What do I do
You're not here anymore
My rock is gone
I no longer hear your laugh anymore
Instead, I hear tears hitting the floor
I can't hold you in my arms
But now you're in the stars

Goodbye is painful, but it must be said
But I know one day I'll see you again
My love and my greatest friend

This is Me

I have been knocked down and passed over so many times
It's hard to figure out if I should keep fighting, or ignore it all and more on
People have told me that I'm not good enough
That I will never be enough
That I will fail
That I will never achieve my dreams

But they are wrong

I'm not going to give up
I'm not going to give in
I'm not going to let them win
I'm not going to let them tell me that I'm not good enough

I'm going to decide that
ME
NOT Them

I'm not going to let them tell me my dreams will fail
Maybe they feel that way because they don't dream big enough

This is MY life
I will live it by MY rule
And with every breath I take, I will fight

I will fight for a better tomorrow
I will fight for a better today
I will fight for who I am
I will fight for my dreams
I will fight to keep going

Just because I have been knocked down countless times, doesn't mean I have given up
It means I will have the strength to get up again and move on

My failure does not define me
My past does not define me
The only person who can define me, is me

Only I can make the choices that I make
Only I can learn from my past so I can make a better future for myself
Only I can decide whether or not I'm worthy
Only I can decide whether or not my dreams will fail
Only I can decide whether or not this is all worth it

After all
This is MY life
And I REFUSE to let any other people live it for me

Just so you know
I will always be here
A text
A call
And I’ll be there

Until one day
I finally say goodbye

Again and again
Out of control
Don’t know why

Emotions run wild
No remorse
No regret
Saying things you’ll never forget

Remember all those nights
The big arguments over small things
The good days and the bad
The smiles and the tears
The “hi” and then “goodbye”
The “*******” and “I love you too”

Remember that night months ago
I poured my heart out to you
Tears running down my face
Begging you to say “I love you, it’s going to be okay”
Instead, you said no

I broke you
You broke me
We shattered each other

Now it’s time to say goodbye

It comes when you least expect it
The pain
The hurt
The sorrow

You can’t breathe
Can’t think straight
Can’t even fight how you feel

All you feel is pain
All you feel is hurt
All you feel is alone

Surrounded by people
Surrounded by laughter
Surrounded by joy

You feel nothing

No happiness
No joy
Nothing

All you can think of is the river
The river flowing red
Your grip
Your hurt
Your sorrow

It always happens when you least expect it

It’s broken
My heart
It was yours from day one
Now it feels ripped apart
Torn to pieces
Thrown aside
Waiting for someone who will try to fix it

They can try
But it will never be the same
It’ll be mended, but never whole
They can try to get me to feel better
But you’re the only one who can do that

You made me smile in ways no one else could
Laugh even when I didn’t want to
And love, even when me heart was cold as ice

You melted my frozen heart
Even when I was sure no one could
But you could
And you did

So why?
Why did you play with my emotions?
Why do you get mad when we don’t see eye to eye?

Why did I give you my heart?

Did you just want something to play with?
Someone you could mess with and then leave?

Did I mean anything to you?
Anything at all?

Or was I just a phase
Something just to help you pass the time until something better came along?

I guess so
I should’ve known better
I refused to see the signs

I wanted it to be you
I had hoped it would be you
But I was wrong about you.....again

I guess I’ll never learn
My heart will stay in pieces
Until you decide to come and fix it the way only you can

Because you were the one who broke me in the first place