selfishly,
my darkness absorbed any light it could find,
that light was you.
i drank you up until i could stand on my own
i left you thirsty and without answers.
you filled a void someone else created.
you soothed the wounds as he carved them,
healed,
i went back to him in good condition
because of all your hard work
then i would return,
hopeless and cracked
you put my pieces back together so many times.
then one day i never came back.

i take you in.
your hands.
your smile.
your eyes.
It's hard to remember  loving anyone else.
i look at you
your puckered lips
your eyelashes
your scar traced hips
I don't dream of anyone else, awake or asleep.
you love me yearningly.
yet not overwhelmingly.
you love me wholesomely.
You smile at me like you have never seen anyone else.