and while it isn’t something that everyone wants
it’s something that everyone has
three years ago I learned how much I took life for granted when I tried to take my own life
three years ago I watched my mom cry in my hospital room when she realized she took my life for granted as well as her own
three years ago I heard my daddy screaming at the nurse when they told him what I’d done
You see, my dad has always been a cynical man
but not a day went by that he didn’t tell me that life is a beautiful thing
that can give out terrible situations
“expect the worst and hope for the best”, he’d always tell me
three years ago, I was expecting what I thought was the best as I swallowed a bottle of pills
three years later, I realize I was doing neither of those things
but rather I was saying “***** it” and quitting
I wasn’t expecting the worst because I was silly and thought my life was already the worst
and I wasn’t hoping for the best because I was naive and thought I’d never see “the best” again.