There was a blue butterfly,
At my sill I saw it land,
And felt an emotion then,
That I try to understand.

The next day I returned,
And my blue friend did appear,
Not with awe inspiring flight,
But with crippling despair.

A ripped wing made flight hard,
Still it tried to fly in vain,
I watched with sorrow here,
On this side of the window pane.

I thought of all the butterflies,
And wondered why they fly,
The ground is so much safer,
Yet I always see them try.

Some torn from the air by wind,
Others stunted during growth,
But like them we all must live,
Flying high as if by oath.

We don't have a love like the rest
I compare it to Anastasia and Christian
You are so cold and dark inside
You can't provide love in my life
You can't save me from the demons in my mind
But I love the way you feel inside.

It's hard pretending I do not care
I wouldn't have it any other way
The way your thrusting inside me
Pulling my hair, and I scream.

Down on my knees looking up at you
This is what we have to offer
A secret life of ***, and I can't be your lover
But the way you grab me, pulls me away
You can take all you want
Just stay,  my fifty shades.

Young and so carefree, Do you remember me?
Or know me by a different name or date?
Unless we died with our phases of the sun, or moon, i don't remember.

Dreaming away all the vicious thoughts of monsters eating men.
Or of serpents and spiders making cobwebs in what was your brain.
Not to be confused with a worm smoking a hookah upon a mushroom.
Treason among everything you've ever loved, soon to just be memories.

Grazing the teeth broken up by bullet holes
Exiting through the back of my head to stain the ceiling.
Trying to piece together...what your angle is.
Or perhaps the angle of blood splatter.

Another ghost crawling through the house tonight
Never speaking, only screaming for a heartbeat.
Open up the door and peer inside to see,
Trees of the strangest colors, teacups with golden gleams.
Hand me another cup let me drink the drug once more.
Even if I've done you wrong,
Remember how you love me so much? cough  cough

Create a lie and explain your actions,
Hold your tongue in fear that it will slip and tell all your secrets.
All the horrors you've done, the sickness you have.
Nothing but cold ice in which you chill everyone else.
Commit treason and tell me the truth
Even if i know you're still lying.