They say the broken
Are the most evolved
They are the strongest
I've been broken
Beyond hopeless
Fights within me
Possessed
Oppressed by the demons
In me
How I'm i the strongest
When I'm always on
Crutches
I'm upset
I'm repressed
I'm lost
I'm a host
Of so many mes
Stuck in a closet
I've been forset
My solemn slowly
Turning into a surfeit
I want to collapse, faint
I at times yearn death
Memories far away kept
My purpose lacking shape

Akwana Wa Odera ™️
@therealakwana
© 2018

Regret
That feeling you get
After doing something so intense
It's like a hard game of chess
One foul move becomes your downfall
One you'll regret till the day you fall
I pity thy soul
wonder how much it tries to hold
Until my conscience is sold.
So many things we hold so tight
Never knowing when they'll unfold
A regret is like a storm
Hitting you hard
You are left shivering in the cold
Judgements never delay
Exposing you inside out
Leaving you wondering
Why you did it in the first place

Akwana Wa Odera
@therealakwana
© 2018

'I slept, and dreamed that life was beauty;
I woke, and found that life was duty.
Was thy dream then a shadowy lie?
Toil on, sad heart, courageously,
And thou shall find thy dream to be
A noonday light and truth to thee.'

They say i am a man
But i I'm only human
Yes i am a man but
Still
I am only human.
I tell you
I am writhing in pain
My, limbs both shackled in chains,
I thought I'd celebrate
When society furnishes my name
Instead I'm filled with rage
And vengeance in my head
Society tricked me
Now I'm paying my debts
In regrets and pain
Society branded me a stain
A stranger in my own lane
Added to the most wanted
With a bounty on my head
If I'm gone
From their hearts I'll fade
Just a lingering memory
Of a leaf that took long to fall
Or that stench that no longer stales
My name will no longer be called
I'm like that fold that never gets
To be unfold
Just because society tricked me
In to thinking i was fighting for my sake
It's funny and ironical
To swim across the ocean
Only to drown in a lake
Somebody call i need to wake
I've waited for so long
Hoping to hear my wake up call
I'm tired of the empty threats
On my soul
Knowing my fate
Has always been my goal
Amidst a life that sees no
Foul!

Akwana Wa Odera
@therealakwana
© 2018

I met a cousins i hadn't met in years
Changed over time,
I couldn't recognize his clanly features
With a 'hi', long time no see' intro
I played along just to get to know him more
Apparently we hadn't met for nearly
Ten years or so
No wonder i couldn't recognize him
When he called
I think he realized i had no clue
On what conversation we were on
But it wasn't my fault though
Or is it...?
He rarely travels home
Times have really passed
I envy those of us who came first
Taking a trip down memory lane
I miss when i was a kid
Back when i knew all my cousins by name
It's a shame
Right now if asked
I would only manage to name but a handful of them
Then give a bunch of excuses so lame
Of how i have no idea of where some even stay
Times have really changed
I looked around and all i see
Are cut tree stems
I contemplate if it's because
I'm now grown up
Or it's us not playing our card right
If i were to put tabs in how many times
We met chat and laughed
I'll be drunk by now
If my bet went for functions and funerals
Funny how we pretend to care
When we are never even there
I'm told we need a cause to share
We've all gone the wrong way i swear!

Akwana Wa Odera
@therealakwana
© 2018