... and if my tears cried a million oceans
Each would whisper your name
My heart is broken
I will never be the same




❤I love and miss you Mum ❤

Today my life stopped
... yet the world moved on regardless

Oh mere mortal who plays with lives
Asperations of god you try to strive
Deciding on who lives and who dies
Shame on you for what you decide

You may bring life, but you also cause death
As old folks lives decided like russian roulette
But you cover your ***** deed as loved ones are upset
Lives devastated whilst you sleep soundly in bed.

How do you say a final goodbye?
When you don't want to.

I wonder what she thinks about
Confined to her bed
A life long gone with only memories in her head

I wonder what she thinks about
Carefree as a child?
When she could be playful, free and wild

I wonder what she thinks about
The man she took as her husband
The happily ever after that was never bound

I wonder what she thinks about
When she had her kids at home
To love and care and nurture us, as we were her own

I wonder what she thinks about
Was she sad when we moved away?
Did she feel alone and abandoned as we went about our day?

I wonder what she thinks about
Laying motionless in her hell
A life that has now passed with only memories in an empty shell

She brought me into this world
Now I'm not ready for her to walk out

When your world has been turned upside down
The rest of the world still carries on
Continues to Spin around
As if nothing is wrong
Whilst your world crumbles to the ground
And your screams carry no sound

As the rest of the world still carries on

A zillion voices tell you
... What to do
Your own silent screams
... Fall on deaf ears
Your head is about to burst
... It is a curse
So listen to your own voice
... That is your choice

DEAD EYES HAVE NO SOULS
NOTHING TO SEE IN THESE WINDOWS

Surrounded by bodies
Laughing and talking
But I hear only white noises
Like the dead walking
Each with their own lives
Seas of souls
Together they strive
Yet I feel alone

When a sigh is like a million angels giving up.

The lost cannot be found
Even when they stand on the ground
In front of you
They can be invisible

Shadows cast upon broken souls
By those who tread on tired toes
Who see nothing below their ignorant nose
As their own selfish ego grows

Shameful deceit they will feed
Beyond their own insatiable greed
Trampling anyone under their feet
Forgetting their maker one day to meet

I broke bread with you
But you ran off with the butter

Angry words leave mouth to relieve
But forever haunt those who hear

When letting go means broken nails
Desperately clinging onto broken dreams
Bleeding knucking as you constantly fail
To hold on with all your being.

Burning tears flow down your face
A thousand knife wounds sting all the while
As your life ebbs to a desolate place
You still  greet the world with a smile

How is it that forks in the road
Are decisions that cut like a knife?
No matter what route we go
The choice may not be right.

Broken hearts can mend
Memories will fade and decend
Trust can never be regained
And their scars remain on skin

My inner screams echo through my empty heart
Bouncing around no end no start
Will this deafening sound ever end
I guess it will when I'm finally dead.

When the summer warmth cools by day
And the tan of skin starts to fade
When the nights start to chill
And the rain starts at will

When trees  start to shed their leaves
As though they cry golden tears
And the dawn wakes a little later
The nights draw close as we come into winter

Ice upon our window sills
Birds don't sing , it is quiet and still
That nip in the air as you look to the sky
And you can't believe that summer just flew by

Out comes gloves and scarfs and coats
As summers sweet kisses turn cold
You feel the chill upon your spine
When you finally accept its wintertime

Sometimes the purist souls
Are the ones who always get hurt


Stay strong A.M. ❤

Drops of rain that forms a puddle
Watching them drop in a splish splash muddle
Or feeling sun against your face
And amber dusks after hazy days

Soft kitten purrs, cuddles and love
Laying on grass, looking at clouds above
The taste of summer still on your lips
Paddling in the sea, as water reached your hips

Watching the sunset and the skies go black
The moon appears and lights up the dark
The sweet kisses of your beloveds mouth
Scent of skin in which you can drown

All memories of our yester years
Remembering with smiles and some with tears
Some small some fully blown
But every one our very own.

