Ignited by two unwanted stones, we charged straight for one another,
In a valiant battle, only we can describe, there you became my lover.
In not one but three drums beating, you marched right into my heart,
Afraid of no on-coming ambush, knowing that you could get hurt.
No trumpets or whistles did i hear you blow,to give me a warning sign.
No sooner had you begun fighting when I completely knew you were mine.
The battle roared on, they drew swords but you marched to the finish line,
Are you happy now that you have won? Listening to triumphant chimes.
What you hear is not blissful, there are no medals to be had.
Only a poor injured whisper, why couldn't you have been bad.
Now that you've reached your safe haven, is it what you thought it would be?
Could it be that its different?
You don't see yourself in me.

sometimes
when you take the leap
you fly
but i've never been happier to say
i fell
instead

remember, remember
the fifth of November?
because I do,
& I have all the words I wrote
from that night

i met a boy today,
he called it a date
*& I already must admit
that the way his dimples
are crooked, & his whole face
smiles, & the way
he loses his eyes
when he laughs
are my favourite
is it wrong to be in this limbo
with a boy
who is a mutual & very close friend
of your ex?
it doesn't feel wrong,
it feels like it could even be very right

we walked through the woods today
& it was lovely but
all too familiar
but I didn't even mind,
I just wonder
if this is the bridge I should take,
I took one today with you
& it was fantastic
I wish I hugged you tighter today,
I wonder what it will be like
when we fall for each other...

They say if you're wide awake at night
You're broken or madly in love
I do recall having spent many a night
Enveloped in that insomnia
Broken as can be
Believing it was hopeless to ever fall asleep
Until I slept for months when the nightmares ceased
As they were left only as my reality
I thought I could put my misery to sleep
& so it fell, asleep, no longer with me,
Thus better I became
Unbroken as can be.

One day I must have left
The latch on my healing heart unlocked
As I seemed to have let it open to love
& so I fell, again
But this time it was different
I found myself again laying in bed wide awake
Though there wasn't a trace of heartache
I found myself staring into the darkness of my room
Dreaming about the curve of his smile
The sound of his laugh, & I can't stop
When you fall in love, real love
Some nights you won't sleep
Right now I'm awake & thinking of the way he looks at me
Sleeping is overrated when your heart
Would rather wake your mind & entertain you with what
You can call "mine" & my gosh, he is all mine

It's 4:44 AM & my eyes are closed
But I'm wide awake dreaming
Of the smell of his clothes
Blanketed in the faint scent
Of him, from this afternoon
His presence lingering in my bed
From every day that we spent
Together entangled in our love for each other
Smiling between every kiss
& deeply forgetting all the world
Falling in love over & over
I lie awake tonight wishing my body was
Entangled elegantly in his
Although not tonight, someday it will be
So we must have faith in this love
You & me,
Because someday will come
& forever we will be

And as he touches your skin
you realize
you’re no longer yours
you’re his
and it’s been this way
for a long
long
long
long time