na hindi nagbabago.  :)

May dahilan ba ang iyong pag lisan?  
O sadyang
Ayaw mo lang akong saktan?

Tandang tanda ko pa, ang mga alaala kung saan una tayong nagkita,
mga panahong una tayong nagkakilala, nagkausap at
nagpalitan nang mga ngiti, ng mga kumikislap na mga mata.