Beep, beep.....
Jolt me from my sweet dream
Check the time, 6:55a.m.
Late again
Coffee and granola it is then
One contact in, who needs the other
Do I really need a shower before work?
No probably not, Wait, did I shower yesterday?
No time
Hit the road
Green light turns straight to red,
Now coffee stains these old blue jeans
Whew, finally made it
Wash one dog, two dogs, ten dogs
Drool for gel, two bite marks,
Hair in my mouth that's not even my own
1 pm finally arrives!
Oh yeah, school
Three homework assignments, one exam, two papers,
Don't forget to follow up your discussion boards
Here comes job number two
Bus that table,
Take out that order,
Table 152 needs silverware
Get yelled at by the lady with the chicken salad
Back, forth, back, forth
How many steps can my legs make in one day
Check the time
11:47p.m.
Count up tips,
Walk the creepy parking lot alone,
Home..
Look at this bed
My bones are aching, tired and sore
Yet this bed isn't even tempting
To my exhausted body, to my exhausted heart
But I'll crawl in anyways
Beep, beep.....

And I just miss you...
That's all there is to it.

I know I could live without you,
I could eventually watch the snow fall without the image of your face burning in my memory
Someday I could pick up a sunflower and not feel the remnants of your lips on mine
I know I could be fine
But what if I don't want to

My heart is a beaten down shack,
Left in shambles
boards are splintering
A roof with a terrible leak
How can I sell it on the market
With all these exposed nails
With these wobbly floors
No new paint job can fix
My heart is a beaten down shack,
It has no curb appeal
No welcome mat waiting at your feet
My heart is a beaten down shack,
And yet, you look at it like it's home.

I imagine us
In places we have
Never seen
Surrounded by
Mountains and trees
And long lost love
That you waited to give me

But I'll take it
Because here we are
In a home
With black cups of coffee
And sunsets
In our soul

Our days are not over
Our days are not numbered
Our days are not measured
By a setting sun

I have love I need you to have
And to keep
And I want you to know
That this love climbs mountains
For you

You set fire to my heart my dear,
A fire that cannot be put out by water,
One that cannot be contained
Never to be stomped out
Or reduced to warm embers
And so this wildfire rages,
through my entire body
Engulfing anything in its path
As it searches for you among the ashes

"We fear silence like it's an invisible monster, gnawing at us, ripping us open, and showing us our dissatisfaction. Silence is terrifying. " -J.B.

Even if it's the silence we create for ourselves...even if we control it