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NanaJustice Dec 2014
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A,B,C,D,E,F,G
Gathering thoughts that you gave to me am at lost for words its the smell of defeat .
H,I,J,K,L,M,N,O,P
Pouring out my heart leaving nothing behind, dehydration calling it a crime .
Q,R,S
Starving , craving love, can't keep holding on am not his spouse
T,U,V
Voicing my opinion but no one can hear
W,X,Y,Z
Zing , thought we zinged really thought we did but am here with a broken heart no hope no trust no love just tears..

#NanaJ
NanaJustice Jan 2015
There's a whole in my  heart
There's water in my  blood
there 's a space in my  brain
and there is a crack in my  smile
darkness is my hope black is my happy am broken am hurt
there's tears in my eyes
this poem is a drug that takes away my pain
it just ME, DARKNESS and the thought of being ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!
NanaJustice Jan 2015
I got this thing for black boys or should I say black men!
Hair, no hair, smiles with pearly whites ,
Black with that macho look, the one's who act like ain't nobody could mess with them.
Black boys who's pants are just a little bit under there waist  but smiles when they see a pretty little lady pass on by.
black boys or should I say black men with ambition and strength to rule the works but lets their ego take over their world.
I am in love with black boys!!!!
Many people may ask why? why do I say such thing?
See my theory is that black boys are the must sweetest
( They say it's the little thing that matters the must ) and the lord knows everything black boys do is little.
Don't get me wrong am not bring down my black boys, cause they are the best.
Either its in bed of just holding my hand letting me see whats coming next .
When you think about black boys in every little thing that you do your thinking greatness, your thinking strong, your thinking brave, your thinking fearless .
You see I , I  am a sucker for black men!!!!
They role , they fight, they  treat, they entertain , they love , they give hugs, but must of all they make you feel wanted in ways ............ lord knows i can't say does ways .
I am in love with a black boys and not the one's who worn't raise right or the ones who where mislead but the ones who where hurt , the ones who have no hope . the black boys with so much ambition that not even a steal house with no windows nor doors can hold in.
See I Nana R. Justice I am in love with a black boy and it takes more than just lips and hips to hold them down it takes courage strength and being brave cause lord knows black boys can be a handful but who cares.
I am in love with a black boy !!!!!!!!!!!!
Need me a black boy or should I say black man!!!!!!
NanaJustice Dec 2014
Ever had that feeling that no one cares even the people who constantly say things like am here for you but is never around the ones who say just call me and when you do they don't answer , people who make promises and never commit but isn't a promise a comfort to a fool , then call me stupid cause I  fell for it several times  am way pass the stage of a fool .
I got trust issues!! and its way pass crazy when you find that you  don't even trust your mother when you can't look at her and crack a smile for a few seconds because in the blink of an eye she takes it away.
I had a nightmare last night and I wake up trying to ketch my breathe but the truth  is it was my reality standing in front of everyone and no one can see me dying .
My alarm went off and this time I didn't  even know what for, screaming and beating ,cursing and scowling my mother went off from 6 -8 in the morning, lord know this my favorite way to wake up  giving me enough energy to go through my day all gloomy and **** but he always seem to cheer me up with the sound of his voice cause its a Cole world and all I gotta do is CHEER UP .

cause even through the joy i feel the pain even when it sun i feel the rain even when am  high i feel the low likes that's all I know and lord knows i can't complain cause even when i do it feels the same getting high just to fight the lows cause that all i know .....
So cheer up