A poet can ****** you with a single word
..
............ Or cut you in half with a poisioned tongue

Value is not what others place upon you
It is the value you place upon yourself

I sang the song of a broken heart
It deafened the darkened sky
And though it pulled my soul apart
Nobody could hear my cry

A smile can hide a million woes
The ones that nobody needs to know
The inner turmoil of your soul
Each day you hide the tears that flow

A smile can hide a million broken dreams
That keeps you awake when you should be asleep
When plans you made are just distant memories
When once the world was at your feet

But that one smile that finally breaks through
The one that sparkles like a precious jewel
The inner light comes through innocent and pure
That smile is your smile, the one that is true.

If you test someone's loyalty
By keep pushing them away
They will eventually leave
And you will have passed your test

Congrats.

Every memory that makes you cry
Proves you lived before you die
Each tear that falls with a memory
Will live with you for your eternity

The echos of my broken screams
Whirled through my ribcage
Like the cold winds
In a desolate forrest
Looking for a place to rest

I loved you so much
I let you go
My sacrifice was such
I lost my soul
You thought I was gone
I was always here
My love will go on
Through hidden tears

Forever is a word that does not exist
Nothing lasts forever.... does it?

My tears fell heavy like drops of pain
That shattered like glass on the floor
All carrying memories not the same
Each drop from my broken soul

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder
But may I take a step bolder
And say
some see the beauty in ugly
Some see the ugly in beauty
But what is beauty? What is ugly?
Do we have an opinion to say?

Every fallen tear
Was a silent scream

We lost forever
When you changed your mind
I guess the future will never
Be something that can be defined

When I was 10 feet tall
Tho I was small
Sitting on your shoulders
Seeing so far ahead
Hitting my head
On the doorframe
But felt no pain
Oh how we laughed and laughed and laughed
Coz you were my dad
And I sat
10 feet tall

(A good memory)

It is never a sacrifice
When you give from your heart and soul

With one silent tear
A million words were spoken
But they all refused to hear
Just how much she was broken

With one silent tear
A million words were spoken
But they all refused to hear
Just how much she was broken

Take a quiet moment to listen to silent screams
They will deafen you.

Fists break bones

..... don't let it break your spirit.

Time stands still when you hold onto pain
When you let the demons of the past take the rein
They punish you again and again
They will make you go insane

If you cannot forgive and forget
At least try to move on my friend
Allow deep scars to heal and mend
Then a peaceful future is ahead

Give yourself a chance ***

A hug is a piece of heaven
From one soul to another

Walk with me by my side
Lets just laugh and love and talk
Life will never come in a straight line
But hand in hand we will walk

Take each day as it comes
As if it were our last
Time just seems to run
And life passes so fast

Sometimes I get insecure
And think it will never be
In your eyes there is the cure
I see eternity

One day we will become dust
Particles embedded in the earth
Combined, ground and crushed
In millions of years we won't be ourself

Maybe then I will be someones diamond

I watched you sleep
Watched your chest rise n fall
You were at peace
Not in torment at all

Your breathing was deep
But you did not snore
You looked content and sweet
I watched you more

You must have sensed me
As you turned to your side
Arms wrapped me tightly
So in your chest I could hide

The soft glow of the moon shone
Casting light from a darken sky
Tomorrow a new day is born
But what a beauiful night for today to die

Sometimes I want to be alone
Wishing just to be left on my own
To feel pain of a heart torn

Sometimes I need to be by myself
Content to sit feet dangling on the shelf
Me, myself with my sanity and health

Sometimes I just need time
Being a little selfish is not a crime
Body mind and soul combined

Sometimes I just don't want to share
It is not because I do not care
Just suffocating in life's cruel snare

Yesterday I forgot who I was
Today I don't recognise me
I have many different thoughts
But just one identity
(Just Me R)

Whilst lost through time, along with my identity, I lost my mind.
(Ryan Adler)

One light refracted into many
My prismatic soul, subdivided
Incandescent borne iridescence
I am transmuted stark incognito
(Bill Hughes)

I know I am 'YOU'
I feel you within me
Within my bones, blood, neurons, genes
I know I have lost 'ME'
Now my NEW identity is 'YOU'
(Melancholy of Innocence)

I whispered "I love you" in the breeze
Hoping you would remember our years
Let them travel with ease
My words  would reach your ears

I watch some leaves abound
Dancing above like my words
They floated in the air round and round
Till they tumbled to the ground