we fought again, inevitable difference
this one was the hardest

pain

to

endure

d
e
p
r
e
s
s
i
o
n
took my sober soul and cleansed my thoughts with evil

i sit and cry on a beautiful summer's eve
i blame myself for all of this
because i hurt you again, i think

i am so sorry for the
words
laughter
looks
despisement
hatred
and
curses
that you did not deserve

i know i ****** up again
because my mother started asking questions
and i lost one of my only friends

thank you for enduring my bitterness
and hurt i inflicted

this cancer is healed
but the cancer-disfigured-wounds lay behind
and all we can do now is forgive the cancer for existing and forgive each other

I
am
sorry,
Ryan.