#NanaJustice
NanaJustice Dec 2015
My soul is at peace when he speaks , his words penetrate my heart like a beat that can't be replace, retrace or even replaced by another . he know christ ! the best part is he's one of the  soldiers that are  coming and he is holding my hand on this trip telling me never to give up and to just keep on smiling because that smile one my face , the strive in my attitude and the success in my mind will take me a long way. and if he could only take me somewhere tonight either be the beach or the river side , it will all be ok cause he speaks the words of a true man, and promises never to take my love for granted and begs me to do the same , so you'll read this and never understand how the words of a righteous artist can impact a young girls life you don't know cause only I know ....
wishing he was mine lol
NanaJustice Sep 2015
Let's say I was given the power to create the perfect boy for me!
Where to start where to start we here to start?
Hmmmm....
Physically he would be tall dark and handsome with the sweetest smile ooo he'll have me week, his gestures would be so gentile, his eyes would speak peace and his lips would see me.
If I was given the power to create the perfect boy for me!!!
mentally he'll be a a Bee; who takes good care if his queens, his mother , sisters and even me. He'll be hard working and strive only for greatness. Determination will be his key to unlock the door to all our success for whats his is mine and what's mine is his !!!
If I was given the power to create the perfect boy for me !!!
Emotionally he'll be as fearless as a lion; territorial , respectable , genuine , humble, brave , patient but most important loyal to me...
If I was given the power to create a boy perfect for me!!
Spiritually he'll know his place and without god there won't be a we.
I could always wish dream and hope fur a boy , but weather it's time for me to find that guy the guy who work wine and dine and not only when he wants my dime  but all the time . I'll be hear waiting someday you'll find me and this time it would be better than the last for now I'll just chill
NanaJustice Jun 2015
Am my sisters keeper
For her smile I made that
Her tears I took care of that
Her love we share that
Am my sisters keeper..............
love her to death
NanaJustice Sep 2015
Irregular Irregular just an irregular emotion it comes every month I'll call it my period.
Some times it change some times it stays the same but must of the time it has me feeling so much pain; pain killers are my drugs and in this case *** is my love to get it off my mind I politely take my time and choice my next line to ****** you to come over cause baby its prime time.
Irregular Irregular just an irregular emotion it plays with the mind and most of the time it have me feeling drake with you on my mind past event that I can erase!! first two days are the worst cause it has me all upset thinking thing that god himself will not approve , but baby some times I wish you die so I wouldn't  have to encounter another you in my life .
I wish you would get sick but not just sick; sick that you cant do nothing just a dead weight .I wish so bad that as you walk on the street someone will just come take your life in a blink of an eye I'll be the first to cry cause then I would wish I hadn't  wish all the bad things I did when I was upset
Irregular Irregular just an irregular emotion thank you  god am on my last day the final days to ketch my step and realize am finally courageous enough to say I had enough and I thank her for taking you off my hands. It may sound like my period but its not its the three days out of every month I sit back and think about
the first guy I loved
glad to say that's in the pass here is your application am looking for a new man!!!!
I do miss my ex but things happen for a reason
NanaJustice Jan 2015
When I was little my aunt told me a story about this little girl who was just  like me. Heart so pure, smile so bright . In the end she would always call me her little time bomb.
see am a contradicting ticking time bomb , I could make my enter surrounding change with my next move . with that known I did me, not caring about who's around or who will get hurt as long as am happy my timer will never stop.I  had no emotion  towards anything or anyone for I knew if I stop my time will run out and everything  around me will have to bear that pain ,so I made it my responsibility to reduce that pain reduce the amount that surrounds me so when that day comes when I explode and no longer breathe it's OK, for I will be remembered  and not only for what I  had but for what I gave and the way I did.
My biggest fear is oblivion  but am inevitable! I must end and to know there was a time before me and there will be a time after me scares the crap out of me cause people will not exists and no one will be left to remember me .
That day , that cold winter day you passed me and smile barely even noticing me but my timer went 0-100 and I could not ketch my breathe and as you come out of sight it stop . I realized that day you where my time keeper .
Then came spring when we shared our first hello and for the first time my bomb stop ticking and I had feelings , my emotions ring, my heart beat normal for a change at first I loved it , but then I started to break for I started to lose you  and even dough I knew, my heart would not let me forgot you, you stored away my timer some where I could not even see .
Am a bomb without a timer am child without a soul, am a tree without leaves , am and ocean without water .
am a child and your my womb am asking to please let me go let me explode and cease to exist , I will no longer be a pain in your *** no longer be that guilt in your heart I will no longer hold you back please just set me off my timer is in your hand , any minute now am ready to go.
I no longer live with the fear of oblivion  for the timer who keeps me and the lover who lost me , the boy friend who never knew me, and the friend that saw right through me , will be the ones who will remember me for now I cease to exist
Yes its you
NanaJustice Aug 2015
The image you show is one of a happy boy turning into a man and yet to learn all the crosses of life . Tall dark skin that egg shape head that I can't seem to get the image  out of my head from between my legs .. But let's give you a glass of whiskey in fact that not enough heads up this bottle of bittaz just to make sure take two shots of tequila and I'll have you right where I need you to be . Telling me everything ,everything that hurts you everything that makes you feel some type of way . Telling me about girls you pass true and the fact that they made you feel whole for that second but you mind some how finds it's way back to the smile on my face that brings you at peace . Stories about lectures that teaches you nothing that you already haven't  known but yet it reminds you of me .. Back to the times we would sit for hours talking about life and the world and the people in it and every time you would ask the question did you know? I'll look at you and smile and say no I did not just so you can shake your head and continue thinking that your teaching me the world . Even duh everybody told me other wise I never dough yet for a second that you weren't the reason for my smile. Deep in your stories you said her name Mrs boo and you smirked a smirked you never did when talking about girls that reminded you of me . That very moment my heart sunk so far down I did not hear anything that you said after that it was like  I am at the bottom if the ocean searching for air to breathe know there was no way out but up , up seems so impossible to reach to I fight . Fight back the tear the anger the betrayal the disappointment . Holding my tongue and looking the other way . That night I found myself laying on my back with you on top and I felt nothing and usually we zing but yet i wanted to feel something but instead I stopped and looked you in your eyes and realize after all these year I still couldn't get you to look me in my eyes , I still couldn't get you to kiss me with your heart or touch me with your souls . But yet I fight back from leaving for my heart I was trying to store but how could you store away some you can't find . You lucked me behind jerseys and friends . You feed me to *******  and hoes , but I'll tell you this it won't be no more it my take sometime for me to get over you but lord knows I'll linger your mind for years to come because everything about her reminds you of me so try to leave try to forget you've place yourself in a trap and I wish you the best of luck for the original is on her way out while the Copy is putting you throw a drought...........

                                             ­                                          Yours truly
                                                                ­                        Justice
NanaJustice Feb 2015
They say breathe in the herbs and let out the pain but I still feel hurt that was left by the rain ,
They say to see a rainbow you gotta feel the rain but I can still see the storm after you came.
I place your shirt right next to my pillow ,so I can inhale the fragrant you gave . The  next thing you know it faded away, just like the love we made that day......

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