The apple seed went down easy
I thought the bitterness would make me queasy
But it just slid down my gullet
As easy as shooting a bullet
And soon my belly began to grow
A small lump in my abdomen starting to show
Writhing roots ******* me dry
I feel it whispering dreams to grow high
It's branches scratching blue off the sky
while it rustles and grows on my insides
No one seems to notice as leaves burst out of my ears
Thick branches spreading, worsening my fear
I watch in horror as apples spew out of my mouth
Tumbling, fumbling, stumbling south
until with a mighty roar the tree bursts forth
My body, my life, my mind no more
My sarcasm, my creativity, my worth, my self
extracted from apple seeds,
slitting on a shelf

Being awake in the dreary dream
I started to look for the seam
I knew it was there;
It had to be
Yet no zipper appeared
And no thread was left free
Nothing would unravel the dream
The world might be
Panic caught me in the chest
It was blinding, and I forget the rest
I think there was fire, a great blaze of heat
Smoke engulfing me in a wreathe
Coughing and choking
Yet I couldn’t seem to untangle
The seathing wires above my head

The floor beneath my feet began to unravel
Whipping out from under me faster than light can travel
I was suspended in open space
Falling at a rapid pace
I thought I was okay
But here is my price to pay
I fell back into the dark deep
Where all my night mares are kept under lock and key
But the horses don’t just come in the night
They whinny and neigh and constantly fight
Trampling my thought into ****** streams
Then they rip apart at the seams
They poor blood and fear onto me
Ripping apart my body with glee
Then I must climb back to the top
Bloodied hands and body chopped
Just to do it all again

There’s monsters in my heart;
Everyday they threaten
To tear me apart;
But there’s nothing I can do;
The very essence in my body
Beginning to unscrew;
Not sure where it came from;
Can’t even remember things I should,
The memories won’t come.
So into the swallowing darkness
I wallow,
Knowing, not ever,
Will anyone follow.
I strive for greatness,
But I’m insignificant
To the faithless.
In this world I am feared and hated,
I want to start over;
reform clean-slated;
But I guess it can’t work that way,
Why can’t the world be perfect,
I can never say.
So I fall in deeper,
The darkness in my mind
Growing like an ivy creeper;
Never to see the light again,
Can no longer...play pretend.

Here in my head lies confusion
Every thought holds its intrusion
It makes puzzles out of air
Patterned complications leaving nothing bare
Everything seems a twisted mind game
Murderous and dark and without shame
Maybe that’s all the “real world” will hold
And they expect us to do what we’re told.
They chose fate for us, or so they thought
Maybe they just didn’t expect to be fought
Maybe they thought we’d lay down and die
They didn’t expect us to leap up and fly.
But why did it seem so easy?
Isn’t this supposed to make me feel queasy?
Why instead do I feel so close to nothing
When I sighted down, they thought I was bluffing
Their eyes got wide when they realized I was not
Now they huddle in corners, eyes bloodshot
Now the rest have lives dreary and bleak
I guess they were wrong when they thought I was weak.

Tell me,
Oh pretty flower,
How are your petals soft
Through the boiling rays
How do you stay aloft
While you drown in rains
Tell me,
Where do you hide
When the fall crawls with Death
Where do you abide,
While winter sweeps away life
Tell me,
What do you do
When life itself
Proclaims death on your colors
When ivory is the last you glimpse,
Tell me,
Tell me,
Tell me...

Black as night
Light as day
Midnight to love
Hope to pray

What is this world?
A child might ask
For living is hard;
A mighty task.

Eyes shining with hope
The child waits
For a mother can’t tell
What she hates

She just hugs
And pats his head
As his eyes close
And he lay still on the bed.

Her tears lay
By his side
For he reached
Where the shadows hide.